Sunday, February 07, 2010

Vexed

Well,seems to be that no one is reading my blog already. That's good, i can rant here and have ppl reading it after its too late .

I've got no avenue to channel all my frustrations to any way~ Every one would

1)Not be bothered
2)Oppose my opinions
3)Don't understand what I'm trying to say
4)Cloud me more with their own problems.

Enough I say, I've decided to just vent everything up on my key board with my fingers.Its not making much difference but it just seem like the only thing I want to do now.

My frustrations can be summarized to three general vessels.

The girl, the family and work. Period

I know she'll not be happy if some one accidentally reads this and know why I'm so pissed so, I guess I'll skip this part.

Some girl in my family have been actively creating lots of trouble for all of us. Although I wish to display much ignorance to the situation, the force of it seemed too great to be avoided. The parents are like freaking out all over it when i feel that they should enforce some self responsibility into the latter since she is already so old. I don't understand why they have to allow themselves to dwindle in their frustrations and then vent it on innocent people in the house.It would only make us hate the girl even more,its a vicious cycle.

I hate my work , everybody knows it.I hate going back there . I love and miss my home constantly and I don't wish to leave it. However, i don't understand why I'm always asked to go back way earlier before i have to. Why can't i just enjoy that little more ? It will really make a difference you know.

Work sucks . Things are beginning to fall apart. Everyone can't be bothered in the company and if you're bothered, you get more responsibilities which you don't want to take and you get openly criticised for it. You get talked about by your colleagues and you get picked on by superiors who were asking the favour from you.Also, you find what you're doing pointless and meaningless yet you still have to do it. Need i say more?

Its happening, all these hate and frustrations are building up in me again. Nobody understands whats going on, nobody wishes to and nobody can. At this point of time, I'm just drowning in my own misery. Fuck,when will these things i hate stop revolving around...

Vexed