I dun wan to fall asleep...

woke up quite late today.. miss berlukar session tis morning.. dang.. abit guilty now.. Tonned at ern's house yesterday nite for bbqing session.. lets see.. thats the 2nd class outing already huh... YAY~ hur hur..

Got all tis stuck up stuffs coming back again.. exams.. projects.. flea market.. dang... camps also..

Speaking of camps.. i already went for two camps tis week. It doesnt seemed like a sem break to me at all.. theres no break for me.. The cadc camp kinda sucked for me bahz. maybe coz i long time no go to their place ler den felt disconnected from them. marg was also saying the same ting.. ay ay, lucky marg acc me during the camp.. or i'll be bored to death, but i went off earlier one day any way.. hur hur.

Dang,i'm really afraid i cant get to sell all my cookies on flea market day...hur hur.ay ay...

It jus died..liddat.. so peacefully, leaving me behind..lonely..

K la... the lamest ting has happened in my life over and over again.. first my hp got rolled over by a taxi.. now its really outta commission wen i accidentally dropped it into the soup.. Hur hur.. Gr8, that fone has sentimental values for me lor, and it died.. such an..horrible death~ hur hur ..

oh well,that means i get a new fone any way.. tml maybe

Hur hur.. lame ~

Gone... its all gone.. everyting is gone... i'm gone.

Yesterday saw luan off at the air port.... kinda sad .. After seeing him off i practically walk aimlessly in the airport alone and went to bugis to get a mouse too.. Lone

School was sleepy for me today, very lethargic.. ay ay.. the css ting.. very scary.. hur hur.. went to the club meeting for the first time juz now.. mm.. dunno why i see rapheal face i keep feeling like sleeping..his face.. got that sleepy face


after meeting went to queensway.. heng ql acc me.. or else i'll rot to death.. hur hur.. finaly got the jersey liao.. orange.. tink jp will love it.. haha

k la.. end here.. heres a pic of me and luan at the air port

Even the best fall downs sometime

2 departures in a row... I'm really, sad now...

Mr luan has been a very very good teacher... he has tot me well, not only on academical basis, but also on alot of moral values.. He has my respect and he has my trust.. He's like been there for me wen i'm down ... and hes so understanding and caring to us.. still remember the times wen we juz simply drink our nights off at the kopitiam downstairs.. sharing the booze like nobodies business.. He tolerates our rowdy behaviour in class ... He is so understanding to such an extent that he doesnt wanna tell us wen he is departing ... coz he dun wan us to waste time to send him off.. haiz.. Luckily ws gotto know from miss yeo..

DAmn ,I regretted seriously now not to have spent more time with him and the peeps..haiz... very sad.IT always comes to an end.. why muz time bring tings to ends... why cant the forever word be true...imbecil i'm one.. haiz..

Wcd lessons..

Having wcd lessons now...Ay ay, next week holiday ler.. well, i guess its more of a study week den a holiday lor.. hur hur .. ay ay now i guess with the projects sorta at bay i'm more relaxed ler .. yay.Bought myself back to reality abit , tok to ws about stuffs about ct , the change in me.. and every one...I seriously noe that i am not spending time with the peeps la.. but i juz hope that i can be understood ... coz i'm really stuck up with lotsa project.. well, i dunno i guess i'll be piss off too if i were u guys.. Tok about relying on each other.. i guess we've rely on jp alil too much at times.. so much so that we want her back so she could organize stuffs for us.. well, i dunno thats what ws said and i kinda agreed , but i tink we are all prone to changes also yea..so i guess alot of tings are not different now.. now i've understood that, but i seriously stick to wat pz said... we accept friends for who they are and who they change to..and i furthur add.. and if we cant.. its better not to be friends..but i'm still able to accept every one though... Maybe i shud take on the role on organizign an event for us.. but i guess no one would come coz i've like not attended the events u guys organized.. I guess its a trend .. but i'll try...hur hur

Kinda sleepy today... hadnt had much sleep lately.. er erd.. Tink i find one day and really sleep hur hur , its tiring sleeping halve way sehz...

The most important thing in your life to find wat u want in life...

AY ay... now at ernest's house doing wcd project. ay ay... gonna burn the mid night oil liao

Went out to watch initial Juz now... ay ay... find the story with bits and pieces of similarities of me.. wakkakakaka.. not i bhb or wat la.. but i'm oso luv racing.. and i also have a father who does midnight deliveries.. and i'ld also help him do deliveries la.. but he does not deliver tofu he delivers fish balls instead... and he not so qiang.. he uses the lorry to deliver... and i also not so qiang i race on a bike..

BUt my life.. since i'm on my bike has been about drafting and drifting also..... ay ay.... THe Ds.. wakkkakak

Dunno, but i not so Kiang yet.. haven chose to become a full racer like wat he do.. wkakakak maybe in the future bahz.. ahha

ok la.. go do project ler.. JIa you to myself~

Itos Projects

Orite,i've juz finish typing like 1K plus plus words for the Itos project report and i'm still typing here.. wakkaka i can't get enuff of typing i tink.. er erd..


Ay ay, now adays not getting much sleep alos eh.. its like 1 am now and i'm still here.. lucky tml classes only starts at 10..

Ay ay, this sat maybe pia WCD liao.. hur hur burned my week end for wcd .. okok.. tink i dun type any more..i'm drained of my brain juices already~ ...

Rainy JOgs

Ay ay... sorry for the delay...hur hur kinda fast the days are passing.. no time to really post a blog..Very stressed eh, projects are all due next week ... wonder if i'm gonna complete it all..

Ay ay,i faced my first set back in Sp .. haha but yea.. i tink i handled it well enuff bahz.. hur hur thks to all those peeps who acc me.. thru it..

Mm, went for tis meeting yesterday at the residents committee opp sch... Ay ay, they were tokking about encouraging cycling in singapore.. and i'm supposed to spear head the project pedal power to cater to these particular bunch of enthuist...apparently...this group of peeps are still green to the sport and hur hur... the looks of it.. i tink i'll be 'baby' sitting a group of senoir citizens~ argh~~!~!~!~!!~!~hur hur

ay ay.. now trying to wrap every ting up and yea will be bringing the documents over to sch to do .. hur hur com too lousy to do ler.. my mouse is like so sucky lor.. its not behaving~ ...grr

Wondering how jp is doing over at perth now.. ay ay.. wanna go there soon..go there to cycle.. muahahhaha

hur hur,i tink its my turn to have the knee cap injury ting.. Ah tuck ,jy yk and ws all experience before.. Mm, i tink its common for volleyball players who spike.. i dun see Gy getting it.. my right knee cap like spoilt liddat.. walk down stairs also feel pain..~ Mm according to wat Mo said.. we shud go swimming.. yk jy and ws tried swiming and they said it got better.. hur hur, i tink i shud go try it too.. but first.. nid to learn how to swim.. wkakakka tink i tis sun follow my bro go to his swimming lessons.. Aiya.. also nid to get myself a pair of swimming trunks~ so ma fan sehz....


k bah end here

i'm sry if i hurt u, its smth i muz do ...

This isnt good bye, even if i watch u leave... I can't bear to see the sihoutte of ur figure getting smaller and smaller as u walk furthur away from my scope across the horizon..


1 year before tis we are all still mugging so hard together...departures like tis nvr crossed our minds...it all seemed so yesterday now that reality had got the better of us..

Fate has brought us here today ... and its with fate also that we are brought away.... but our faith keep us strong in within

But its the present we are living in and we will cherish the present for its the present that we are concious now..

though we might be miles apart, memories we had before will always be in our hearts

We might seem to see our own future so clearly now, but OUR future is still so foggy, every ting might go..


Jia pei, though it seems hard and i've tried runnning but i tink the illusions for me are all gone... I'll definately miss u dearly , i'll not cry coz i couldnt cry an ocean for u .... I'ld rather wish and hope that u'll be safe out there and return not empty handed but with what u've wanted for ..so strive hard urself and i wish u all the best too for a better future that lies ahead... hur hur...

J.c

Love aint measurable by effort or time ... love is measured by the hole the person u love ,so dearly, in your heart wen he or she is gone..

LOl, i juz tot of tht shet on the mrt on the way home.. hur hur...

today was late for sch alarm clock failed me ~!!... hur hur heng mrs quek not angry ... coz we acted cute.. wahhhaa..

Hur hur the pig offal soup not nice to eat lor.... hur hur

Ay ay.. tht kim.. call my chinese name till very chine...

DId abit of WCD after sch... also nth much la.. hur hur slack around only.. tink we are gonna die....ern.. ur screwed.. i'm screwed too.. we are both screweed~!~!~!

Donation to jC club any one??? It seriously nids some financial support now.. haha..

die

HAd accounting test today... tink i'm gonna fail tht la.. hr hur

Quite broke now..

Went to lins house for curry..NOt bad lehz.. hur hur

planning for some up coming event..

still so busy with projects and tests

elated

Hehe, my mum bought me t shirts and a new pair of shoes.. hehe..

down with flu for the whole day.. so didnt went bt... ay ay, feeling guilty now for not training ler..

Studied accounting juz now.. Mm, hopefully i can pass tomolo's test..

hazel said tomolo will be halve day.. dunno true or not...

Ay ay.. nth much..ler..me ouT~

New look...

hehe , today actually wanna go out watch initial D de... but sadly.. was cancelled.. Sob~ But i made used of the time by going for a hair cut and collecting my specs.. which is overdue for like.. 3 months.. haha...

den at night.. joined km to ride with the ppl at YI shun.. Me and km went by the old woodlands route path... den we met up wit Km's friend.. who happends to be at the mandai hill camp.. Mm, seeing the life behind those caged doors.. I really....................................................... Am anticipating for my ns to come.. haha

After we cycled to meet the North east line peeps.. Thts wat they call themselves la...Ay ay.. but their facts about bikes to me .. is quite weird la.. lol km also felt the same... haha...

But me and km made them ate smoke.. ay ay.. drafting them down one by one.. haha.. but we rode by the cemetry sehz.. at night some more.. but i can bet with all u guys.... the stars there are like damn bright ~... we can see saggitaurius... and the heart of saggitaurius.. i dunno much about astronomy like km do.. but looking at so many stars are already great enuff..

Ay ay,my spds came lose for me.. wen i attempted a attack... causing my right leg to go under the chain ring and my shin to be scraped by the pedal.. Hur hur, now my right leg there got tis very beautiful scar... like tattoo lidddat.. left behind from the chain ring..

Ay ay.. first time nite cycled in a group... not very tiring to cycle at nite actually.. but wen u are not drafting ... its very cold .. hur hur... k la.. thts about all for today... till den..

deliverance..

Thks for the ppl who showed their concern...over my decision....really appreciated it.... I'll still continue to play vball .. not competitively already though... taking on a leisure pace for it....

We celebrated matt's birthday yesterday...happy belated birthday to him... I tink the white choco cake is nice..

Kingsly said to play the song by chemical romance.. i was like.. wah... how to sing for tht song.. ~~ nid to scream~~... dangz.. Ernie got real screwed for his nwe bass guitar... hur hur...

Ting wei gonna be another vocalist for the band...matthew's gonna be our electric guitarist..

Ernies been tokking tokking to march...

ay ay, we've yet found a name for our band...

I've yet watch initial D

Will tomolo ever come???

HUr hur, is it me or is smth missing...

Decisions comes with consequences..-ramesh

I officially quit sp vball team today....feeling damn sad now..

I kinda.. walked towards the court with a heavy heart.. gilbert came over to me first.. i told him wat i wanted to say and he grabbed my collar and ask me to repeat wat i said.. , damn... i was even sadder wen he did tht... but i tink he also got my reason bahz... I told bernard that i was gonna quit.. bernard was so shocked that he came out from the game he was playing.. i told him my reasons and all..He also agreed that studies are more important now for me bahz.. i've also told him cycling will be my main priority now.. and he also understood that.. but i feel tis sense of nostalgia even more as i walked furthur away from the court.. with zhi wei, gilbert and all looking at me.. I wouldnt even wanted to face my ex sch team mates, cant face them now... Dammit, if only i could quit my studies... the day has been trully saddening for me today...

Glorious moments at the zonals comp, imprinted in me ...

continue...

We've got lotsa acheivement after wards and with the help of another external coach... whom is mr sng's previous coach.. we fought our way to the west 2004 b divisions finals again.. Its nostalgic as we were against shuqun secondary yet again..we rallied our way till the bitter ends as both team won a set each.. the final set was juz as intensive with scores margins apart ...how ever , we manage to pull through... tears of joy were dropped by many of us.. as we clinched the final set.. Every one was relived tht the emotional roller coaster ride had ended...and its there again zheng hua first batch of volleyball players created legend for the school..

I Graduated from zheng hua after wards... Hur hur ... I went into sp after o's and joined the volleyball there.. I still love volleyball all the same there.. but i found out tht the trainings had been very hard on me....as in.. it left me with no time for doing tings like work and all..

thus, after much dillemia and contradictions.. i've come to a conclusion to quit vball...ay ay.. but i'll still play it la.. but not tht intensive any more.. i wanna focus more on my studies and cycling...

Cycling will be smth i tink i will wanna be good at... i'm gonna cycle faster and harder.. now.. I'm sorry to my team, esp chun hung jun yuan and chong tuck.. Letting myself and u guys down liddat are the tings thats been holding my decision back before.. I really hope u guys do well for wat u guys are good at... all the best to u on the paths u choose bahz..

Guess tis is the end ler bahz... 4 years + of intensive volleyball training will come to an end for me ler... i guess a few years down the road.. i still wont forget the adrenaline rush volleyball brought for me... short balls will be in my mind wen i cycle.. decisive , precisive and agressive....

Volleyball

If u asked me why i started playing volleyball, i guess i don't have an answer bahz.. I was selected by the coach during sec 1 to join the volleyball school team.. I went into the cca without knowing wat lies ahead for me in it.. We were all noobies den and we couldnt even hit the ball accurately..but through the thick and thins we grew together .. Mr sng.. our coach... trained us well

He thought the fundamentals of volleyball and went around discussing tatics used by other teams.. He introduce each of us to different positions suitable for us.... and it is him that groomed and tailored us to wat we are today ...

In the year 2002, zheng hua woned the division c boys of the west zonal championship.. We had a match against shuqun secondary school... The match was intensive and the match last till the very last point.. its any one guess tht who would win.. but we turned the tables on them and thus zheng hua proceeded to the nationals with the title of west zone champions..

We only reach the quater finals of the tournament though... Our groupings was a tough one as we were group against the power houses of volleyball like saint hilders.. xin min and hai sing.. Ay ay, but every one the arena of volleyball was impressed by our performance as we are the first batch of volleyball players from zheng hua...

to be continue.....

Lol i wanna sleep ler..

Tink its ok now coz i belive tht ting has a reason why they exist and happen...

Wootz, classes today was v boring.. ay ay.. Nvr did my ACC hw~! argh!~~!~!~ lol.. hur hur lucky i manage to catch up.. hur hur

After sch went to bras besar to acc ern to look at his bass guitar.. wootz.. found quite some decent deals for bass guitars and acoustic ones.. tink the stuffs there are generally cheapp.. lol.. i was telling ern tht we are cheap man.. lol its in our blood.. ahaha

Ay ay, jf came up to me ... asking me to join road biking... he says acenders is falling apart... ay ay..den he forming another team..joining road bike would meant less time again.. they are training for the up coming races next year for the road criterium.. km futhur pressurized me wen he said he is gonna join if i;m gonna....

Ay ay... walk one step , see one step bahz...

Tings I dont wish for come by my way and the tings i wish for juz dont seem to come at all..

Woke up damned early today.. 5.... hur hur to find out tht wen jie got drunk the last nite and couldnt attend the race with me... leaving me alone with ruben.. ay ay.. YI mian also damn jia lat.. lost his way.. hur hur he went all the way to discovery center instead of ntu..

AFter we reach the race area.. we were dispatched into group.. i'm team up with this bery great guy called yus.. AY ay.. he is a very gr8 man to tok to .... hur hur and we were allocated to the location whereby.. opposite.. theres a durian plantation..LOl.. so we were practically siting there and waiting durians to dropp.. and they did.. Lol it was nice lo, ahah fresh durians..

Ay ay, after every ting sat ruben car to go collect guitar from matthew.. haha.. had quite some time figuring out how to use it juz now.. thks hansel for teaching me all the stuffs.. hur hur..

Ay ay...Dunno how long to wait till we can go jamming.. Lol.. hope to get my vocals rite...by then..

Mm, missed out initia D with the ppl today.. haiz.. some times tings are realy nt in my control...

people always tell me tis is part of the plan.. tht god had got it all planned.. but i only hoped tht god is listening..is he listening?

Ay ay.. had quite an interesting day yesterday.. hur hur class outing at seoul.. Kingsly was there also haha. kinda cool. every ting was nice..

Ay ay.. theres not cycling training today as they went for night riding yesterday and i skipped tht..

Kinda broke now..desperately sourcing for cash.. any one day job to introduce?? hur hur

Heres a pic of the class bois... ay ay.. pissing off.