Hope i'm not wrong for handing u a heart worth breaking.

After Years of waiting... yea i mean years.. i finally get to see a moving pz.. OMG~! and Its under super super weird conditions. Tis is so gay ... ~omg omg omg omg i'm getting all jump up inside just tinking about it. Yesterday played pool, actually zj and ah boon wanted to go JE to play de.. but i weirdly suggested cck. Thus we were there. We were at table 4. And i mentioned in the previous post that i kept noticing tis gal who went bare footed. I tot she looked familiar and wanted to approach her but couldnt find for an appropriate pick up line ~ and i tot she look like pz.. and it really turned out to be her.. Lol..

Dont wanna wake up in the morning and i can't fall asleep..

Some how ...i understand why i'm so pissed with all tis.. i forget how many times tis kinda situation had happened.. over and over again..and each time i'll get pissed all the same.. BUT~, i wont give up i tell u ... no matter how any of u try to pull me down... put me away.. i'll still continue to pursue on.. don't try to even dampened what i belive or pursue in coz u'll only end up dissapointed.. U CLEAR!HAH!

ay, k.. thats expressive enuff.. school was pretty bored... as usual. Today is the first time i see ms soh soen en flare up. Hmm not totally flare up to me but i tink that might be what she interpret as flaring up. Well, ya know... some times.. u nid to do the right tings to get respect from us.. flaring up may be one of them but ay, i belive some how what she dids is pretty off.. Look at chee siong and learn.. ay ay...

Release from mob early today.. then boon and zj wanted to go play pool.. so off we went to play pool at lot 1. Hmm.... i couldnt help notice the gal at the other table .. coz she tooked off he slippers and played bare footed.. Ay,i tot she looks familiar.. ay, and i told myself i was tinking too much and i carried on missing my shots.. as usual.. too lousy..

Hmm..tink every one is really perceiving the fact that giving up is the best option.. but ay.. ur wrong.. its the easiets option.. but not the best option.. get that rite..

The defect of aspirations is when it turns into destruction..

Hmm, went to school too early today.. but it was not all that bad. I managed to met saufi.. Some one who i tot vanish from the surface of earth very very long ago.. Ok la.. we just didnt tok to each other for very long.about a year and halve i tink... AY, managed to catch up.. quite alot. on the train. Hmm.. i tink he plays quite a positive and optimistic role . I seldom hear him tokked about his defects of life.. ay, too good.. tis kinda person good.. will live longer..

Had lunch at the legendary 'food court 7' . It wasn't much of a food court.. A restaurant rather.. Free lunch as the Pt's is paying. Wootz..The food was orite and the session was nice too.. Played badminton after that. Ay , made the whole tutorial room stink after that. I tink we made the tutorial pissed for awhile back then wen we came back, ay..

Good, i felt less lame today...the lame refrainment is taking effect! Ay, most prolly coz tw was being pretty lame today..

Oh well.. it was a warm day after all.. Jogged with km for 1 hour after school. Hmm, i tink that when ur jogging with some one else.. esp of same competence.. u tend to jog more effectively ..1 hour of jogging' effectively' was no small feat. km tot we might have completed 15 km.. hmm, i tink thats quite good.. ay ..

hopefully what ym's training schedule he draw up for me is effective.. or else it'ld be just too bad..

Tired of all the big fake smiles..

Woke up early tis sunday morning..

Wanted to swim... ironically... but ay , no one to go with.. km and ct double ps me.. very nice of them...

So i sat at my infront of my com.. scroll through my list of contacts on the messenger.. Hmm, i see lotsa peeps online.. but yet.. lack the motivation and the courage to double click on any of them. I tot i wanted to tok to some one , just one.. but it seems that i began to refrain from doing that. Bad experience maybe? Its difficult to tok to some one who will understand what i say as well.. not that they are intellectuallly disabled.. but maybe i'm the one who is expressiveless..Hard to tok to some one also coz they might not be bothered and most prolly busy with their own stuffs too.. i understood that... i'm most prolly a nuisance then... Well, i tried occupying myself with work also.. but ay, again lack the motivation to do so.. the urge was there to tok to some one.. but yet contradicted by so many contradictions. . . . not that its making me sad or wat.... its just... some nostalgic feeling... Then i tot i've plenty of friends but again... it reallly seemed that i'm bluffing myself all over again.. hah. too bad.

well, that was melodramatical enuff.. went to the gym after wards after lunch.. then did managed to swim and found out that i actually swam better then yesterday. I knew that i could swim like a fish but ay , most prolly i didnt anticipated what there is yesterday.

Well, that was pretty yesterday alraedy , am gonna jog for 1 hour tml.. Hah.

My first Dnf record.. ay lance.. i'm par with u now..hiacks

Rite, had my first trialothon today and lost badly. ON the swimming and running part la.. lemme explain alil about trialethon alil . Its a race where u gotto swim first... and then cycle... and finishing with the run.U nid to excel in all three components to win. Sadly, i tink i only excel in one .. Maybe they shud do a relay such that some one else will swim and run.. and i'll cycle for them.. wakkaka..

I did said i wanted to dedicate tis race to uncle rusty.. wondering now.. whether he should be proud or dissapointed with me? ay, if he is dissapointed then too bad... i did managed to drop alot of ppl when i'm cycling though. sorry uncle rusty..

well, and yea... the promise i made u to make.... i tink it doesnt count now already bahz..

Hmm.. in a dillema now.. whether to feel good or bad... oh yea... ernest and the rest of the old peeps won me ~... too good..

I will swim like a fish~!

In less then a day's time.. i will be racing..

Hmm, i heard from the old guys that there would be roadies there.. and of course ppl from the dragon boat team will be sending ppl over.. BUt hmm.. I duno if i know if would drown tml or not.. but ay ay, will try my best to stay afloat for the 2 laps..dang..at least lemme win the peeps from chess club alrite.. wakakkakka...

good luck to me and ernest~ and the old peeps who are participating..!!

Death.. so predictable yet elusive..

Ay ay, go watch naruto.. its quite nice..


Well.. had the first meeting for like soo long for sp cyclists. ay ay, so glad .. fixed up another bike tis week for the club.. ay , take it as charity work bahz.

Ay , quite unbelievable but i'm doing lotsa tings for the good of others now adays. Hmm, it might be that i'm doing lotsa good tings before but i only noticed it recently.. Ay ay , one way or another... its the same..

Weather had been pretty cold recently. Ay, make moods go bad easily too. Just 4 days later it will be the triathlon race already.. Hmm, i dont know how to swim.. but i could still run and cycle.. ay , will get there eventually.. To add on to the significance of tis race... i'll dedicate it to uncle rusty...

Tis is for you Uncle Rusty...

The chronicles of burnt rubber and dust particles..

How long have i been riding on my bike alraedy? Ay ay.. too long.. i lost count.

When was the first time i learnt how to coordinate the gears...

When was the first time i had some one to tok to...

When was the first time i met Uncle Rusty..

When was the last time i met Uncle Rusty...

When did Uncle Rusty passed on...

Gone and remembered..Thk U Uncle Rusty...

Stop whining about your fate and start changing it..

Tink i was too sick to ride that i almost fainted at bt tis morning.. Bad... next week trialoton already...

Had steam boat the other night at ct house.. hmm , steam boat with lights from hand phone is cool... its pretty warm too... ay , lucky the boat was running on gas .. not electric.. or it will be just too bad..

Ps , pang sehed hazel and the peeps who went to hazel's party , didnt wanted to go to the party .. too many ppl , and wats more.. i want to accompany my mum.

Hmm, tink i'ld nid to train harder to get more stamina.. tis morning's event is just too dissapointing..

I love you.. because my mum told me to love the mentally illed ppl~ ay...how lame can it get..

I hate thursday... gotto wake up so early.. i hate rainy days.. its cold.... and its a cold rainy thursday today...

Went for gems.. ay, clearly stated on my face that the person wearing that face is acting cool. Hmm, couldn't help it... bad morning ... bad rain.. bad day. Well,we were supposed to come out with ideas for business plans... ay ay... i looked at my wet socks and i could only tink about water proof socks... ~

of course , there are plenty of other ideas too.. i tink the wireless electric guitar is cool...

Hmm...i havent book the chalet yet.. damn it.. sorry peeps..will book it quick.. i promise..

What i do doesn't implement who i am..

Omg sehz.. i had a horny dream yesterday nite seh...~ n i couldnt belive it wasn;t horny enuff for the ppl i tok about it with..sheez..

Ay ay, class was boring today.. every ting is boring.. i didnt even had the appetite to eat.. tink shud be falling sick soon.. shud be..gd, hope mcs would be elongated.. lol wat a word..

Tink now adays have been an attention seeker for long enuff.. irritating enuff ppl.. time out. time to invert abit.. introvert style..

I want to fall in love with the gal i know...not some one who aint near me.. so far away from me.. la di da...

Ya knw.. we cant always rely on time alone to heal wounds.. By the time it does so.. new wounds would be created.. apply some medicine for goodness sake..

Caught up with sleep.Ay ay , thats what sundays are for.. Good.

Had a bad time today.. it just didnt work out for me.. haha

To bt with ruben.. it was quite late already.. and it was pretty dark in there with the trees and all.. I was riding down tis path when suddenly tis stone flew into my left eye.. the pain was excrutiating.. i was like.. ow ow ow on my bike and tings went blur for my left eye almost instanteneously .. a passer by cyclist stared at me as he braked... and very slowly ride past.. good ride past.. thk u .Then washed my eyes with the water from my hydra.. still pain.. ruben caught up with me and we slowly rode to the visitor center.. i couldnt go into the trail any more....the pain is subsiding..slowly..ruben drove there.. but some how.. he couldnt get his car to open with the remote.. and he left the key in the car.. great.. hur hur.. so too bad.. we've gotto cycle back to bp to get the keys from his dad.. the spare one.. it wasnt nice.. cycling with one eye almost blind. The time we reached the house.. ruben's tyre had a puncture.. great. I told ruben to take my bike and go after his car after he collected the keys.. so off he went as i pushed his bike slowly to wen jie's house, only to find that we couldnt get the tube out as the tyre is built in such a way that u nid 3 tyre levers to get the tyre out... and wen jie had only one. ay, in the end ruben came and took the bike in his car.. la dida.. it was 9 already then .. and dinner was horrible

Too bad.. ay , but ~ tml will be a better day.. wakkaka

Effective comparisons makes one improve.. defective comparisons makes one hate.

There was lightning and thunder tis morning.. i was smiling and smiling coz i tot the ride today was cancelled.. but ben decided to go against all odds to carry out the event.. so there i was .. in that event.. so weird... stuck alone with cheng hong and zhuo hua.



The ride was good, there were many female cyclist today.. and zhuo hua keep acting desperate.. Too bad, the ladies are too old..

Rode back home around 1. Got back some sleep.. went out again to ah yong's house.. ay , his bb 1 month le.. so 1 month ago.. i was officially enlisted as Uncle.. so sad..

And there we were at the dinner table. ah zhi bought his gf there.. ah yong was with his wife and baby.. ah yun was with her bf ah wen is out with her bf.. hx told gramps about his gf.. and me... was laughing my ass off at the channel 5 show.

too bad..

Life is too short for regrets-Ms liew during gems class

Woke up damn early today.. stupid flu.. i nid my sleep..

Ay , so i attended my first Gem lesson today.. was quite cool i guess. But some how i tink its smth to do with my attitude or.. smth liddat.. Nobody sit closed to me today.. wakka.. its like.. there tis 4 by 5 rows of seats. two sets of them.. the peeps would be at the other side.. while its me alone on the other side.. totally isolated. Too fierce..

How ever , my group is great i tink.. 3 gals v 2 guys... one of the gal was rather crappy ay for her look.. Looks are deceiving i tell u ...so i'm not that fierce as i look.. Duhz.. Well , i found out that most marketing teachers have much wonderous story to tell the class and the teach today told us about how a healthy shit should look like. Its like 9 in the morning and there she went.

Finally bought the database tb today.. ay , 24 bucks for a stack of paper binded by a hard cover.. Its definately worth it... yes.

Am atttending my dbms pratical now. Look tis proves how slackky i am.. , great.. here comes that old lady.. and some one behind is yakking non stop.. shud up~ ..

We are going against all odds...

ay , it seems that our original plan for the chalet has to be cancelled.. ay

I tink i fail in writing songs.. ay..

Hmm , chee seong's lesson today.. was quite cool i tink.. hur hur .. after that went to town .. with irene ernest and tw.. ay , tw had to pon ent gems.. hur hur.. tml will be my first lesson , omg , 8 in the morning, and i was laughing my ass off at the ppl who nid to stay back on wednesday afternoons. Oh yea.. there was tis gay incident at taka i tink..

Tennis elective slots are all taken up , ay,.. too bad. Gotto head to pengerrang again some time next next week.. with the rovers.. , i tink their lame.. but oh well.. la di da.

I'm so gonna buy my clothes tomolo already... nid to spend that money before they are wasted on smth else.. hur hur

Its not working.


It such a big dis may,
every one starts to hate.
Just another different day ,
the feelings are so dead...
All i see is the pieces , all torn and frayed, all torn and frayed...



If you could see it in their eyes, its full of lies
Insanity is their pride , what else could i say.
They said thats friends are there,
we nvr gave any care ,they nvr gave any care, we are nvr there~

It such a big dis may,
every one starts to hate.
Just another different day ,
the feelings are so dead...
All i see is the pieces , all torn and frayed,all torn and frayed


What the fuck is wrong with us, there so much anxiety , soak in tis enimity
Not a day without the sad faces
Nvr had enuff of hurting each other... its not okay its not okay its not okay....

It such a big dis may,
every one starts to hate.
Just another different day , the feelings are so dead...
All i see is the pieces , all torn and frayed,all torn and frayed

Harmonics - Lead Vocal -Lead Vocal with harmonics

I know that tings cant always be there at the rite time..

9 o clock lesson today.. Hmm.. maths is like old school stuffs.. and i felt nostalgic doing matrices again... was late coz i was being stupid. Idea is stupid..

actually.. i tink ms soh soen eng aint that bad... i dunno its just the first lesson with her.

Yuan yang , teh bing and kopi bing is nice...

Get well soon ern...

Mob presentation was great.. ay..Mrs juliana is good..

I dont like the saloon i went just now.. the service is not good.. picasso at bangkit.. dont go there to have ur hair cut.. not good.

Jogged. I tink 10 mins was good for the 3.6km...

I'm so psyched up for the triathlon... now ... how to stay afloat in the pool without the floats..

Days past,ppl die.. things go away, chapters on the book closes..

Hmm, monday again... kinda cold...

Heavily geared today, full of books ct wanted.. damn it.. he didnt gave me the book i wanted..

database is boring as ever.. ay ~The teach is also.. trying very hard.. ~

However, java was as interesting as the tutor. Var,boolean ladida..

Hazel was late again .. ay ay, cant blame,today was her mum's opening ceremony, she got to go there to do the lion dance.. but her brownies are getting better and better... Ok la, make that better coz tis is only the second time i ate only.. but its good already..

MOB saw us doing the group work. Hmm i see well planned groups.. ay.. Now that every ting is over.. whats left was pieces i guess.

I still owe gary money sehz..~ 4 bucks.. damn.

broked.

Don't go... stay.. here with me..

Mum was planning to bring us for picnic at east coast with the aunties and uncles.. i wanted out so i was out.Actually wanted to buy the clothes alone but i guess i'll postpone it.. Cycled alone to east coast though.

There was this ah pek, cycling halve naked on his bike. I wanted to ask for directions from him but hes cycling faster then i anticipated. Mm, its either he is good or i'm getting OLD, irony. Ay , got to know tis faster route and it kinda shortened my journey much as i only 1 and halve hour tis time, addding to the fact that i got lost at town.

I think dare devil was nice.. maybe one day the directors shud make a move involving all the marvel super heros... ay ay ,one man just isnt enuff to save the world.

don't do it..

Its in the ugly things u'll eventually find beautiful things which u must protect and keep..

Woke up by ct to play tennis.. ~

played till 12 ~ Hmm.. havent managed to return km's racket yet sehz...they are at ch's house now but i dun wanna go.. ay ~

Decided to cook today.

Braised pork.. grilled fish with garlic... prawn salad.. mushroom soup... some apple pie with vanilla ice cream topped with raspberry syrup and fresh straw berries~

The pie was nice i tink~. hur hur..

I'ld love u if could ...

Hang over day..but at least it is a better day...happy holidays to dear blog readers..

Did not wanted to wake up, but ay ay, got to wake up... early in the morning , got the tennis racket from km.. Met up with calindar~ at plaza bought stuffs.. i didnt want to cook.. too bad~ ima temperemental cook..~

Saw lotsa tennis balls flying around the court... some close to hitting me.. also saw some man swimming with some new style at the pool.... laughable style..

So i didnt cook after all, ate some over sized fish ball noodles.. thks aunty lim for the noodles.. hur hur.. is that appropiate?

K pool was filled up with ppl and smoke today.. ay, i see punks and punks wannabe every where.. IP zone's fault ... owned 2 peeps at daytona and was owned by some faggot... tyco only.YEllow button~ ....

Sundae with colourful cereals is nice, but straw berry sundae is healthier...

Ate out.. the food at fajar is getting better and better... la di da.. ay, baron's is good..

Got some funding from dad.. i tink i nid more clothes.. dammit.. hated shopping but i tink tis time bo bian..

hmm, some tings are just better left un known rite...

rite...

I just nid that one sign... gimme the sign plz...

Ay ay, start school,i see new begginings and familiar faces. Hmm, was that being nostalgiC? ay

The classes were great but the food at that stall totally sucked. The potatoe was not up to standard... practically not supposed to be consumed.. ay .. bad. Nong time no lame in class ler...

Dunno why i'm particularly became more conservative over certain stuffs and ideology, perharps after what i saw and felt from the experiences i had... gave me tis attitude...

Had tis series of unwanted events happening to me... tis few days.. Its became a problem actually... and its one of the worst i've encountered... sigh, some times.... its difficult being the person u are..

Went to lum's place to help out with western dishes.. gave suggestions and got to meet tis real fantastic guy call gavin. I know its sounds gay but its really fortunate to find some one who has the same interest in u and appreciates what u do as he knows how tough it would be.. In tis case, we both are rather into culinary. He worked at fins before thus the enthuism and me is becoz i've said that i will learn to cook good food.and hah! , hes there , one of the few Cooks out there i'm able to work together with. I mean its just natural , we started out making the sandwiches .. if u tink its just normal sand wiches u are wrong lo.. Its rather complicated and they are supposed to be produced in bulk lo.. ay ay. We designed the sandwiches in such a way that we hope to appeal to the mass public.. And then it was the salad..and the main dishes like steaks , fish and chips la la l a... Ay , during the cooking session we were both exchanging skill points on every aspect lo. I tot him how to actually marinate the chicken and how to control the moisture content in the chicken while he tot me a more effective way of slicing faster with tis awesome method.. Ay ay.. its just too good ..and i was a total nut abuot cooking 4 years ago.. haha..

I"m not being mean but some times.. some tings are just not meant to be...