Day 6- you're the one that hurt me most..

Breeze beach road with zhen yang and kah siong today. Both of them are super crazy about fiishing and asked me to bring introduce them to the various tackles suitable for fishing in singapore. Newbies like them always develop a deep pocket habit for spending on fishing items, of times, I feel they might be spending on unnecessary stuffs. Thus, I decided to be nice and help them out with choosing the correct stuffs.

hmm, dun really have anything nor in the mood to update anything now actually. Maybe i'm going to cycle.

out.

day 5 - an empty street,an empty house, a hole inside my heart

As promised, more pictures of the fries, don't be mistaken by the blown up pictures, the fries are really damn small and I had to strain my macro lens to its max in order to take this few shots. cute aren't they. They're probably just over 24 hours old now. Still feeding of their yolk sac, in another 24 hours, they're mouth will be fully developed. That's when the feeding starts.

Hit the library today to do my work. Was worried about the fries so I cam back early to tend to them. Lucky they're all doing fine, was worried that the lack of parental care would cause the culture to crash.

Finally received a reply from tickle monster who is currently heading to paris now. Wish i was there to enjoy the scenery with her. Beautiful scenery with her, what else can be more magnificent then that? haha

They hatched!

Hehe, to my surprise, a few of the kiddos hatched.. couldn't manage to grab a picture, they're too microscopic.. will try to get some tomorrow...

Day 4 - Every step I take , Every move I make, Every Single day, Everytime I pray .. I'll be missing you..

Remember the notorious B.I.G ?? Biggie smalls, if you haven't got clue, save yourself and go watch the movie on his bibliography. Very good shit..

Ay, i'm still stuck in school doing up my assignment. Tsk, halve the day was spent revising my work inorder for me to start on my assignment . Tough times don't last , tough men do huh..

Speaking of which, a familiar figure popped out from the corner of my desk just moments ago. Yong chee heng. Haha, he was frantically searching for a lap top to edit his work and decided to randomly ask the first person he saw that has one. Who knows that he'd bump into me , such coincidence, tsk.

I'm suspecting the white spawn will not be successful again this time. I saw the nest dissipating this morning with the eggs scattered all around the place. I'm thinking that the male is not fertile , sad case, guess I'll need to acquire another specimen soon.

The school's library is extremely peaceful and quiet at night actually. Shows how much the students here appreciate the library. Well, I figured that I won't be able to concentrate at home any way, might as well sit my ass down snugged in a quiet corner in the library.

10 more days to Christmas, anybody out there without anything to do or any where to go yet?

Mother of the spawn...skinny and eggless

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Day 3-Whites spawn again

Yet again my fishes spawned today. Previously the eggs weren't fertilized so there wasn't any baby fishes. Hopefully, the dad's doing his job this time.

I'm working on yet another assignment again. Infront of my naggy friend, Mr Seah Chong Tuck who kept distracting me from my work. Nah, he's innocent, I'm actually totally clueless on my assignment and has been staring a blank screen ever since I switched on the laptop.

Had a bit of a scare just now regarding my modules exemptions.Called the student help desk already regarding the issue. They apparently made a mistake regarding my exemptions for my course. Hopefully things will get validated soon enough or else, I've to go through 3 years of studying in that wretched school.

Ay, tickle monster should have reached Uk by now. Hope she safe and sound. Ok, time for dinner, Seah is getting freaking irritating and impatient..

Day 2- Good bye my lover, I'll be missing you

I had a hard time concentrating in class this morning with the nonsensical chatter from the bimbotic girls sitting right behind me together with the lack of sleep. Caffeine still managed to hold the front up a little,however, I feel that I'll get immune to it soon. The lecturer lost me halve way though as I allow my mind to wander else where.

Thoughts on expectations erupted again as I recall my friend's predicament.Thoughts on my life led me to think about the tickle monster, eventually.

In a few more hours she'll be on a flight towards the UK with her sisters . The song Goodbye My Lover by James blunt came up while I'm typing this post .While the room got engulfed in a melancholic atmosphere, I seek comfort from thinking about my assignment due tomorrow. Damn, too much unfinished business..

Day one -First day that i saw you, thought you were beautiful..

School has been a rat race for me ever since it started. The 2 years spent in the Army was really detrimental to my academic intellect , picking up the pieces and moving along with school work was tough.

Alas, sweet liberation from National service was without doubt, delightful. School brings about a new form of freedom and I'm pretty comfortable with this life now.

I wonder though, where my limits would extend to this comfort. Patrick just told me he is quitting school first thing on Monday . Tough school and environment , and some personal issues caused him to reach this daunting settlement. He has always been a champ since primary school and I'm sure that this phase is only going to be a stepping stone for the greatness that is coming next for him.

However,I shuddered with the thought that I could jolly well reach his position as well. It will be such great turn of events that I can't imagine the conclusions that follow suit. I don't have my friend's tenacity to adapt and plan and execute his plans . I can't seem to garner confidence nor reassurance for the future that seems so bleak.

Ay,today marks another 2 weeks apart from the tickle monster. Well, it may seem minuscule as compared to the staggering 2 months (I know some peeps out there maintain long distance relationship and you might probably be laughing your air heads off now . I'll give it to you, because I can't imagine myself in your shoes) we had , how ever, I seem to be anticipating a draggy two weeks coming. Especially so when the 2 weeks is covering Christmas. Tsk, all well, enough of whining,time to hustle with my POA assignments and notes again.

Reciprocate

'The usual, just one, the rest would make their order when they arrive.' I told eddy. He is a nice chap , smooth with his bar-tending and always engages his clients amicably.

'Here you go boss ' Eddy said after he sat the drink on the coaster in front of me.'Enjoy it=)'

'Thanks man' I said as I reached for my wallet' here you go '

'Oh,the tab has already been taken,by that lady over there' eddy ended of with a wink as he proceed to mix his next drink.'cheers mate'.

Strange,firstly, I've never been offered a drink by a woman before and I'm pretty sure I haven't engaged with any woman in the bar yet. The first thought that came to my mind was that eddy probably misunderstood the lady and gave the drink to the wrong guy. That wasn't the case when I lock on to a pair of eyes looking straight back at me.

Stage 1, an act of interest.

Stage 2, reciprocating act of interest.

Stage 3, approach.

It didn't took long for free drink lady to strut over after we exchanged smiles. She looks like a mix and judging from her build, I'm guessing she'll be in the modeling industry or making big bucks using the assets she possessed.

'Hey there' free drink lady said' I've seen you around this place often, I'm Hayley. '

'Thanks for the drink, I'm obligated, my name is Jaycee ' I replied, a little flabbergasted by her approach.

There was quite an awkward pause when all she did was smile at me and I'm feeling an inner vixen in her waiting to pounce on me. I've seen girls like that approach my mates and all, they have been known to be very domineering and initiated. They are normally cougars(term we give for slighter older woman) and their attention don't often last long. Well, this one fits the characteristics given to me from my mate's compilations just that she doesn't look close to a cougar to me. She'd probably just pass off slightly older then myself.

We went on with some light conversation over stuffs and more introductions. I began to loosen up and thought that I could use her for company while waiting for the mates who seem to be suffering from chronic lateness.

'So what are you doing after this? ' she popped that question haphazardly .

'I'm waiting for my mates to join me , for dinner. They're always this late for our meet ups.'

'Oh, why not you tell them that you're joining them for dinner, and we head to somewhere else' she said that as she closed in and held my hand. 'Its a little crowded and noisy here'

I was astounded from her advances, changing the mood of an innocent conversation. Well, I was probably naive then ,how innocent can the conversation get right, with such approaches.

'I don't think that would be possible , my mates are arriving soon' I pushed away ' I'm sorry'

Then Hayley saw that ring on my finger.

'Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't know you're attached' she said.

'Yea, its OK , I'm cool '

Things were feeling extremely awkward at this point of time now.

'You know' Hayley said as she leans over to whisper into my ear' she is one lucky girl'

I smiled upon hearing that.She left me after a friendly peck on the cheek and i watch her sauntered to the exit.

'You can't blame her for taking such initiative' eddy said while cleaning up the cups 'She used to be with a guy and you look very much like that fellow. Words say that he died in a car accident. Sad life I'd say, she probably still haven't gotten over him. '

Its melodramatic. I felt sorry for her . I was wondering if I could be the person to ease her pain even if its just a delusion.Probably, I shouldn't even have been appearing in front of her all this time.

My wants..

Its said that we can never be satisfied with what we have, from basic needs to luxury items, men have always been pursuing the better lot.. Just take the stock markets for example, it just a reflection on how we are,the characteristics on how the market rotates around the various sectors, from commodities to necessities you'll always see those chart point upwards.

Just how much more do we actually need to be satisfied?A question was raised to an evangelist for Microsoft during a seminar that sat my ass in.The latter asked,"when will windows stop upgrading ?Its hard to keep up with the different versions every year!". Then he replied "That's simple,we'll stop when we receive no complains on the OS itself " . IMO, i don't see such a day coming at all.

So, while spending yet another unproductive day , I decided that I should come out with a list of my short term needs , so as justify for not doing anything at all for the whole day.Its more for my own reference in the future and you could probably refer to it and see similar wants . If that's so , we could discuss about that item in hope of getting something better out of it.=D

Items listed in chronological order the first being the first thing that came on my mind and hence forth..

1)Laptop-HP Pavilion Dv5 GBP519
2)Fluorescent Light for my room SGD 50.00
3)Desktop PC -Something with I7 core SGD 1.500
4)Paint for my bike-decided that pink is too gay SGD50.00
5)A better phone-ORD LO SGD500.00
6)Camera body-Canon 5d MII SGD 3,599.00
7)Lense- Sigma APO 70-300mm 4.5-5.6F SGD 350.00
8)Flash- Canon Speedlite 580 ExII SGD 899.00
9)G-shock watch-I want to forget about the times i spent with my indestructible army watch Sgd135.00
10)Rolex Watch -They say its a good investment SGD5000.00
11)Investment Portfolio-Yeap, thats the only way to get my first million SGD 5000.00
12)Small aquarium-I want to try breeding guppies SGD 50.00
13)Book-Secret of millionaire investor first Ed SGD50.00
14)Printer-Laser jet monochrome printer SGD150.00

Total amount: SGD19,371.00

Well, looks like the offer to solicit at changi village isn't that bad after all..Sigh, alot of chicken rice eating days to come=(

That's Boon Tong Kee's Chicken rice by the way,just to tempt=)

Share the roads, be the better person~

The news of yet another cyclist being killed on the roads made me shudder as I zipped down the roads today. Though I'm cycling on a less frequent basis, I'm still very affected by this rise in numbers of accidents involving cyclist. Many of times I see is due to ignorant motorist and probably some very selfish individuals who refused to share the roads.


I wouldn't want to start taking stands between the motorist and the cyclist(least because I'm in the midst of getting my driving license XD), I believe we're all human and either of us would make errors and have the choice to be selfish or not while on the roads.

While cycling back from sentosa today, I witnessed yet another road rage that could turn ugly . This time it was between this female driver and this two other cyclist along the opposite traffic. Car was begrudged to give way, cyclist squeeze through, car deliberately cut in to squeeze the cyclist off the tracks , cyclist got pissed over takes the car from the right and screamed at the driver while displaying the third finger, driver let loose a clamorous wail on the horn just before I lost sight of the drama.

I feel utterly disappointed by how the cyclist reacted to the situation but I thought that I might just behaved the same when it comes to my own safety.Well,in any case, I thought that maybe , cycling just got a little more risky thanks to people like these. However, I contemplate that I'll be wrong and with this most recent road kill , be a turning point for people to improve on road safety. So people that might be reading my blog and if you happened to be drivers , PLEASE , try to be nice while on the road and give in to the people that is utilising a more eco friendly means of transport . Do the right thing, make a difference=)



After all, you don't wanna see this face appear on the newspaper right?

The lovely year I had ..

Just about a year ago, I'ld say I was in a pretty screwed up state in my life. Things happening around me were pulling me down every single day back then and I wasn't a happy man , as many would have agreed. Thats until a particular individual decide to make a pit stop in my life...

This year with her around was probably one of the most meaningful,wonderful and care free year I've ever had in my life. ( I know, we all behave and say the same things when we're in a relationship, but thats how we're born to be like right?). Ay, things became so much different and again,Jc saw a major change in his life...
I'm grateful, for her presence, for her commitment, for her understanding ... Words can't express how grateful I am to who ever is up there pulling the strings with me and her...Ay, this one year I say.. was just totally... Awesome ... I wish for plenty and many of this years to come ... I can never have enough of awesome-ness...

Your lovely scars

I remember those younger teenage days ,the days where i do lots of radical stuffs..The drive to skip meals just to save up money to buy a bicycle,the drive to participate in those road events and to make a fool out of ourselves,the ridiculous stunts we pull to woo some girl which always have us end up broken hearted, the times when we braced ourselves when cycling in a rainy weather, those time when we spammed the hand phone of some one to have joint conversation together even though we don't have any idea what we're talking about.

I've began to reminiscence on those times , after starring at my ceiling for sometime.Right, I'm having a few days off from work thus I've the luxury to stare at my ceiling ~

Maybe we all grew up....

That's what I thought.I believe that's the more definite answer we could ever get , but.. I thought again, I still wanna have that kind of drive, that kind of feeling but its something I can't do alone.

Then I thought about the people around me. They all seemed so far away now, every one is on an endless pursuit for their ideal lifestyle, fulfilling their own needs or probably,what they need to fulfil, that kinda left me thinking. Am I the only one still holding on to such immature thoughts?

I know eventually my turn will come to pursue what I NEED to pursue and I'm probably am able to come up with this crap now because I'm so freaking free.. however, if you think about it.. Isn't it a pity that we've lost them all..and all that's left is all these lovely scars that haunts you....

I'm finally back

Finally, i get to have some decent blogging time to myself. I can't stand to blog while i have people behind me queing for the internet. Its like that in thailand when everyone shares that few terminals to use the internet.. Some insensitive bastards just don't understand what is privacy..

Oh well, I'm glad that its finally over!The satisfaction i get after accomplishing yet another big feat is overwhelming. Everyone on the flight back was so damn high. Right, ok i can't type much now.. my eyes are closing down on me.. Will update tml!~

ORD LO!

I miss singapore

So, I've been in Thailand for 2 weeks now. For those of you who don't know , I'm stationed now in Thailand for my final exercise in my Ns life. After which, I will be done with ns and moving on to my next phase in life. That is something that I'm very much anticipating..

The weather in Thailand is significantly hot and dry. Its easily freaking 38 degrees on every other day and to tell the truth, I had a hard time adapting to the weather conditions and fell ill the first few days upon my arrival.How ever, the locals had their way to cope with the hot weather with ice cream and this brilliant blended ice drink that they seemed to have a never ending list of flavours added to it.

The missions I've been to so far were fairly manageable,with the fact that I've got added responsibilities and the men were getting harder to manage, i thought we did a rather commendable job so far. Now that we're done with all the training mission, its time for the real one next week. Finally, I'm going to jump on a foreign country =)

At this point of time I got to say Jc's rather home sick.

On the lunar 15Th of CNY my family had a gathering which i was not there. Zzz, its one of the few times i get to see relatives only once year and I miss some of them eh. Sadly, i was stuck in Thailand on an exercise that very night.. its irritating..

One of my secondary school friend left for Hk the other day for her studies. Ay, the sec school peeps had a gathering to send her off but again, i was stuck in Thailand. Sucks to be here at that point of time... Zzz, I was just talking to Jia pei the other night about how people are just moving on and how miserable my click less life is as compared to others. Comfortingly, she told me she still feels comfortable talking with me thus like I said, friends is something that requires quality.. in any case, I wish to hang out more with the peeps when I get back to sg.

Ok this part is gonna get cheesy ..

I can't emphasize on how much I miss my girl friend when I'm here. Even back in Sg, just one day without seeing each other calls for cheesy mushy messages already.. Even the most cheesiest of the mushiest messages we sent each other everyday when I'm here in Thailand isn't comforting at all. Just for example earlier when I was drinking the Milk tea rendition of the blended ice, I remember the times when we always drink bubble tea together.

Its kinda depressing actually with all this sadness piling up, but one thing is for sure, I'm halve way through this shit and I'm coming back really soon!~ hopefully, all goes well and ends well here.

Vexed

Well,seems to be that no one is reading my blog already. That's good, i can rant here and have ppl reading it after its too late .

I've got no avenue to channel all my frustrations to any way~ Every one would

1)Not be bothered
2)Oppose my opinions
3)Don't understand what I'm trying to say
4)Cloud me more with their own problems.

Enough I say, I've decided to just vent everything up on my key board with my fingers.Its not making much difference but it just seem like the only thing I want to do now.

My frustrations can be summarized to three general vessels.

The girl, the family and work. Period

I know she'll not be happy if some one accidentally reads this and know why I'm so pissed so, I guess I'll skip this part.

Some girl in my family have been actively creating lots of trouble for all of us. Although I wish to display much ignorance to the situation, the force of it seemed too great to be avoided. The parents are like freaking out all over it when i feel that they should enforce some self responsibility into the latter since she is already so old. I don't understand why they have to allow themselves to dwindle in their frustrations and then vent it on innocent people in the house.It would only make us hate the girl even more,its a vicious cycle.

I hate my work , everybody knows it.I hate going back there . I love and miss my home constantly and I don't wish to leave it. However, i don't understand why I'm always asked to go back way earlier before i have to. Why can't i just enjoy that little more ? It will really make a difference you know.

Work sucks . Things are beginning to fall apart. Everyone can't be bothered in the company and if you're bothered, you get more responsibilities which you don't want to take and you get openly criticised for it. You get talked about by your colleagues and you get picked on by superiors who were asking the favour from you.Also, you find what you're doing pointless and meaningless yet you still have to do it. Need i say more?

Its happening, all these hate and frustrations are building up in me again. Nobody understands whats going on, nobody wishes to and nobody can. At this point of time, I'm just drowning in my own misery. Fuck,when will these things i hate stop revolving around...

Vexed

Talk to Your Boyfriend So He'll Listen

I've noticed how some of my female friends are always complaining about their bf being a dumb ass or just a plain o'jerk. Seriously, i don't think thats the case, they're probably just not catching the same frequency as you, thus displaying their dis interest, so here are a few tips to think about during lunch or so , that might change that perception.

Talk side by side

If you're broaching a potentially sticky subject (stuff like your wanting to get married, or his partying too much), avoid a face-to-face conversation. "Although it seems counterintuitive, insisting on eye contact while hashing out an issue can actually make the problem worse," says Scott Haltzman, M. D., co-author of The Secrets of Happily Married Women. Looking him directly in the eye can make him feel threatened—and when confronted, men instinctively kick into survival mode, triggering a fight-or-flight response. To put him at ease, talk to your boyfriend while you're doing something side by side—walking, driving, eating dinner together on the sofa.

Cut to the chase

According to a study recently published in the journal NeuroImage, the male brain interprets men's voices as speech and women's voices as music. That's why he can easily focus when one of his buddies drones on about some lame computer game, yet has to work overtime to concentrate on your bitch-of-a boss tale. To ensure that he hangs on your every word, make your point as quickly as possible. "Men want to get to the bare bones of the matter," Haltzman says. "So grab his attention by using direct statements such as 'Here's why I'm upset' or 'The bottom line is this.'"


Let him know you need to vent


When you're telling your guy about your backstabbing best friend and he looks confused, it's not because you're not explaining yourself clearly or he's slow on the uptake. Biological differences make men innate problem solvers; the furrowed brow indicates that his mind is scrambling to find a solution. "When a woman presents a man with a dilemma, he interprets this as a request to fix her problem, not to simply listen," Haltzman says. Clue him in by letting him know what you need before you make your point. Try prefacing your story with "I just really need to get this off my chest." By telling him what you expect up front, he'll know what to do and be able to give you what you really want: his ear.


Stroke his ego


If it seems like every time you ask him for a favor your words go in one ear and out the other, you may need to butter him up more. Men are brimming with testosterone, which makes them competitive, and compliments help them feel important and superior. Let's say he never hangs out with your friends. Feed his ego by saying something like "You're so funny! Actually, my friends could use some cheering up. Can you come out with us tonight?" The positive reinforcement will challenge him to rise to the occasion, and the vote of confidence will make him feel needed.


Well, this is quite an honest point of view on stuffs from a guy's perspective, to women who think we're complex, WE ARE THAT COMPLEX, so, do some home work yea . =)

The body world

So, I've finally decided to make more efficient use of my weekend other then just developing fat cells this week, thus , I dragged myself to visit the latest and hottest exhibit in town...

The body world

For those who don't know what it is about, its actually an exhibition, displaying corpse, stripped layer by layer from their skin to their bones surgically, displaying the various human anatomy.

Interestingly enough, instead of feeling horrified with the displays i saw, I find myself scrutinizing at the different details of the human body with the occasional " ooh, i didn't know I have those...".

Perhaps, through this enriching session, I begin to appreciate my body more and at the same time, I gain awareness of how to take care of it. Of course, maybe I'm just intimidated by the abominations born from the various diseases out there.

Nonetheless, I salute the effort put in by the people who made these appalling sculptures. I couldn't imagine myself having the patience nor courage to work with corpse for so long, no, I'm not afraid of blood. If you haven't went for the show before , you should probably do, its really worth the 2000 cents you pay at the entrance.

By the way, ba gua , any one?=D

3 peace!

God, how long has it been since i've actually blogged or rather,compose something literical. ever since blogger died on me some time back i didn't had a chance nor did i bother to write something. I know I might sound like a broken tape recorder with the next bunch of words but I'm still gonna say it,

I'm gonna try to blog more !

Right, thats one tick in the check box, now, what am I doing again?