Wednesday, December 28, 2005

"for now,dont bother to look furthur.. work with what u have now":Edmund.

I tink its time each of start to self reflect on what we've been doing .. Be it right or wrong, is it really what u are to do such things? Is it beneficial for u or others at all? what image are u trying to potray ?How significant are ppl around u ? and how are u distributing this amount of significance...

Hmm, Jp said this before"i can't accept the fact that this had happened " trully now... what really have happened ar? Is it someting we accept ? or is it someting we must amend? Don't tok about not being able to amend this kinda stuffs. It requires each of our little efforts to actually make things right again. Right, giving up is always the best solution in all the problems, what who is gonna lose out in the end? And omg, don't phrase things liddat on ur own" if i don't have this bunch of friends , i still have that bunch of friends" ay, seriously, how long would it take for all the parties to realise that disregarding is the best option? Well, i'ld say lets stop, and lets do it.Lets stop saying " this is hopeless, every one is liddat, this is not the first time she or he is doing it already, i give up , i had enough" .

Lets move on together.. lets continue what we are good at doing together... Lets stop giving up on each other, lets stop being pessimistic about us... let us been captured in dairies, photographs and memories down the road together.Lets give each other a chance and give ourselves a chance as well.

We will get there, eventually , some how...

Orite, i'm pretty down ranting about all these comments i wanna give... Sorry for being a person who is so concern about the ppl around him.. Feel free to leave a tag if u had any comments about this post..we are all ppl who love to share...

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Living in this emptiness inside of me.. just plain o'bored..

Rite, been pretty un eventful recently, the usual proposals stuffs and revision work for the exams only.ay, scrolling through the msn contacts again, so bored, up down left right. Life's pretty wasted here..suddenly every ting seemed to have subside down. ay , there is trend now in the group, the guys are gg out themselves and the gals are doing that also.. perharps we were nvr meant to be called a group at all, but maybe two groups~.. Hah.. why ar.. liddat..

Heard my brown's johnny zhng my car again. Ay, pretty lame and funny to me i tink, other wise i tink its just a bunch of fags having some interesting self form of entertainment.

Well, i'll just watch the birds , trees , skies grass and rain then..
3 cheers for better eye sight!

yay, i've finally pimp my blog... ay, hoping this would be much better then the previous colour template.. i always belive black and white is the best....

Saturday, December 24, 2005

MERRY CHRISTMASS AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

hey all blog peeps, gong xi fa cai, merry christmas.. Here i am , infront of my pc, on christmas eve, wasting my time away and eating a spring chicken instead of a turkey. Lol, but i tink tis year's chirstmas for me had been pretty interesting already.Went to the beach early in the morning with ch , km, ws and ct. Ay, the rest all ps us. gr8. We [played beach vball all day , ay the other teams were pretty good and ay, comical too.

Left them at 6 to go some where for someting... Lol. Mystery mystery mystery, mysterious me kept everyone mystified , guessing what the mystery is. Hehe.. Hmm, tot of going to ch's place after that but hmm, i tink i was nided some where else... Lol.. thus, i decided not to go ..

Oh yea, Mr santa~ i've tried being a good kid for this year... ay, i'm pretty sure i'm one. hehe, so why don't u start doing ur thing and start making my wish come true. Eh?

Thursday, December 22, 2005

don't hang me up high and drop me like a stone ...

Out fishing today.Hmm, tok about slowing down on a fast paced lifestyle.Been stressed, by the e learning week.. and the cycling stuffs didnt make life much easier..and omg, not to mention the support i'm receiving for all tis shet.. tis is totally.... *plays welcome to my life -by simple plan* For lord sake, i'm worst then he is..

Tink no point hiding, life tis past few days is pretty fucked up. Feel like just jumping off the building or smth.. make it short and painless..

Every one is pressing me for smth, yes , i owe them, projects, proposals and all the shet. FUck.. and they come all at a time.. and i feel no point in organizing events with no ppl turning up, always doing the wrong tings withuot some one to tell me the right ting, shooting blindly... and when i wanna give up, i tot of the club and how it will survive after i gave up.. fucken.

lets tok about the ride soon ling and me is supposed to be organizing for tis friday nite.. Note sl and me. ~ and i'm the only one doing the shet.. from writing proper proposal.. to contact wen jie to contacting the saa deparment.. and even the police for the permit. all i do.~ and its supposed to be org by me and him. Gr8.The best thing about this whole shet is that tis, ur doing soo much shet..putting in so much effort, and u have ppl telling u that they dont want to go becoz they dont feel like it... fuck. And some even blamed me for not telling them in advance and all.. please read the fucking big 4 by 2 meters wide white board in the club house... which i wrote every ting on. Ok la, blame me for not making extra effort for not calling each and single of the 30 members in the club.

Gees, i really salute wen jie..

oh yea, i didnt managed to caught fishes today... just caught 2 crabs.. hmm thats crappy enuff.. and dont ask me why i still have the time to blog so much when i'm complaining about the lack of time becoz i'm using the time waiting for the stupid server to load for me to blog..

peace out(p.z copy righted)

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Steam boat fever...

Been having loads of steam boats tis few days... friday with the guys.... sunday with the peeps.. today with the class.. omg... i've been on board three boats in less then a week.

Saw the aftermath of an accident just now.. Pretty bad i tink.. the motorbike with the car.. Hmm.. ms louisa mentioned before that one of the few things one might see before the occurence of a fatal accident is dark figures circling that area... Hmm, well.. those are the words of a medium... ay, dunno how true it will be. ANy takers?

hmm.. i think i can be so ignorant of things at times..

Monday, December 19, 2005

The results of hating.. disliking.. and disregarding..



Hmm.. how should i go about tokking about tis.


Man, born ignorant of mentally induced emotions,acknowledging only physically induced emotions.. How ever , as time passes by...we experience the defects of life and start knowing the different types of feelings.. one of them, hate. abhorrence leads to less appreciation to what one used to have..


why do we have to hate at first...Well, hate is caused by strong dislike after a series of course and effect .To hate now is being too genralising.. lets be a little more specific.. to hate some one..
We hate some one for the character they possess which is deemed as wrong to our perception.Note, we are learning as we are growing and its either we have ppl changing into characters we disregard or we adopting hate for a specific personality.
Why hate some one.Applying the word some one into the description on what causes us to hate would be; to hate some one would be caused by strong dislike after a series of course and effects .


An individual would know some one. He or she... would first give a neautral perspective of to him or her.. Well, this divides into different scenario... that person might cause dislike to him or her.. causing less appreciation..thus the person most likely will be disregarded by the individual. How ever they might become friends due to the mutual affection for each other. ( friend n.: person whom one is on terms of mutual affection ). Time passes by, that individual would have adopted different hates for different personality. What seems orite before might seemed not orite now already. The 'friends' that individual might have possesed the character that individual perceive as a hateful personality ... and he or she starts to hate that person... who one was his or her friend.


At this point of time... the individual makes a decision. To accept the friend for who he or she is ... or to start Disliking.. leading to disregarding... once friend... now some one who is disregarded..


That person who choosed to hate will continue to do so... disregarding.. and in the end gets disregarded too.. hate... is controversial... its a karma kinda ting too.. In the worst case scenario... we'll adopt hate for almost every ting and disregards everyting also... What are we left with after that??

Saturday, December 17, 2005

Keep lying and we'll get there...


Hmm, i forgot when was the last time before yesterday the six of us went out but i tink it did stirred up old memories yesterday. how ever diverged our path had been, there is still tis little bit in us that is link together. HOpeful? ay, dunno but think we've enjoyed each other company yesterday..


been naive tinking about the msn contact list tingy and the scrolling stuffs... some how i tink its all about getting back what u gave. or some how.. reaping what u sow.. smth liddat..Tings aint liddat naturally.. well, thats that .. Tings definately will get better... no one is alone.


Really take lotsa tings for granted.. so much so that i dont see them at all.. haha, my bad. I'll work on that.. hur hur..


k la.. go already.. ciao , happy holidays peepS!

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Time out..

Wootz, i've been so busy for the past few days that i didnt even have time to complain about it.. My my.. thk god most of it was over...

Yay, finally got the bike for my bro.. he seemed pretty excited about it.. nvr see him clean his bike clean until so enthu before.. woots, hopefully a new cyclist will be groomed.

Hmm, really very stressed now adays.. too hectic.. and i'm speaking too fast lately due to the lack of time.. see its really soo busy.. so.. i decided to relax and speak slower... hur..... hur........

ay. crap. anyway.. i added in icons.. for better navigations.. haha too much feed back on the spot the navigations game already..

Over and out....

Sunday, December 11, 2005

The sun.. the sand.. the breeze and the sea water.


Ay, My.. am i partially tanned now. Hmm , went to sentosa with the peeps today.. not to mention some stupid set backs tis morning. Damn.. some times, i couldn't help but hate. Oh well, life goes on as always.. ppl come.. ppl go.. we are learning so much both together and individually as we passed by all walks of life.


Perharps i'm hoping too much too.. Km said smth which really made me tink alot." we try very hard to remember , to experience the things we did before which was thought was enjoyable BEfore.. how ever , it seems the harder we try now.. the sadder we get from what all those failures. Things likes this are meant to take a more natural course where by if it will happened.. it will happened.."


I thought on impulse that hey.. that perception is wrong.. we should always fight for what we wanted ... not wait for it to come along..how ever, was condradicted when i was tinking the number of times we failed and fall badly.. and the number times we succeeded. The odds are quite obvious to the peeps who know.. so heres the catch... to fight and fail badly.. but have more hopes on succeeding.. or waiting for it to come to us... and not be so sad as we lead our own life , be it lone.. or be it another new 'home" in our hearts.. waiting for a miracle?

Saturday, December 10, 2005

CONGRATULATIONS SU FEN JIE JIE!!!

Hmm, so ..i just came back from the wedding dinner.. waiting for my turn to use the bath room.

AY, gramps was laughing when he told me.. " so tis time.. u don't have money to go to barber.. and u faced some strong winds on the way here.." Ay... coz in the past when i ruffled up my hair in attempts to style it.. he said it was messy and i gave excuses saying that the wind messed up my hair... And when i started to keep long hair.. he said it was long and i said i didnt have the money to cut my hair.. Ay.. not bad.

Ah ma knew about HX's gf liao.. omg.. and he is gonna bring her over to meet ah ma during new year... ay.... I hate it was his mum kept saying i couldn't get a gf.. well, not saying that i'm not confident with myself or wat... but , when she kept saying that.. its quite embarrasing.. infront of all the young ones.... ay. hx understands my plight though. Hmm.. every one is commenting on my hair today.. good one bad ones.. Da jiu said i look like that frog prince.. And i was like.. HUH~! ... but the best is when 4 jiu said i look like andy lau with the spoilt watch and side parting.~ my my.. Of course... quite a few didnt appreciated my hair as well. .. said it look like some wild grass or bird's nest.. Oh well.. HIGH SELF ESTEEM HIGH SELF ESTEEM HIGH SELF ESTEEM HIGH SELF ESTEEM

Hmm.. thats all for today.. hopefully it doesnt rain TML!!!!!!!

Friday, December 09, 2005

Put the picture in ur mind into the camera- Aundry



Tink i've been listening to Cmr song's too much.. even my thinkings had turned glorified and gothic.Ay..





Su fen jie jie is marrying tml.. ay , how cool.. ~ Hx gonna open the door for her.. Omg.. I tink i nid to grow shorter to do that... hmm.. or is it due to lack of recognition? Oh wat ever... will be able to see gramps tml.










I met tis damned damned skilled photographer just now.. Ay , tooked pictures for me to be publish on come magazine.. but ay, his works are just.. amaching.. Tot i learnt a trick or two from him. He told me his purpose in life and i was there wondering about my own.. Pretty corny question and pretty not orignial.. have u ever tot of ur purpose in life yet?











Well, at times i tot i did have a purpose , but hmm, as time passes by it just became part of a boulevard of broken dreams. Hmm, I belive alot of factors serve in changing our purpose in life... Some factors serve as guide lines. For example the reason why we study.. Take for example me.. pursuing at course in sp.. tis might result in me coming up with a purpose to do what my course is teaching me to do. how ever they are just guidlines though... we might not follow. AGain we are confused at what our purpose is in life? Wondering aimlessly waiting for ur purpose to come? Well, good idea ... but don't , we're supposed to find it. I tink, majority of us realised the fact that we don't usually get our purposes in life that easily... Its elusive.... wen we tot we found it.. we just lost track of it again. HOw many ppl died out there without trully finding their purpose and pursuing it till the very hand? Ay, tis question is indeed subjective.. ay , i'm sure i'm still looking for my purpose.. have u found yours??

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

3 months back jp started planning for the chalet.. 3 months back we were all hoping for a chalet... 2 months later...we couldn't get a suitable time slot for the chalet and we tried to slot in a camp cum chalet instead. HOW EVER.... costa sands allow only minimum one night of bookings for chalet and thus we decided on a two night camp. HOW EVER ... we could not find for the right place to camp in and ppl don't want to camp for 2 nights so we decided to camp for 1 night... AND WE couldn't find for tents and we decided to just have a BBQ at SENTOSA... HOW EVER ..we could not get any one who is 18 and is willing to go over with us to sentosa to help us book the pit thus we decided to book a pit at east coast instead... HOW ever... all the pits for the time slot we want has already been booked.. so we decided that we go to SENTOSA on saturday and go to jm's house for BBQ on sunday.... HOW EVER... my mum JUST ... i mean just.... told me that my cousin is going to throw her wedding banquet tis saturday and I MUST BE THERE... How cool....what a totally fuck up situation... It seems like there just nid to be just so many odds for us to go through...

Monday, December 05, 2005

Get hit the first time.. start dodging the second time..

"people always perceive one by what one does.. and not by what he actually is..."
How true is that.. am i seeing a classical demonstartions of superficial perceptions... or was it me, the one perceiving superficially . How do we even differentiate superficial from the truth. No matter the odds, i lay my stand that what one does.... don't neccessary defines what one is... Hmm.


Photo taking session today. Hmm... 2 shots.. ay, and thats it.. Good ness ~ for that 2 shots so many ppl were unhappy.. Lol..interesting ~

MOB test.. OmA... hope i dont fail man.. damn it.. the stuffs i studied.. only a fraction it came out. and quite a fraction of the test i didnt revised much on.. ay ay..

Didnt managed to jog today.. hmm.. wasted... got home too late.. oh well.. thats its for today..

Out~

Sunday, December 04, 2005

3 cheers for sad endings and heart breaks~!

Ay, its a sunday. I hate sundays... coz i know ima go to school tml... and sundays are nvr happy days coz i'll be spending too much time tinking about tomolo.. in conclusion... sunday sucks..

BEeen not motivated to do anyting... today.. tried riding... but after 3 laps.. i decide that thats it.. I dont have the mood to cycle today... went home. WEnt for pool with km and irvin.. ay, long time no see irvin liao.. well, he is quite a aspired guy for bass, i did mean aspired ... LOl.. but i duno about the talent.

WEll, couldnt judge on that.. i'm not music person myself.. tml's a test... MOB.. shet.. i hope i dont fail.. please let there be mcq questions.. Hur hur...

wish on~

Saturday, December 03, 2005

It a brand new day every daY!!!! -chicken little.

These couple of days have been pretty much good. Ay, with the return of jp.. its like adding colours into the dull lifes of every one,not polishing some one's boot o r smth.. but i really felt tis way. Its a whole new familiar sensation i've lost for too long. Well.. thats the power of the pei factor i guess..

Ay, and i got a new pair of slippers .. how nice.. Spent the whole of yesterday out. Went to plaza with jp first , the place changed too much. Then went to meet the rest of the peeps and went to xian de lai for steam boat. At bugis, ay, i like the sesame sauce. AFter that.. went to the arcade... there they went catching those big soft toys with those claw like machines, and OMG.... ch and km ,they managed to catch that very big tigger.. after spedning like 12 bucks. not bad.. but the rest of the peeps wasted quite alot of bucks also.. trying to catch someting..LOl..

WEll, i wasn't much gonna belive in luck till i saw that event that happened yesterday. After that went to kinda , ton at jp's house. Watched chicken little, ay funny show with lotsa teachings.. cool show for the kids. Then played cards till like 530 then i decided to went home.

Went swimming with km today.. after that badminton with the peeps again. Ay , too much.. Lol..

Thursday, December 01, 2005

NId a break..

Ay, welcum back Jp.. I tink u've waited 6mths for tis? Hmm hmm..

So tired from everyting seh, got tis sudden urge to laze again. To be unproductive.. lol, tempted..

So much Drama the past few days for me.. ay , too much can kill ... gimme a break...

Out~