OMFG ITS SUNDAY ALREADY~
Damn , one week more to msts , I fuckking dread them. So much so that i'm talking like some dumb fuckked bimbo..
I spent the past few days out late , so much so for cooping up at home flashing and psing previously. I feel much alive today. Its a perfect morning, my mum didn't forget to my paper and woots, finally some one did something about the coffee. Whats more, my aunt and uncle came over to visit us to help out with making dumblings..Then i didn't over slept today so yes, i'm productive. Its good.PLease , don't let anything happen to ruin my perfect Sunday..
Its dumpling day today. I think. Mum woke up early to start preparing for it , and i'm more then glad to help out. I wish i had my camera with me i'ld be able to post up my tasty cuboid dumblings. I don't understand why they want it to be pyramidal shaped when its soo much easier to make a cuboid one.Tsk
3 cheers for a wonderful SUNDAY!
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Friday, June 15, 2007
Love happens,really?
Ok, i've been spending tons of my time in front of my computer doing up flashes and photo shopping stuffs here and there.My mum is complaining about seeing the back of my head silhouetted by a computer monitor while i was doing all that shet. I'm coding so much so that i'm becoming a geek who shuns sun light and has a diet of 2 meals per day. If I don't start blogging now i'm going to start to avoid any form of communication with any body.
Been paying attention to the couples around me recently . Its interesting , to see how they try so hard to make things work,well, some of them they did succeed, for those who don't , trust me , i feel sorry for you.
That gave questions , whether the reason why they are so motivated to try so hard is because of love. Then its funny how they endlessly pour effort into something which isn't realistic. Ask any one , would you love him or her so much so that you're gonna walk the aisle together? Actually , i'ld laugh when some one answered yes to that question. Then , again for those who say they won't , why are you trying so hard for? Then there are those who decides not to choose. These people form the majority actually, maybe thats what ethically decided as , the correct way of perceiving the question.
Maybe falling in love doesn't have to be of realism . It just happens and goes as it is. How ever , I reckon it works the same when you engage in a relationship. Sure at some point of time you love each other , but tsk, what gives ? Maybe being in a relationship doesn't require love for each other after all .. it can be just , there .
Take for example a friend i have , now , whether he is a total jerk or not , you decide(ps. he might be another of my imaginary friend , so please re confirm before you assume). He is with
this girl well, for some time. He goes out with her and all and yea , they behave just like any couples would do. How ever , he has been having flings , ok , maybe not having , going to have or thinking along that line. He is sex driven and woots , other "hotter" girls appeal to him out there.In fact , he almost takes that his gf doesn't exist at all. Then it makes me wonder, why is he even in that relationship.
Well, one thing is for sure , people are still looking for their "suitable"partners here and there , me too~ That makes us all jerks and sluts huh? Wth , you must be wondering what point i'm trying to prove , well stop thinking, its 2 in the morning and i don't know what i'm typing again , whats more, there isn't a point to start with..
Been paying attention to the couples around me recently . Its interesting , to see how they try so hard to make things work,well, some of them they did succeed, for those who don't , trust me , i feel sorry for you.
That gave questions , whether the reason why they are so motivated to try so hard is because of love. Then its funny how they endlessly pour effort into something which isn't realistic. Ask any one , would you love him or her so much so that you're gonna walk the aisle together? Actually , i'ld laugh when some one answered yes to that question. Then , again for those who say they won't , why are you trying so hard for? Then there are those who decides not to choose. These people form the majority actually, maybe thats what ethically decided as , the correct way of perceiving the question.
Maybe falling in love doesn't have to be of realism . It just happens and goes as it is. How ever , I reckon it works the same when you engage in a relationship. Sure at some point of time you love each other , but tsk, what gives ? Maybe being in a relationship doesn't require love for each other after all .. it can be just , there .
Take for example a friend i have , now , whether he is a total jerk or not , you decide(ps. he might be another of my imaginary friend , so please re confirm before you assume). He is with
this girl well, for some time. He goes out with her and all and yea , they behave just like any couples would do. How ever , he has been having flings , ok , maybe not having , going to have or thinking along that line. He is sex driven and woots , other "hotter" girls appeal to him out there.In fact , he almost takes that his gf doesn't exist at all. Then it makes me wonder, why is he even in that relationship.
Well, one thing is for sure , people are still looking for their "suitable"partners here and there , me too~ That makes us all jerks and sluts huh? Wth , you must be wondering what point i'm trying to prove , well stop thinking, its 2 in the morning and i don't know what i'm typing again , whats more, there isn't a point to start with..
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Mocha
Behold, a Jack Russel terrier, an infinite source of energy. This one here is name after a mix of coffee and chocolate , which makes mocha. Mocha's my friend's friend , and is also my friend.How sweet. He never fails to lighten my mood every time i visit patrick's house and never fails to smear some of his saliva on me and leave plentiful of his fur on my shirt.
Every time I tease mocha around it reminded me of beng , which absence is still grieved. Maybe thats the reason why i like mocha that much. Hmm, a replacement huh.....
Saturday, June 09, 2007
Friday, June 08, 2007
Feeling Dysfunctional
Certainly , I'm tired of so many things . How people behaved , how they treated me , how they treated each other. It feels like they're out there to get each other.Some how , i feel that I'm the only one complaining about it. Its like, they feed on this vicious cycle , deprived of hate , ruins hope for a better day with an absolute eclipse.
I'm tired of feeling what i should be feel. I sneered at how people need to be hypocrites yet I'm the worst I've ever saw. I'm sick of being deprived of attention , or even worse.. getting those that i don't deserved.I cursed and swear with every shadow that bump against me , making me sway. I chased away those who wants to get at me , yet , i need some one to read me. Like a book , I wished to be accounted for , I wish some one understand my hand writings...
Tolerance is indeed a bliss, which I would love to blow it away with a kiss...
I'm tired of feeling what i should be feel. I sneered at how people need to be hypocrites yet I'm the worst I've ever saw. I'm sick of being deprived of attention , or even worse.. getting those that i don't deserved.I cursed and swear with every shadow that bump against me , making me sway. I chased away those who wants to get at me , yet , i need some one to read me. Like a book , I wished to be accounted for , I wish some one understand my hand writings...
Tolerance is indeed a bliss, which I would love to blow it away with a kiss...
Saturday, June 02, 2007
One of the worst
The almond drink didn't work=S I thought it did work but come next morning , I began coughing again and it got worse this morning. I had a bad dream in the middle of the night and i couldn't get back to sleep.I still can remember the dream, and its pretty ridiculous. I dreamt that i was looking at many good flash web sites and photos that I kept going ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG in front of my computer. I was frantic while dreaming that dream as i kept clicking on the different links and pages... I woke up in cold sweat and had a bad head ache. Period, been thinking way too much , brain hemorrhage.
It became even worse when my sinus set in and i was coughing , sneezing and my head was pounding... I had Panadol and that sent me to a rather, peaceful but coerced slumber in the later part of the afternoon. I woke up feeling better so i gave Ern a call to confirm the trip down to the IT fair. Then we were there , woots plenty of people... No Pz i didn't saw you ... theres plenty of people teeming around and whats more, i think my eye sight got dulled today@_@
Dinner was at sub way, i thought it'ld be healthy to eat there, despite the peanut butter cookie and coke, and a little ice cream for dessert. Ay, the guys are evil , as always , when they temt to eat that 50 cents ice cream , and yes , the sneezing and coughing and head ache came back in a package halve way through my ice cream. I was parched , so i and zj hydrated ourselves at 7-11, once again i thought apple juice would be healthy so i drank a can , woots , the sneezing got worse. I got home coughing terribly and there was phlegm and all, then i spit out some, blood, woots. I'm pretty sure that the blood was due to too much heat and all, so hmm, i'll just put liang teh as my main diet now. Its scary though , to cough blood.
It became even worse when my sinus set in and i was coughing , sneezing and my head was pounding... I had Panadol and that sent me to a rather, peaceful but coerced slumber in the later part of the afternoon. I woke up feeling better so i gave Ern a call to confirm the trip down to the IT fair. Then we were there , woots plenty of people... No Pz i didn't saw you ... theres plenty of people teeming around and whats more, i think my eye sight got dulled today@_@
Dinner was at sub way, i thought it'ld be healthy to eat there, despite the peanut butter cookie and coke, and a little ice cream for dessert. Ay, the guys are evil , as always , when they temt to eat that 50 cents ice cream , and yes , the sneezing and coughing and head ache came back in a package halve way through my ice cream. I was parched , so i and zj hydrated ourselves at 7-11, once again i thought apple juice would be healthy so i drank a can , woots , the sneezing got worse. I got home coughing terribly and there was phlegm and all, then i spit out some, blood, woots. I'm pretty sure that the blood was due to too much heat and all, so hmm, i'll just put liang teh as my main diet now. Its scary though , to cough blood.
Friday, June 01, 2007
I treat the people who read my blog well..
I think...
I let you guys listen to nice songs.. I try my best to cheer you up....I kill time for you.... I reccomend remedies for you...I even drew nice pictures for you =) <----- So when evangelline asked for the chawanmushi to be put up again , i can't be more glad than to oblige , so Evan..
heres what you asked for ..
I let you guys listen to nice songs.. I try my best to cheer you up....I kill time for you.... I reccomend remedies for you...I even drew nice pictures for you =) <----- So when evangelline asked for the chawanmushi to be put up again , i can't be more glad than to oblige , so Evan..
heres what you asked for ..
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Almond Drink is good
The weather for the past few weeks in Singapore is nothing but hell. Its terribly hot in the day and even at night , god bless those people who invented the air-conditioner.I think i'll be reduced into a puddle of essence of me if theres no air conditioning around.
The high temperature is bad. It harms the body , mentally and physically. Mentally for example the group that i'm working in,we almost commited homicide during meeting discussions . Damn the bloody weather for making hot heads hotter. If frustrations ain't enough we've got people falling sick. Jeeze, I bet the stock prices for ma kuang medical hall or the poly clinic have been rising like how hot air rises .
If you are how ever , having sudden, often repetitive, spasmodic contraction of the thoracic cavity, resulting in violent release of air from the lungs ,usually accompanied by a distinctive sound, in other words.. cough.. You can have an ALMOND DRINK.
I've been coughing my adam's apple out for the past few days and i just couldn't get a cure. Mum came back with 2 bottles of Almond Drink and told me to finish one bottle. It tasted not bad so i glady gulp the latter down, and the effect is instantaneous!I'm feeling better already, ok , thats what i feel, i dunno whether i'm better or not ,but ITS GOOOOOOOOOODDDD. If you are having sudden, often repetitive, spasmodic contraction of the thoracic cavity, resulting in violent release of air from the lungs ,usually accompanied by a distinctive sound, in other words.. cough.. do give Almond Drink a go.. don't say i never say.
The high temperature is bad. It harms the body , mentally and physically. Mentally for example the group that i'm working in,we almost commited homicide during meeting discussions . Damn the bloody weather for making hot heads hotter. If frustrations ain't enough we've got people falling sick. Jeeze, I bet the stock prices for ma kuang medical hall or the poly clinic have been rising like how hot air rises .
If you are how ever , having sudden, often repetitive, spasmodic contraction of the thoracic cavity, resulting in violent release of air from the lungs ,usually accompanied by a distinctive sound, in other words.. cough.. You can have an ALMOND DRINK.
I've been coughing my adam's apple out for the past few days and i just couldn't get a cure. Mum came back with 2 bottles of Almond Drink and told me to finish one bottle. It tasted not bad so i glady gulp the latter down, and the effect is instantaneous!I'm feeling better already, ok , thats what i feel, i dunno whether i'm better or not ,but ITS GOOOOOOOOOODDDD. If you are having sudden, often repetitive, spasmodic contraction of the thoracic cavity, resulting in violent release of air from the lungs ,usually accompanied by a distinctive sound, in other words.. cough.. do give Almond Drink a go.. don't say i never say.
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
We're victorious with a lost..
The atmosphere was tense..a bead of sweat dribbled down my side burns as i held the ball, ready to serve.We're on par with our opponent, saint hilder's alumni, the champions for the tournament last year and by far, our more formidable opponent.We won the first set , and they won the second , and now , we're on par on the 3rd set, 19-19... no one had expected Zheng hua to be playing so well against such a strong opponent , and to be able to send them running on their heels. Eventually, the crowd began cheering for zheng hua , strangers became supporters, enemies kept their mouth open wide and stare at awe, the whistle blew and i served the ball over.
Memories of my time at zheng hua training as a vball player flash as the game proceeded.I still remember the time when Mr Sng bought us a pail, and the few of us chipped in money to buy us a bottle of syrup and we mixed it in the pail and drank from there! Its hilarious , the things we did during our trainings in Zheng hua. I still remember how we start walking during the jogging session when coach isn't looking and ran like crazy when we're in his scope. Then the times when Mr sng says he wants to treat the whole team to break fast .. we were so happy but were disgusted when he came with 70 cents plain bee hoon with chilli sauce as a side. Then the time when he made a bet with us if we won our ever first finals at the west zone he'll buy us anything, and gen yuan asked for a mrt. We won, and yes , Mr sng owes us a mrt.
Now every one of us have different paths already, Ct and jy plays for Sp and have improved so much , Ws became the captain of team Nyp, Yk became the captain of team Rp , while the rest of the team , ppl like me.. remain in our solitude. My thoughts snapped as i prepared for the spike , the crowd started their chant .." wooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...... SAH~"
We lost.. the game , the players at saint hilders are great. They've got good skills , height and strength. As we shake our hands , we knew in our hearts, that we won. We sent chills down the spine of a giant , we fought till the very last point was wasted, we salvaged every points with every ounce of energy we had and we made a difference.That match was zheng hua's victory, our win.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Volleyball fiesta
A couple of quick updates on what i'm doing..
Been playing loads of vball matches lately, couldn't get enough of them. For bukit panjang we're into the quarter-finals already which is on next tuesady , woots it seems so effortless to play with team bukit panjang csc, they're good. Then , i'm now in team zheng hua alumni , like finally, i'm able to play for zheng hua again. We're now facing off different teams in our preliminary rounds in the national under 19 vball tournament.We defeated team zypheus today with a lip smacking 2-1 win. It was smacking indeed , the net was set so low today that every one had no problem over coming it , so much so that i jumped too high and had my head blocking the ball instead of my hands. Well, that kinda summed up to my bruised left eye. Its a comedy ... oh yea, did i mentioned, 10 yellow cards were issued in our match . . .totally ridiculous
I gave it a thought and maybe , vball ain't that bad to play. Since i can't cycle well any more , might as well settle for a sport which i could just play.. less competitively. Cycling is nice and all , but its all solo. I'ld like solo once in a while, but to train in solitude.. to be too fast in front of the pack, or too slow ... its always a solo affair. You don't share the glory of wining a race with any one else. You got it yourself. I've got enough of individual glory, enough to satisfy myself.I'm an easily satisfied person so Shut the fuck up , if u think I'm showing off .
Maybe volleyball would be a good thing to continue after all. There is more team work , and we win or lose as a team. Glory isn't just some nonsensical self proclaiming any more. Its a big shout out from 12 people, that we won~ eat that.
Ay ok la.. I like vball .
Been playing loads of vball matches lately, couldn't get enough of them. For bukit panjang we're into the quarter-finals already which is on next tuesady , woots it seems so effortless to play with team bukit panjang csc, they're good. Then , i'm now in team zheng hua alumni , like finally, i'm able to play for zheng hua again. We're now facing off different teams in our preliminary rounds in the national under 19 vball tournament.We defeated team zypheus today with a lip smacking 2-1 win. It was smacking indeed , the net was set so low today that every one had no problem over coming it , so much so that i jumped too high and had my head blocking the ball instead of my hands. Well, that kinda summed up to my bruised left eye. Its a comedy ... oh yea, did i mentioned, 10 yellow cards were issued in our match . . .totally ridiculous
I gave it a thought and maybe , vball ain't that bad to play. Since i can't cycle well any more , might as well settle for a sport which i could just play.. less competitively. Cycling is nice and all , but its all solo. I'ld like solo once in a while, but to train in solitude.. to be too fast in front of the pack, or too slow ... its always a solo affair. You don't share the glory of wining a race with any one else. You got it yourself. I've got enough of individual glory, enough to satisfy myself.I'm an easily satisfied person so Shut the fuck up , if u think I'm showing off .
Maybe volleyball would be a good thing to continue after all. There is more team work , and we win or lose as a team. Glory isn't just some nonsensical self proclaiming any more. Its a big shout out from 12 people, that we won~ eat that.
Ay ok la.. I like vball .
Thursday, May 17, 2007
The jaw dropper...
Sheesh , its been a helluva week, Projects, tutorials , vball, club stuffs.. GG , I'm cranked out . Not to mention i'm so busy acting busy most of the time. Sheesh , and there is this presentation tml , damn and my leather shoe gave up on me this morning while meeting our client. , it couldn't got worse. Its good that i've got a bunch of carrying team mates and ly actually ran all the way to the club room to get my other pair of shoes, woots, thanks man.Much appreciated.
So, the other day Patrick showed me this girl , upon seeing her , i had the image of her Etched right into the back of my head. Sheesh, i just can't forget her.Well, so I'll be kind and I'll share the good stuffs, so i decided to post a pic of this
marvellous
hot
sexy
bootilicious
Stussy
Girl....
Don't look any where else ...
Jaw dropper, ain't she...XD
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Appreciation , uniformed..
" Auntie can you help me to clean the table please, its very dirty , thank you"
Wearily , she drapes her rag onto her arm and push the cockery cart to the table . As she swiped the grime, her eyes wandered around the vicinity . Every table sat a family , or at least , a mum and her child . There were roses and cakes and beautifully wrapped presents in the arms of mothers. She looked at her hand covered with filth , took a deep breath and submitted to fate.
"Heres the pay for this month , sorry it came so late, the people up there were giving us a hard time."
"Thank you" she croaked.
" Hows ah boy doing? Has he been going to school and all? I hope he mixes well with his class mates..."
She kept her reserve and managed a smile as she packed her uniform into her bag. Ah boy is 19 years old now, he is her only son. The father died in a freak accident at his work site , leaving her as the family's sole bread winner. Ah boy finally made it into pre-school this year , he was diagnose with autism at the age of 3.
The casual walk back home became draggy steps. Her legs feels especially heavy today . The gates creaked open, marking the end of her tormenting journey back home. She sauntered in the dark pass her living room and into her bed room. She then took light foot steps into the kitchen for her shower in an attempt to make as least noise as possible, not wanting to wake ah boy up.
As she turn on the lights at the kitchen , she was froze.
"Ah boy! "
The child looked at her mother guiltily as he sat on the floor , infront of him laid cutlery sprewn across the floor.
" Ma..."
" what are you doing? So late haven't sleep!"
"I want to cook dinner for you ma, teacher said today is mother's day , I want to thank you for being my mum"
Tears welled up in her eyes as she dropped on her knees to hug her son...
" Shi shan zhi you ma ma hao, you ma ti hai zi...~~~~"
The dim moon light creeps off as he continued singing......
Friday, May 11, 2007
The escape..
I've not been blogging much as you guys have noticed,not because i'm busy but because blogger gave me some fuck up error, thus i can't post, but here goes , a post which is due 6 days ago..Patrick the star fish introduced me to this wonderful place to fish a few weeks ago and I've been dying to try the place out. Last Sunday was a beautiful day thus i loaded my gear and cycled to the spot. Now one good thing about the spot is that its far away from civilisation, least considered far away for a Singaporean "spot" . Its almost seems un disturbed by any human activity and heres the catch , you don't get any net work reception in that area. Imagine you were to die there ,how nice.
Despite the swampy condition of its parameters, its actually quite a nice place to be at . Its peaceful ambiance eradicates any stress you have . Some how , it can be quite eerie when it gets damn quiet when even the cicada decided to shut up. Well, that didn't really bother me , i like a mysterious surrounding once or twice , for that moment of serenity . I didn't even mind if i don't catch any fish at all!
Nevertheless ,I did manage to land some fine catches at that area. Only a specific species though , the giant snake head(Channa micropeltes), other wise locally known as Toman or Siam lui.
Being a high level predator means that the Giant snake head eats many other fishes, amphibians and even small birds, but is not preyed upon by many other species. The Giant snake head is considered gregarious, with the young often following closely to their mother. There have been reports of protective mother Giant snake head attacking men who have disturbed the snake head's school of juveniles.
Well, not that I've been attacked , i wouldn't want to go swim if i know those fishes are in the water man. I did waded about knee deep to retrieve my line when it got snagged in some underwater branches though, with fear.Just look at it baring its teeth.I couldn't bear bringing home those fishes and destroying that habitat and its Eco-system, thus fishes caught were all released after photo taking. The day was concluded with an awesome sunset . As i gulped down my Heineken , i couldn't help but have the urge to go at the spot once again , that my friends, is living the high life, my style.
Saturday, May 05, 2007
Happy birthday Jp..
I've a confession to make .
Jia pei , it is your birthday and you are supposed to be expecting a message and a present from me in perth. Heres the confession , I've not sent you message nor the present. =X Ok , now you can go ahead and call me heartless , ungrateful and all those shet , because i really think i'm something like that . Ay, sorry .... i'm just too busy acting busy...
Despites all the names you're gonna start giving to me , i'ld like to say that i'ld treated you all the same and i'm grateful that you're always there and all , being concern and all those shet . Tsk , I know you're gonna go its ok and all for not getting ur present and sending you a message and all but tsk , face it, i could have . SORRY!
Well , in any case, please don't go thinking u're any less appreciated by me or any stuff along that line. Happy birthday ~ =)
Jia pei , it is your birthday and you are supposed to be expecting a message and a present from me in perth. Heres the confession , I've not sent you message nor the present. =X Ok , now you can go ahead and call me heartless , ungrateful and all those shet , because i really think i'm something like that . Ay, sorry .... i'm just too busy acting busy...
Despites all the names you're gonna start giving to me , i'ld like to say that i'ld treated you all the same and i'm grateful that you're always there and all , being concern and all those shet . Tsk , I know you're gonna go its ok and all for not getting ur present and sending you a message and all but tsk , face it, i could have . SORRY!
Well , in any case, please don't go thinking u're any less appreciated by me or any stuff along that line. Happy birthday ~ =)
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Egoism,charismatic yet annoying in abundance...
Its been extremely busy for me, i was tied up with the club's FO camp and school.. So i thought i could blog alil before i go to sleep, tsk , waiting for hair to dry..
So we won the match , Shawn came with a casted leg -_- pff, what irony, thus i played that match... Its quite a nice fight i guess, well, i definitely feel the knees crying in agony as I pushed them to their limits jumps after jumps..Tsk, break already , if you must..
The Fo camp went pass last sat, well lotsa stuffs to improved on but we pulled through. AS i looked around the comrades which fought with me to keep the club alive , i see rusty blades... WE're tired... I'm tired... The battle had taken its toll...Its hard to put up a good fight any more.. THen i saw new faces, a new era, the young blood, which will carry on this fight , not for glory, not for recognition... but to strive for the passion that runs deep within the blood , that pushes us to triumph, the fight for SP cyclists...its been a long long journey......I'm glad that we came through...
Egoism would best be describe by how a man overwrites perceptions given by others with his own beliefs and interest. Egoism occurs in both man and woman alike , its good to have alittle ego here and there but it definitely pisses me off when one flaunts his or her ego like its nobody business.IN this case , I'm Glad to be more exasperated with a MAN's copious ego.
I didn't really believe that egoism is anything good before , but some one, passed down a comment that egoism would add to one's charisma.I thought over it and found that its quite true that one who possesses his own set of beliefs has scored more likes and leadership qualities then some one who does not. See now , that's the time where Egoism is good to have.
However , what isn't good to have is TOO MUCH EGO. Imagine this situation, you're in a team doing some project for a client, and you believe that what ever applications you've input would work . You see your idea as a piece of art and would turn out to brilliantly and much appreciated by the client . How ever , in the eyes of many others who've seen or heard about what you're going to do thinks it isn't going to work that way. They've advise you , they tried to coax you, they've even did something which is better for you to look at , but you still hold your stand that your work is gonna work , stubbornly. You then take charge of the team and had them carry out your idea , and when you shown it to the client , he wasn't the least impressed. Voila , you pulled your team mate , and yourself into a toilet bowl full of shet, yes , you are in deep shit. Then you start thinking that the client's views are wrong and its unjust and you kept whining about the perfect plans you had. Pretty annoying now , ain't it?
Well, here's some two cents worth of advise I'll like to give . Its good to have you're own believes , and its good to fight for what you want. How ever , when the whole world thinks what you're doing is dumb , that's the point to start thinking that your are not that smart after all. Take for example King Leonidas from the movie 300 . If you've not watch it , go watch it , its a pretty nice film , good animated muscles and all. So , king Leonidas took 300 spartan soldiers out for a nice battle down the valleys of mountains with the Persians. He strongly believes that he should carry on his spartan tradition and all that shet , ditto, that's having egoism. That egoism sparked him to take 300 soldiers out to the battle fields to kill, yet quite some number from the enemy side , in fact its quite impressive what the 300 could do. How ever , They ended all dying piling on top of each other , with arrows stuck in their bodies when the Persian army came down full force on them(I can't imagine the pain if the arrow struck the , you know... part first.)Now , that 300 , what if any one of them harboured the thought that he didn't wanted to do this , but its his king's egoism that clouded his views, that he doesn't wanna voice out , in fear of spiking his king's Egoism. What if any of them would have those thoughts? Now , great egoistic one... put yourself in king Leonidas shoes, what would you do?
Well, its up to you now whether you still wanna be stubborn or not , change when in the need to ... If you still want to flaunt that egoistic "quality" of yours , you could go get yourself your little spear and shields, wear some sandals or something and go scream like some one just stick a cactus up your arse...
So we won the match , Shawn came with a casted leg -_- pff, what irony, thus i played that match... Its quite a nice fight i guess, well, i definitely feel the knees crying in agony as I pushed them to their limits jumps after jumps..Tsk, break already , if you must..
The Fo camp went pass last sat, well lotsa stuffs to improved on but we pulled through. AS i looked around the comrades which fought with me to keep the club alive , i see rusty blades... WE're tired... I'm tired... The battle had taken its toll...Its hard to put up a good fight any more.. THen i saw new faces, a new era, the young blood, which will carry on this fight , not for glory, not for recognition... but to strive for the passion that runs deep within the blood , that pushes us to triumph, the fight for SP cyclists...its been a long long journey......I'm glad that we came through...
Egoism would best be describe by how a man overwrites perceptions given by others with his own beliefs and interest. Egoism occurs in both man and woman alike , its good to have alittle ego here and there but it definitely pisses me off when one flaunts his or her ego like its nobody business.IN this case , I'm Glad to be more exasperated with a MAN's copious ego.
I didn't really believe that egoism is anything good before , but some one, passed down a comment that egoism would add to one's charisma.I thought over it and found that its quite true that one who possesses his own set of beliefs has scored more likes and leadership qualities then some one who does not. See now , that's the time where Egoism is good to have.
However , what isn't good to have is TOO MUCH EGO. Imagine this situation, you're in a team doing some project for a client, and you believe that what ever applications you've input would work . You see your idea as a piece of art and would turn out to brilliantly and much appreciated by the client . How ever , in the eyes of many others who've seen or heard about what you're going to do thinks it isn't going to work that way. They've advise you , they tried to coax you, they've even did something which is better for you to look at , but you still hold your stand that your work is gonna work , stubbornly. You then take charge of the team and had them carry out your idea , and when you shown it to the client , he wasn't the least impressed. Voila , you pulled your team mate , and yourself into a toilet bowl full of shet, yes , you are in deep shit. Then you start thinking that the client's views are wrong and its unjust and you kept whining about the perfect plans you had. Pretty annoying now , ain't it?
Well, here's some two cents worth of advise I'll like to give . Its good to have you're own believes , and its good to fight for what you want. How ever , when the whole world thinks what you're doing is dumb , that's the point to start thinking that your are not that smart after all. Take for example King Leonidas from the movie 300 . If you've not watch it , go watch it , its a pretty nice film , good animated muscles and all. So , king Leonidas took 300 spartan soldiers out for a nice battle down the valleys of mountains with the Persians. He strongly believes that he should carry on his spartan tradition and all that shet , ditto, that's having egoism. That egoism sparked him to take 300 soldiers out to the battle fields to kill, yet quite some number from the enemy side , in fact its quite impressive what the 300 could do. How ever , They ended all dying piling on top of each other , with arrows stuck in their bodies when the Persian army came down full force on them(I can't imagine the pain if the arrow struck the , you know... part first.)Now , that 300 , what if any one of them harboured the thought that he didn't wanted to do this , but its his king's egoism that clouded his views, that he doesn't wanna voice out , in fear of spiking his king's Egoism. What if any of them would have those thoughts? Now , great egoistic one... put yourself in king Leonidas shoes, what would you do?
Well, its up to you now whether you still wanna be stubborn or not , change when in the need to ... If you still want to flaunt that egoistic "quality" of yours , you could go get yourself your little spear and shields, wear some sandals or something and go scream like some one just stick a cactus up your arse...
Monday, April 23, 2007
Kid and old man
Some times when i go out with my friends..they'll describe about the many sides of my characters ... many a time i disagree with their descriptions , because I KNOW MYSELF THE BEST! Pff, well , the reliability of that statement is questionable , so pff, i decide to start doing self assessments of myself , to show case , or admit .... the person i think i am.
I think i can be damn childish and immature at times . Just like a kid. I'ld whine and stuffs when i'm with the guys when i can't get the stuffs i want. I'ld be angry over the most meagre things like having to eat vegetables for the whole day. i'ld watch pokemon on saturdays and teenage mutant ninja turtles on sundays.I'ld show off when ever i can , like riding just alittle faster then the guy in front and smirking at him.
I can be quite an old man sometimes. I'ld complain about every thing . Even though there is nothing wrong with it , i'ld go all out to find faults which were never there. I'ld grumble just to get attention and irritate. Then i'll nag at stuffs to get them done.. oh yea , i've got back aches , knee aches and cry pain when it rains. Tsk , ah pek.
Even now i'm complaining about my knee, pff.. Vball match this thurs , think i'm not going to be able to play in main 6 , too lousy. Sigh.
I think i can be damn childish and immature at times . Just like a kid. I'ld whine and stuffs when i'm with the guys when i can't get the stuffs i want. I'ld be angry over the most meagre things like having to eat vegetables for the whole day. i'ld watch pokemon on saturdays and teenage mutant ninja turtles on sundays.I'ld show off when ever i can , like riding just alittle faster then the guy in front and smirking at him.
I can be quite an old man sometimes. I'ld complain about every thing . Even though there is nothing wrong with it , i'ld go all out to find faults which were never there. I'ld grumble just to get attention and irritate. Then i'll nag at stuffs to get them done.. oh yea , i've got back aches , knee aches and cry pain when it rains. Tsk , ah pek.
Even now i'm complaining about my knee, pff.. Vball match this thurs , think i'm not going to be able to play in main 6 , too lousy. Sigh.
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Akward silence
The saturday was spent at home , sleeping and resting mostly , had a bad head ache and i went for the white one in the morning , that explains why i slept through. The thing about me and bad head aches is that they occur after a huge relieve , its like high tide of brain juices draining out as i began to relax, causing turbulence , thus head ache. Thats , comical science.
Its weird how i felt empty when ever saturdays are spent alone . Well, the fact that i'm alone contributes most of it , but i'm alone mostly , but its saturdays that hit me the most.When you work so hard or studied so hard through out the week and finally you have the week end to chill , you find that you're alone. I long for companionship , or rather, just people(or person) to chill out with.
Then i thought , maybe i need to find something to do ,usually i'll just go online. Now , going online meant i will be on msn and that didn't help much but cave me out even more. Messages began popping up , but those aren't stuffs i wanna hear . People i don't wanna talk to . Conversations i don't wanna start . It sucks.
Then again , i'll be scrolling up and down my contact list and i see people online , which i so wanna talk to . Just typing something to them. How ever , its hard , especially when you don't know what to type. Makes you feel that you don't understand them at all and perhaps its best you'ld leave them alone. That feeling is unbearable.
With so much contradictions running through , which can't be help , its hard not to feel emo and all.I began having childish and naive thoughts of stuffs , thats when i can get those imaginery scenarios i came out with before. Then i can't have the motivation to do anything . To a point that i'm just scrolling up and down my contact list , yes , going crazy.
Jeeze , i feel left out .
Sigh.
Its weird how i felt empty when ever saturdays are spent alone . Well, the fact that i'm alone contributes most of it , but i'm alone mostly , but its saturdays that hit me the most.When you work so hard or studied so hard through out the week and finally you have the week end to chill , you find that you're alone. I long for companionship , or rather, just people(or person) to chill out with.
Then i thought , maybe i need to find something to do ,usually i'll just go online. Now , going online meant i will be on msn and that didn't help much but cave me out even more. Messages began popping up , but those aren't stuffs i wanna hear . People i don't wanna talk to . Conversations i don't wanna start . It sucks.
Then again , i'll be scrolling up and down my contact list and i see people online , which i so wanna talk to . Just typing something to them. How ever , its hard , especially when you don't know what to type. Makes you feel that you don't understand them at all and perhaps its best you'ld leave them alone. That feeling is unbearable.
With so much contradictions running through , which can't be help , its hard not to feel emo and all.I began having childish and naive thoughts of stuffs , thats when i can get those imaginery scenarios i came out with before. Then i can't have the motivation to do anything . To a point that i'm just scrolling up and down my contact list , yes , going crazy.
Jeeze , i feel left out .
Sigh.
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Work ends and school starts..
Today mark the last day of my intership period with Alliance spec. I don't know why i feel sad to leave the staffs . Especially the ones which were quite close with me and all. I always dreaded work and all , but when i stepped into the office one last time to see the np interns , i felt that i wanted to linger around longer. I didn't really had a chance to bid good bye properly, to the people i should . Sigh , this feeling gets me emo, i think i'm going to stop blogging now and start crying.. slash my wrist or something..
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They'll never taste the same...
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They'll never taste the same...
Saturday, April 07, 2007
April 7.. something still feels amiss...
I did mention i was tired of being the narrator of my life ... perhaps I'll rant about a few characters that came across me during the pass weeks. Some of them made me think, some of them sucked(mostly).. some of them been on my mind ... like a shadow..
Just yesterday i almost went into a heated argument with my boss. What I've experience was pure tyranny.Maybe I've yet seen or experience even worst pressure from bosses but , i deemed it as over demanding yesterday.To cut short , he gave us a pile of work to do after lunch yesterday.He asked if we could finish the work by today. The rest of the interns, i don't know why they didn't said anything but i voiced out. I said we can't complete the work by today. He looked at me and asked what would it take to complete it. I looked else where , obviously avoiding eye contact with him. Some ass said OT. The forbidden word. The boss then said that we could do OT and finish the work by today. He then asked if I've got a problem with that. I felt resentment and i said of course i had a problem , but it wouldn't be much of a problem to hinder with my work performances.
I finished my work on the spot though. When i submitted the work, my boss was surprised and said..." i thought you said you couldn't finish it on time? " I replied' yea , but i received some enlightenment when u said OT .." then he went " so you lied to me la.. when u said u couldn't finish.." I looked at the rest of the interns still doing their work... " well, that was before the enlightenment.." i ended the conversation after i finish sending the file over . The stay wasn't pleasant
I could have respected the boss ... but what he did sorta make me lose respect for him. He isn't the kinda guy who i'ld respect. I had mixed emotions as i left the building with the fact that i managed to finish faster then the interns there..it gave birth to so much more hatred ... I don't know whats wrong , but i feel that i would start avoiding them and all.
Guys out there , tell me now , what would you do if there is some one wooing the girl u're wooing and that some one gets the girl. Would u practice the code of honour of fair play ? Or would you start storing enmity for that guy or girl too? Would you be happy for that girl and accept the fact that he has got something that the girl likes and you don't? You.... i kinda expected for that to happened but when i saw it , i was quite speechless. Why would you want to be that waY?We're all grown ups , we know how to think .. beating him up won't be a resolution rite? What gives from resorting to violence? Pff, theres something called being immature , and well, i've got to say that i'm quite disappointed with you.
Sigh... what have we become? The insomnia bug hit me hard for the past week and i'm always waking up with bad head aches and stuffs. I just can't sleep. I wake up in the middle of the night , shocked from some oblivious fear... night mares? I reckon... i don't remember any of the dreams i had except for one which had this chocolate recipe in it. Weird eh .. to dream about chocolates.-_-pff... 6pills left one~
I did had enjoyable times and all during the week.Fishing with patrick ,and speaking of which , i feel so happy for you eh patrick~Ur HAPPINESS! Then i had xboxing sessions with the guys ... Fifa is leets . Too nice . Then Pz was so kind to give me my birthday present yesterday . A radio light clock thing... its cool. I like its tail and woots , i finally have a decent clock in the room.
The tail is too cool...
Just yesterday i almost went into a heated argument with my boss. What I've experience was pure tyranny.Maybe I've yet seen or experience even worst pressure from bosses but , i deemed it as over demanding yesterday.To cut short , he gave us a pile of work to do after lunch yesterday.He asked if we could finish the work by today. The rest of the interns, i don't know why they didn't said anything but i voiced out. I said we can't complete the work by today. He looked at me and asked what would it take to complete it. I looked else where , obviously avoiding eye contact with him. Some ass said OT. The forbidden word. The boss then said that we could do OT and finish the work by today. He then asked if I've got a problem with that. I felt resentment and i said of course i had a problem , but it wouldn't be much of a problem to hinder with my work performances.
I finished my work on the spot though. When i submitted the work, my boss was surprised and said..." i thought you said you couldn't finish it on time? " I replied' yea , but i received some enlightenment when u said OT .." then he went " so you lied to me la.. when u said u couldn't finish.." I looked at the rest of the interns still doing their work... " well, that was before the enlightenment.." i ended the conversation after i finish sending the file over . The stay wasn't pleasant
I could have respected the boss ... but what he did sorta make me lose respect for him. He isn't the kinda guy who i'ld respect. I had mixed emotions as i left the building with the fact that i managed to finish faster then the interns there..it gave birth to so much more hatred ... I don't know whats wrong , but i feel that i would start avoiding them and all.
Guys out there , tell me now , what would you do if there is some one wooing the girl u're wooing and that some one gets the girl. Would u practice the code of honour of fair play ? Or would you start storing enmity for that guy or girl too? Would you be happy for that girl and accept the fact that he has got something that the girl likes and you don't? You.... i kinda expected for that to happened but when i saw it , i was quite speechless. Why would you want to be that waY?We're all grown ups , we know how to think .. beating him up won't be a resolution rite? What gives from resorting to violence? Pff, theres something called being immature , and well, i've got to say that i'm quite disappointed with you.
Sigh... what have we become? The insomnia bug hit me hard for the past week and i'm always waking up with bad head aches and stuffs. I just can't sleep. I wake up in the middle of the night , shocked from some oblivious fear... night mares? I reckon... i don't remember any of the dreams i had except for one which had this chocolate recipe in it. Weird eh .. to dream about chocolates.-_-pff... 6pills left one~
I did had enjoyable times and all during the week.Fishing with patrick ,and speaking of which , i feel so happy for you eh patrick~Ur HAPPINESS! Then i had xboxing sessions with the guys ... Fifa is leets . Too nice . Then Pz was so kind to give me my birthday present yesterday . A radio light clock thing... its cool. I like its tail and woots , i finally have a decent clock in the room.
The tail is too cool...
Sunday, April 01, 2007
The world was never fair to start with...
Last Thursday night i was going to turn in when i heard this sharp screech followed by a loud bang. I rushed out of the house and this is what i saw.
Apparently , the driver lost control of the car due to its sheer power and he crashed onto that tree as seen. The ambulance and fire trucks arrived soon and i saw them try to free the driver out of his seat. I watch helplessly as they dragged the driver out of mangled car window and the paramedics performing CPR for him.I thought that the driver might be in some serious danger and i hope he'ld be OK and all. How ever , he took his last breath on the way to the hospital...
That man , was in his late 20s only. He was going home after sending his girl friend home when he got into this freak accident. He was a young entrepreneur and all. He does regular charity work and is known to be a very caring person. He could have been a great business man , he could have experience the many good things life could offer , he could have gotten married with his girl friend and have kids and all living in his small apartment. Death got him too soon. He never got the chance to do all those things he could have done .
As I saw the cleaner pick up the pieces of debris from the crash , I thought about how his loved ones would be picking up the pieces . They must be thinking how unfair and unjust life can be... Why would some one so good and nice be killed just like that. Tsk , we are so vulnerable. Condolence to who ever maybe be concerned about him and ay, i hope he find peace....
Apparently , the driver lost control of the car due to its sheer power and he crashed onto that tree as seen. The ambulance and fire trucks arrived soon and i saw them try to free the driver out of his seat. I watch helplessly as they dragged the driver out of mangled car window and the paramedics performing CPR for him.I thought that the driver might be in some serious danger and i hope he'ld be OK and all. How ever , he took his last breath on the way to the hospital...
That man , was in his late 20s only. He was going home after sending his girl friend home when he got into this freak accident. He was a young entrepreneur and all. He does regular charity work and is known to be a very caring person. He could have been a great business man , he could have experience the many good things life could offer , he could have gotten married with his girl friend and have kids and all living in his small apartment. Death got him too soon. He never got the chance to do all those things he could have done .
As I saw the cleaner pick up the pieces of debris from the crash , I thought about how his loved ones would be picking up the pieces . They must be thinking how unfair and unjust life can be... Why would some one so good and nice be killed just like that. Tsk , we are so vulnerable. Condolence to who ever maybe be concerned about him and ay, i hope he find peace....
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