Something bigger

Finally, caught something bigger. Was so desperate that i was actually aiming smaller tomans with the L minnow.This huge mama must be pretty hungry to lunge at such a small lure. 4kgs of awesomeness.. Lol,zzz i need a lip grip ... Time for better hooks..

Chronicles of an air borne trooper:The recruit

Beads of perspiration trickled down the eye brows, some getting into the eye as I mustered strength to remain in the push up position . Amidst the grunts and scream of pain, hundreds of us maintained that poise , while the loud hailer remained silent. All eyes focused on the person holding the loud hailer.

"Pain is temporary.. Glory is forever" the man whispered... through the loud hailer..

That spurred an unseen energy amongst the crowd , I felt this deep heat rushing down from the back of my skull flowing through the body as I continued pumping countless hundredth times of push up. I heard my comrades cries in pain, I screamed , desperate to out voice the pains in my arms. I could hardly keep my eyes open as beads of perspiration got into my eyes, then the whistle blew.

As I lay face down, cheek pressed on the tarmac, I struggled to capture my breath.I flipped onto my back trying to get a better posture for air to enter. As I looked at the clear morning sky from the edge of my eye, I saw an eagle , soaring freely across the sky. No matter the amount of pain I had within myself , I could have only but two words to console myself, For Honour and Glory.

The marriage

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you.She sat down and ate quietly.Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth.But I had to let her know what I was thinking - I want a divorce.
I raised the topic calmly.She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly - Why?I avoided her question.This made her angry.She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!
That night, we didn’t talk to each other.She was weeping.I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage.But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew.I didn’t love her anymore.I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces.
The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me, had become a stranger.I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly.Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see.To me, her cry was actually a kind of release.The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table.I didn’t have supper but went straight to bed and fell asleep soon because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing.I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce.She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible.Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.This was agreeable to me.But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.She requested that everyday for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning.I thought she was going crazy.Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Dew about my wife’s divorce conditions…She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd.No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.
My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy.Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms.His words brought me a sense of pain.From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms.She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce.I nodded, feeling somewhat upset.I put her down outside the door.She went to wait for the bus to work.I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily.She leaned on my chest.I could smell the fragrance of her blouse.I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time…I realized she was not young any more.There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying!Our marriage had taken its toll on her.For a minute, I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning.This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.
On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again.I didn’t tell Dew about this.It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by.Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning.She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one.Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger.I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mum out.To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life.My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly.I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute.I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally.I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step.Our son had gone to school.I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy.
I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door.I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs.Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead.Do you have a fever? She said.I moved her hand off my head.Sorry, Dew, I said, I won’t divorce.My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other any more.Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.Dew seemed to suddenly wake up.She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears.
I walked downstairs and drove away.At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife.The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card.I smiled and wrote - I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.
That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face.I ran up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship.It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah..blah.These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy.

Adapted from Pz's blog(ps, stole it without ur permissionXD )

Happy birthday Hoe and Kok~

Woots two of my friends just officially stepped into adult hood . Chong hoe and km.

I could still remember how we spent our time together as class mates during our secondary school days. In a blink of an eye its been 8 years already. Unbelievable how much this friendship had stretched.

Jeeze, this sudden reunion had made me looked back at the path I've took. After being through so much I realised that there isn't a better place to be at then with a bunch of friends just chilling. Some how i felt that the 2e1 batch are perhaps the best people I can count on to be around when i need a mate or company.
Even though we've got our differences and occasional disputes among each other I felt that every time we get together, every thing seems to be the same 8 years ago. Call it naive but I really feel at ease hanging around these bunch of people.

This week end would be perhaps the best week end I had in a long time.

Pinkie rocks

Went fishing with Jy as usual on our Sunday morning routine. Ay, due to my carelessness , i left my reel at home and i only discovered the missing reel when we reached the spot. The spot requires plenty of tracking and was kinda pissed with myself. The earlier hour of the session then saw me running back to my place to get my reel but it was well paid off as i managed to catch my second jungle snake head with the pinkie lure again~

I think fishes are getting more and more hype now adays.XD

July the 9th was the last post I've made in this blog. Its the 1st of march now in 2009, time sure flies . I could still remember the doubtful feelings days before my enlistment into the commando school. I didn't have any idea of what is going to happen in there. At this point of time, I couldn't believe I've achieved so much in my service term.

The first 2 months of my NS saw me being more enthusiastic and selfless as I step into the the school as a fresh recruit. It was the most gruelling part of my training because we're new and we're not accustomed to the regimental regulations in the army yet. Its the time where the instructors will grill the boys hard . High lights of my bmt I felt was the 8 days out field we had and our 24 km route march back for our pop and of course, donning the jungle hat , morphing us from commando sperms to commando fetus =)

I pushed myself throughout my BMT phase which resulted me in getting better gradings . That enabled me an entry into one of saf toughest courses . The commando leader course. The 3 months spent in the course was perplexing. I'm not joking, I've seen my course mate break down in the duration of the course, it was the longest 3 months of my life. I'm just glad that I pulled through the ordeal and am now a commando leader =)

We had our airborne training which was rather enjoyable as it was right after my leader course. "Since the commando leader course is the toughest course for nsf, the rest of the course would be nothing right? " was what one of the 3rd sergeant said during the first day in air borne school. For me , I consider the training standards rather acceptable , given the above fact. Whats more, it was during air borne that I'm able to get nights out every night . Probably one of the greatest obstacle during the course, or should i say for all commandos is to have the courage to jump of the air craft. Despite knowing the dangers of the jump, all of us still leaped off the air craft , be it pushed out or not. Sadly though, it is during the jumps that many of the trainees get their limbs injured and go out of course. Here's a clip on how it really is inside the air craft. Its exactly the same thing .



Its really an imprinting experience during my first jump as i still remembered I had flash backs on my child hood during the free fall.

After we graduated from airborne school we were were promoted to our current ranks now and had shifted to the first commando battalion . That's where all the commandos are. That's where I am at now , and that is where I will end my term as a commando . I'm almost halve way though my NS term and looking back at my doubts before I came into here, I'm pretty sure now that I've made the right choice=)

Well, these 8 months or so wasn't entirely spent on serving the nation. I had been fishing a lot . In fact, me and Jun yuan had almost a weekly fishing Sunday morning fishing going on for some time . Its just so convenient to fish for me as my camp is just beside the beach.

Oh well, so much so for the update. Hopefully , I'll return to posting on a more regular basis and in a less sloppy manner like this.