I'm too numb to speak

sorry mates , its been a long time since i updated.The Exams are all crammed up for the week eh. Plus ,i've been rushed around every where too much till my ass hurt from sitting on too much public transport, man i need a car~

So heres whats going on for the past week.

YES i finally bought my camera. My dslr 350d. My sweet black baby, jeeze, the honey names are getting racist. Any what , her arrival is one of the plus factors for me being so busy , busy shooting, pictures that is.I hope i could get some of good quality out~ Oh yea , thanks TPB for the company down to vivo to collect it , I hope you were entertained~

AH jeeze, so many things happened that i can't bother to update.. XD .. Guess we'll just take it from here.

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"You've got somebody else?"

"Nope, not really..."

"Then why noT?"

"Well, I don't have to spell every thing out to you that clearly eh? Good , smart girl.."

Duan wu Festival

So i guess people all around are making dumplings now adays to commerate the Duan wu Festival.It occurs on 5th day of the 5th month of the lunar new year , but ay, my mum decided to celebrate today.

As i was eating the dumplings with the rest of the family , i had to hear my mum go on with the story on how duan wu festival came about. Geeze, i would have went on to eat infront of my monitor but my aunt and uncle was there , which mean my butt had to be glued onto the chair.

Well, if memory serves me right , duan wu festival came about because of this guy died at some pond at china some time back . The guy is some great Guy which made the folks grieved upon his death. So , in order to prevent the fishes from eating the corpse , they rowed dragon boats with drums and all to scare the fishes away and all. The interesting part is this , they made dumplings to feed the fishes so that they will be too full to eat the rotting corpse.

So , they made dumplings to feed the fishes,wouldn't it meant that we're eating fish food. hmm...

Dumblings day....

OMFG ITS SUNDAY ALREADY~

Damn , one week more to msts , I fuckking dread them. So much so that i'm talking like some dumb fuckked bimbo..

I spent the past few days out late , so much so for cooping up at home flashing and psing previously. I feel much alive today. Its a perfect morning, my mum didn't forget to my paper and woots, finally some one did something about the coffee. Whats more, my aunt and uncle came over to visit us to help out with making dumblings..Then i didn't over slept today so yes, i'm productive. Its good.PLease , don't let anything happen to ruin my perfect Sunday..

Its dumpling day today. I think. Mum woke up early to start preparing for it , and i'm more then glad to help out. I wish i had my camera with me i'ld be able to post up my tasty cuboid dumblings. I don't understand why they want it to be pyramidal shaped when its soo much easier to make a cuboid one.Tsk

3 cheers for a wonderful SUNDAY!

Love happens,really?

Ok, i've been spending tons of my time in front of my computer doing up flashes and photo shopping stuffs here and there.My mum is complaining about seeing the back of my head silhouetted by a computer monitor while i was doing all that shet. I'm coding so much so that i'm becoming a geek who shuns sun light and has a diet of 2 meals per day. If I don't start blogging now i'm going to start to avoid any form of communication with any body.

Been paying attention to the couples around me recently . Its interesting , to see how they try so hard to make things work,well, some of them they did succeed, for those who don't , trust me , i feel sorry for you.

That gave questions , whether the reason why they are so motivated to try so hard is because of love. Then its funny how they endlessly pour effort into something which isn't realistic. Ask any one , would you love him or her so much so that you're gonna walk the aisle together? Actually , i'ld laugh when some one answered yes to that question. Then , again for those who say they won't , why are you trying so hard for? Then there are those who decides not to choose. These people form the majority actually, maybe thats what ethically decided as , the correct way of perceiving the question.

Maybe falling in love doesn't have to be of realism . It just happens and goes as it is. How ever , I reckon it works the same when you engage in a relationship. Sure at some point of time you love each other , but tsk, what gives ? Maybe being in a relationship doesn't require love for each other after all .. it can be just , there .

Take for example a friend i have , now , whether he is a total jerk or not , you decide(ps. he might be another of my imaginary friend , so please re confirm before you assume). He is with
this girl well, for some time. He goes out with her and all and yea , they behave just like any couples would do. How ever , he has been having flings , ok , maybe not having , going to have or thinking along that line. He is sex driven and woots , other "hotter" girls appeal to him out there.In fact , he almost takes that his gf doesn't exist at all. Then it makes me wonder, why is he even in that relationship.

Well, one thing is for sure , people are still looking for their "suitable"partners here and there , me too~ That makes us all jerks and sluts huh? Wth , you must be wondering what point i'm trying to prove , well stop thinking, its 2 in the morning and i don't know what i'm typing again , whats more, there isn't a point to start with..

Mocha

Behold, a Jack Russel terrier, an infinite source of energy. This one here is name after a mix of coffee and chocolate , which makes mocha. Mocha's my friend's friend , and is also my friend.How sweet. He never fails to lighten my mood every time i visit patrick's house and never fails to smear some of his saliva on me and leave plentiful of his fur on my shirt.

Every time I tease mocha around it reminded me of beng , which absence is still grieved. Maybe thats the reason why i like mocha that much. Hmm, a replacement huh.....

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Feeling Dysfunctional

Certainly , I'm tired of so many things . How people behaved , how they treated me , how they treated each other. It feels like they're out there to get each other.Some how , i feel that I'm the only one complaining about it. Its like, they feed on this vicious cycle , deprived of hate , ruins hope for a better day with an absolute eclipse.

I'm tired of feeling what i should be feel. I sneered at how people need to be hypocrites yet I'm the worst I've ever saw. I'm sick of being deprived of attention , or even worse.. getting those that i don't deserved.I cursed and swear with every shadow that bump against me , making me sway. I chased away those who wants to get at me , yet , i need some one to read me. Like a book , I wished to be accounted for , I wish some one understand my hand writings...

Tolerance is indeed a bliss, which I would love to blow it away with a kiss...

One of the worst

The almond drink didn't work=S I thought it did work but come next morning , I began coughing again and it got worse this morning. I had a bad dream in the middle of the night and i couldn't get back to sleep.I still can remember the dream, and its pretty ridiculous. I dreamt that i was looking at many good flash web sites and photos that I kept going ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG in front of my computer. I was frantic while dreaming that dream as i kept clicking on the different links and pages... I woke up in cold sweat and had a bad head ache. Period, been thinking way too much , brain hemorrhage.

It became even worse when my sinus set in and i was coughing , sneezing and my head was pounding... I had Panadol and that sent me to a rather, peaceful but coerced slumber in the later part of the afternoon. I woke up feeling better so i gave Ern a call to confirm the trip down to the IT fair. Then we were there , woots plenty of people... No Pz i didn't saw you ... theres plenty of people teeming around and whats more, i think my eye sight got dulled today@_@

Dinner was at sub way, i thought it'ld be healthy to eat there, despite the peanut butter cookie and coke, and a little ice cream for dessert. Ay, the guys are evil , as always , when they temt to eat that 50 cents ice cream , and yes , the sneezing and coughing and head ache came back in a package halve way through my ice cream. I was parched , so i and zj hydrated ourselves at 7-11, once again i thought apple juice would be healthy so i drank a can , woots , the sneezing got worse. I got home coughing terribly and there was phlegm and all, then i spit out some, blood, woots. I'm pretty sure that the blood was due to too much heat and all, so hmm, i'll just put liang teh as my main diet now. Its scary though , to cough blood.

I treat the people who read my blog well..

I think...

I let you guys listen to nice songs.. I try my best to cheer you up....I kill time for you.... I reccomend remedies for you...I even drew nice pictures for you =) <----- So when evangelline asked for the chawanmushi to be put up again , i can't be more glad than to oblige , so Evan..

heres what you asked for ..