Pieces

I tried to be perfect but nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy but no one believes me
I meant all the things I said

if you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
just to see if it would show
that I'm trying to let you know
that I'm better off on my own

this place is so empty
my thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
sometimes it's so crazy that nothing can save me
but it's the only thing that I have

if you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
just to see if it would show
that I'm trying to let you know
that I'm better off on my own

I tried to be perfect it just wasn't worth it
nothing could ever be so wrong
it's hard to believe me
it never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

if you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
just to see if it would show
that I'm trying to let you know
that I'm better off on my own

Nice song ain't it? It virtually expresses my feelings i guess... well its really nice song , so nice that we wanted to jam it. HIack

One day a boy ask his dad..

"dad , why did Jimmy helped me with my work when i didn't even ask him too?"

"Thats what friends are for..." the latter replied.

The boy ask again, " Why did Jimmy gave me his share of the apple pie when i couldn't get any ? "

"Son, that again is what friends are for" he replied , simultaneously...

"And are friends for ,being sad together with u? like when ur sad ? And are friends for ,being there for u when u are at the lowest part of your life? And are friends there to guide u , help u , cry with u, laugh with u , play with u ... no matter the odds?" the boy rattles

"Yea... Appreciate ur friends for what they are .. becoz they are ur friends for what they are... whom they are ..and they will form part of ur life "dad said.

ANd so.... the boy ... went on to make more friends ....and live happily ever after....

NOT

Well perharps thats the best results we all wanted... but , snap back to reality guys, which is sadly.. always cold and cruel. Ignoable personalities enrapture the society , dwindling the meaning of friendship, to perharps as a mere statement , or as a tool to accomplish personal desires.

Hah, but one ting remains true i guess... we find true friends and we cherish them, simple as that...

Period

I love flame wars..

WEll, if some of you would be wondering wat flame wars are.. its a term used in this webby i'm frequenting..www.togoparts.com -_- which meant of some one getting all the negative feed backs of sth....arising to an intellectual conflict inbetween opposition parties . Hah, in a nut shell... its just ppl quarelling on the net.

So , i said i have a rather.. sick passion for this kinda "sessions". Some wat, it kinda entertains me to a certain extent on how , one... decide to fight for his or her stand ; rational.. or ridiculously absurb. The way some phrase their thoughts.. through maybe words... i said maybe.. coz i duno what kinda other forms of communication they use... regardless of whether it is or not.. understandable.. ~laugh.

Thus, i'll be grinning ear to ear ,at how ppl dig their own hole and throw themselves inside if u peeps get what i meant.. not forgetting the times where they just forget~ to make more amusement for the public by adding more....bull shet. Lol.. yea bull shet.. nonsense, crap...

Ay, my my ... since when had poor old jc turned into such a sadist.. oh well.. as long as he's happy i guess..

LOl

Ay, blog peeps.. i'll be mia.... do contact me ya.. If u reallly reallllly nid sth from me URGENTLY.. lol.. i'm not leaving my contact no.... u peeps shud have it.. Till den... blog peeps.. have a gd day.. i meant it. >_<

Happy birthday Pz!!!!

Once again , ur older den me again.


Wth~

Well, had quite an enriching day today.. Did a quest..~! 19 sweets dedication.. and ay.. it was an effort worth while la..

Ay, palawan tml plz....

Out~

The new padlock.

"Hi every one this is Me again, from class 933.3 fm, its 2 in the morning now and i'm here to keep u company.. for now.. lets go back to the 80s and listen to some golden classics.."... the radio aired some wasted oldies on the fm. I hummed to the tune as i drove along the same stretch of road. My back ached from those nites on the polyester bed i " D.I.Y' for my self. Ah teck....the first store i nid to deliver the fish balls to.... my eyes set on the horizon non- chalantly as the daily routines begans.

"pAk!" that sound of my door closing signifies the end of my day .I drove, wearily to the nearest coffee shop to get break fast for my children. Ay , my children.. i've 3 kids. 2 sons and one daughter. My elder son is already 18, hah... i still remmeber the times when he was still small and i'ld so much wanted to bring him wiht me for fishing like any other dad wuold do. And my daughter... Shes alil way ward now..but i tink she'ld do fine. Not forgetting my youngest son.. hah, he looks nerdy and all now.. but i tink he'll turn out to be like a fine gentlemen. WEll, its almost dawn and they'll be waking up to go to school... I stepped on the throttle to go as fast as the old raven can go.

" Wan ton noodles 3 packs plz, take away , 2 no chilli 1 with chilli . "i told the hawker. " Soya milk please , the biggest packet... and one kopi o, less sugar Thks~!"


I drove home after collecting the food. Submited to my body's cries of pain.. i was so realived that i got home able to rest for that 2 hours before setting to work again. Gingerly.. i took out my keys and slot it into the padlock. denial. I tried again... the key won't go in. Feeling weird.... i took a closer look at the padlock. "Queens padlock"it stated as the brand.A new pad lock.Remorse and melachony stabbed my heart. I know that i've took a wrong step and i couldn't amend it any more.. There is no second chance left. I left with a heavy haert.

As the packets of breakfast hung on the door's handle.

Birthdays.

Birthdays are dates that account for one's date of birth. Its the day that one's mother , bears the pain of labours in the ward for hours giving birth, and the significant day that ends the torment she had been having for the past 9 or so months. This is the day which children would express gratitude to their mother.

Birthdays,carries lots of other kind of meanings. It brings out loves from hearts of ppl who cared for the one celebrating his or her birthday. Love in the sense can be tangible , or pragmatic .. no matter how illusive, transparent it is.. One can raelised whether he or she is loved by ppl who care.Love is felt, not seen nor heard.


Birthdays also developes cohesion in families. No matter how torn apart a family is, birthdays of the members in the family would always be remembered by the rest of the family members. And , the family members would do their best to make the particular family member who is having his or her birthday happy on that very special day. How ever, the ultimate pain would be when family members don't remember ur birthday .... and does stuffs that pains u in the heart on ur birthday... that leads to how birthdays represents cohesiveness in a family as well.

Friends play an important role in ur birthdays too.Birthdays would signify how u stand in the eyes of ur friends. How appreciated u are by friends. No doubt , u'ld be very sad when u sat alone at ur party waiting for friends to come... from 7 till 11.. hah, birthdays also signifies loniless for some and perharps sadness.

Well, i don;t know about u guys, but i feel that birhdays are very special occassions which could only occur once a year, and its supposed to be Happy, because every one goes.."hey dude, HAPPY BIRTHDAY" well, thats what i've been taught from youung and thats what i thought. Till recently.. Hah, happy birthday to my self...... =)


period....

Birthdays.

Birthdays are dates that account for one's date of birth. Its the day that one's mother , bears the pain of labours in the ward for hours giving birth, and the significant day that ends the torment she had been having for the past 9 or so months. This is the day which children would express gratitude to their mother.

Birthdays,carries lots of other kind of meanings. It brings out loves from hearts of ppl who cared for the one celebrating his or her birthday. Love in the sense can be tangible , or pragmatic .. no matter how illusive, transparent it is.. One can raelised whether he or she is loved by ppl who care.Love is felt, not seen nor heard.


Birthdays also developes cohesion in families. No matter how torn apart a family is, birthdays of the members in the family would always be remembered by the rest of the family members. And , the family members would do their best to make the particular family member who is having his or her birthday happy on that very special day. How ever, the ultimate pain would be when family members don't remember ur birthday .... and does stuffs that pains u in the heart on ur birthday... that leads to how birthdays represents cohesiveness in a family as well.

Friends play an important role in ur birthdays too.Birthdays would signify how u stand in the eyes of ur friends. How appreciated u are by friends. No doubt , u'ld be very sad when u sat alone at ur party waiting for friends to come... from 7 till 11.. hah, birthdays also signifies loniless for some and perharps sadness.

Well, i don;t know about u guys, but i feel that birhdays are very special occassions which could only occur once a year, and its supposed to be Happy, because every one goes.."hey dude, HAPPY BIRTHDAY" well, thats what i've been taught from youung and thats what i thought. Till recently.. Hah, happy birthday to my self...... =)


period....

Sitting up watching the north western sunrise.. creeping out of high rises..

I think its time i let go of my dog.. Whats meant to be gone.. willl be gone...Whats meant to be mine , will belong to me. Whats not won't.

I'm not holding to any hope that he'ld be back any more.Gave Up.

I know it sucked and all, but i figure out that its pointless brooding over it already. You might say that i give up easily and i don't love my dog much.. I'll reckon with that kinda statements made. Its times like this I want to focus on living my life better by forgetting the pain caused from all the sadness, just let me be and stop rubbing salt into everyting ok?

To the peeps who help me throughout this ordeal.. Thks alot, I meant it. Its through times like this u felt love ,care and concern from friends and love ones around u. Trully with all my heart.. i appreciated it.

Good bye beng.

I'm tired... just too tired bahz..

I nid help.

I know this is crazy but i nid the help...of blog peeps to go flat by flat at the block next to me to look for my dog.. I seriously hear the dog barking for the past few days.. so I'll nid to go flat by flat block by block to go look for it. But i can't do it alone.. PLZ!!! i nid help.

Tml if possible !! contact me on my cell 90214103.. to enlist.. UR HELP WOULD BE VERY MUCH APPRECIATED!!!

Hate Tears Pain Jealousy Greed creed

Perharps i've been a jerk too much recently. Yes.. Indeed I am one. NOT recently.. always.


Sorry if i made any one's day bad.. really... i meant it.

Beng is lost. no news for him. worried and sad i am.. hating myself too. Deeep inside i'm selfish. I always wanted things for myself. I'm an ass. Trully. I never tot for others. I want tings greedily... for myself. I want beng to be there when i'm sad.... I want attention .. I want People to acknowledge my existence. I want all of this. Every ting i wanted .. i want it for myself.. nvr giving....always receiving.


I'ld complain i'm alone.. when there is so many ppl out there feeling alone too. I'ld complain i'm alone when i'm the one who wants to be left alone. I want to show care and concern... only to want to accept it back.I'm a parasite to man kind.. defect of god's creation.


Who i am hates who i've been... -relient K

Beng come home..

WHere are you boy? Why aren't u beside me now? U'ld always stayed beside me when i'm using the com.. Why aren't you here now? Where are you? PLease come home...


I'll let you have part of my bed if u come back boy.. U'ld used to fight with me for the bed during bed time. Without u around.. no one is there to fight with me for the bed. Come home beng..

You''re always there when the whole world turn its back on me.. but now... u aren't there.. nobody is there for me.. I nid u beng.. come home..

U'ld always wake me up from my sleep at 9 , without u , i can't wake up.. and i find it so hard to fall asleep.. beng come home...

I promise to buy lotsa dog treats for you when you come home beng.. plz come home.

Don't leeave me hanging on the thread alone boy..your my cure from this ilitious world..come home now beng..

Please beng.. i beg of u .. come home...

Dear blog peeps, i nid alittle bit of ur help now .... dearly.... I've lost my dog... Ah beng, on a thursday morning on march 02 . If any one of you guys spot it .. any where.. PLZ!!!! contact me!.. The family really misses the dog dearly.. SO plz.. Help by contacting me either way.. on msn via Junchin02@hotmail.com .. my email.. 90214103..my cell...THanks alot!...

Heres a picture of him..