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She scurries to the toilet... locks the door urgently and reached out for the side cupboard . From the highest level, cleverly concealed was a packet to marlboro lights. 1,2,3....8 she counted. Gingerly , she pulled out one stalk and stroke a match.Her heart pounded rapidly as her stalk of ciggarrette is being lit. Suddenly , the door burst open and her mother grab her hard on her wrist.. forcing and pulling her out of the toilet. Shocked she was.. vindicated she tot she is.

"What on earth do u think u are doing?? "Her mum screamed...

"What...."She protested... her trade mark uncouth style of replying to her mum...

"I'm going to bring u to the police, have u any sane idea what u are doing? Do u care about how i felt when i see u doing things lie this" her mum sobbed, pulling her to the livnig room hard on her wrists.

Then her brother heard the commotion and walked to the living room from his bed room only shocked to see his mum holding a packet of ciggarrette on her hands.

"Look at her! Look at ur sister , look at what she has done ... nvr in my life i've expected her to be so bad."Cried his mother , tears flowing down her sunken cheeks.

Shes been sufferring... with the stress from her work and as being the sole bread winner of the house. Their dad , do occassionally comes back once in a blue moon. Other then that , it had always been their mum looking after the three children. A cancer survivor , the only thing that motivates her into such a drive is to see her children grow up to be fine adults .

Her brother , dazed by the sight of the ciggarretes, his mind distorted on what he is going to do next . Straight away he sat down on the couch while listen to his mother rant at his sister.

She stared , eyes filled with deep hatred at her mother.. in her heart she felt that she was correct , because it was THEM ! who made her smoke, THEM who put her into such a sorry state, THEM! . its their fault! NOT HERS!....

Exhausted from the ranting , her mum felt faint and collasped onto the chair nearest to her.

"MOVE" that word flashed in his brother's mind for a second... jolting him up from the couch..

"Why must u make mummy cry... Why must u hurt the hearts of ppl who cared for u ?"Bellowed his brother.

"Why must u smoke? WHy must u do with ciggarrettes? "

"Do u think its cool ? I'll answered that question for u , Its absoulutely not."

"Can't u see that ur are beign used by ur friends? I understand that u felt that ur friends are the closest ppl to u and u would do what ever it takes to help them, but have it ever crossed ur mind whether what u do is correct or not. Will it hurt the hearts of PPl who care for u ? "

"True friends won't land u into such a sorry state as u are now! LOok at U, 3 years back before u came into this school u aint like that! you were just like any other ordinary fine gurls out tat.. Look how u've stained urself with ciggarrettes and vulgarities, LOok at the god damn mirror and see for urself how UGLY u've turn to.. Ugly!"Her brother rapped those words out from the bottom of his heart..

Silence.. and that cold stare... was all the response she had.. deep in her heart she was fighting... That devil ... I didnt do anything wrong...


Hot bead of tears rolled down his cheeks... he sobbed...

"When i look at u.. i can only see my self as a brother who have failed... to guide his little sister on the correct path..When papa left us, i know u felt sad, but then u were still young me too.. all i can do is to cry with u .. marcus is luckier he didnt know how it really felt then..."his words trembled with his emotions.."Do u know how i wished u didnt went to the same school as i am?My grades then suck... i wanted u to get better grades then me... i wanted u to go to a better school..its ok if u didnt did well for u studieds, but i ddint expect u to turn bad as well..I didnt wanted all this to happen...but looking at the ciggarrettes now , i feel helpless and i can only cry for u .... "

"Please dont smoke.. become a better person... if u are still there... Know that what u've done is wrong.. and correct it.. IF u still nid help, me and mummy will be still here to help.. even if the whole world turn their back on u .. ur kins wont. Becos its in our blood... so plz... become a better person and let this be the last time ..."Pleaded her brother, discarding all pride resorting to pleadings...

Akwardly.. she nodded her head and proceeds to the sink to wash her face...