Wednesday, August 29, 2007

The dude's tired..

Damn , I'm damn damn damn shagged ar.. after days of work. Phua is unrelenting. DAMN it, Lemme complain... JEEze

5 days of full shifts work seems like eternity. People come people go , i sold for the company like theres no tomorrow, jeeze i don't know why i am working so hard actually, i've got no quota to reach or sort...Mr phua loves me, I know he does. He even treated me to teh bing after that ace day I had.

Arh, speaking of favouritism, i can't stand bosses being bias to people . Like , to me a boss is some one i look up upon , a leader and all, being biase, is totally not worthy of any respect.Mr Phua and Madam phua ( THe phua laus ) kept mistreating the foreign workers ar. They practice favouritism to Singapore workers,and would give them more consideration as compared to the foreigners.Every time xiao may would have her clients' being passed to me to handle by phua i felt bad. The reason was because xiao may couldn't speak proper english , thus, I took the client , but it got quite ridiculous when the client is actually from china as well and i end up, having xiao may next to me to translate my broken chinese to them.

How ever , I don't know why , the number of people taking photos with us seems to be decreasing , as the days past . Maybe its the rain, people find it a hassle visit the studio. So much so that Wang lin, the receptionist started to entertain people. She'll most likely go walking around disturbing people , and i get that plenty of time. There was once I was like being myself.. standing around ( well, the rest there think that i'm acting cool , in fact there was once , Rj , one of the photographer came up to me and said" wah , you stand here , i think the wind only blow towards ur direction" sth like that in chinese) then wang lin came over and said, JC, the girls ( miss phua and friend) are making fun of you. I was like, Zzz, I better sit down or sth...

Well, a new comer came over just today , his name is Jun Chien or sth . Very close to my name i know. Ok, he came over last week but i only got to talk to him more today. So we were talking about Phua's daughter, miss phua. Miss phua is very very short. Short and small. She is by record, the shortest girl i've ever seen( Esther, you can gloat about this) . Guess, what , she is 20 years old. SHE IS A YEAR OLDER THEN ME. Then i was wondering why she was treating me like a kid when she is so small and short. Just when i finished this sentence, she walked pass us .. I looked at her , and she stopped and look at me. She went," what? Go on~.." and walk away.

I felt this piece of concrete drop on me with the word LOSER carved on it...

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Hello Jie Xi...

So i've been working for a couple of days at the studio already. Its funny, even though i'm working alone, its interesting. Maybe its the new environment but i'm starting to like my job. Well, first day of work was quite a comedy indeed.

My boss , Madam Phua( AKA Phua lau eh) introduced me to the crew. I was called Jc then.Then she assigned me to Xiao may.. or mei or wtf anything liddat... who fucking is a girl from china ... Xiao may is supposed to coach me. I'm telling you, i need to learn my chinese well because halve the time i don't understand what she is talking about and there went taking that i'm a joke and keep giggling. Suzie was a nice lady and she came to be my translator and eventually, my guide instead.Phua lau eh laughed at this ok, she laughed at my demise! She said , when I speak in chinese with xiao may , she laugh till her teeth drop. Something liddat.

Its really sickening. There was this instance xiao may was showing me where the different sizes of photos are stored. She went what si ar, shan ar , yi ar, er ar.. I was like , wtf is that. She kept ar ar ar ar ar... Suzie then told me it was the photo sizes which are in 4r 3r 2r 1r... Alamak.

Then Mr Phua( AkA Phua Lau pei) came. Phua lau pei mistaken me as one of the graduates collecting the graduation gowns they were distributiing and kept asking me to sit down and wait for my turn and all. Jeeze, Phua Lau Pei is partially deaf.. So yes, it took some patience and sign language to tell him that i'm the newbie.

Then Phua Lau Eh asked me to demonstrate to her how to dress the gown up for practice. She got Xiao May to be the model. ARGH! OF ALL PEOPLE AND ALL THE GUYS THERE!There was this part where you have to hook on something on the blouse. That area happen to be where the chest is, and in this case, it happened to be where xiao may's breast are. I was asking Phua lau eh.. " Phua lau eh... do i realy have to do this? " .. Phua lau eh went" OF COURSE YOU MUST DO, and you must do it accurately and quickly!" i was like in GG mode.. xiao may then went something like.." LAI BAH~ BU YAO PA or sth (translate to, bring it on! Don't be a pussy)"SIgh, hers was harD~ ...

Xiao may was sweet though, she kept smiling and smiling no matter the difficulties i had understanding her. .How ever ,one major turn off is. She couldn't get my name right. She gave me a new name infact. Jie Xi. Just this afternoon during lunch , Xiao may went JIE XIIIIII~~~~~~~~~ and threw a lump of rice and something and something on my plate. Before i could even finished my sentence she ran off in smoe china girl style.. Wtf, I'm now known as Jie Xi. Even the photographers there started calling me that. You should have seen Phua lau eh laugh. How ever, their english ain't that good as well. There was this instance Suzie was telling me what is what on a graduation gown. When it came to the Sashay.. she took it as a hood and pronounced it as.. " HOOT" Jeeze, lucky for my years of training in the comedy line, I'm able to hold my uproaring laughter in me.

So basically what i do is to handle clients and all, so with every deal secured , my name will be written on the sales contract by some one. In the early afternoon , it was ok they wrote my name as JC. Soon they began to emphasize more on the C instea of the J... so it became )C . Then , as the crowd got more ,they wrote it as )( ... then phua lau eh was having troubles identifying what the symbols mean , she changed it to >< . Then for convenience sake , they all changed it to X. When i saw that , i went hey.. thats not my name, phua lau eh went, it is now.. Wtf, do I look like some guy who have a bad hairdo and knives coming out of my knuckle!??!???!?!

Today was interesting though. Suddenly there was this woman who came in and went KNNN CHAO CHEEE B##N.... (we all know its not spelt that way)She slurred more vulgarities which i dunno , but i understand that she went FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.. and then KNN .. HU LI JING! ( Vixen ) I inferred that one of the staffs committed in a extra marital affair with her husband , that explains she was so pissed. Funny though , she called the police to come catch the woman ,who apparently is really not there... and the police took her into custody instead. Jeeze, she ate her words. ~

I was in a rush to use the toilet and i couldn't got away from my client, but that woman chased my client away. Thank god for answering my call to nature!I Pee-ed , relaxed , calmly and in an orderly fashion =)

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Screwed up body clock


Jeeze, i think my body clock is so screwed up after the chalet. The chalet was actually meant for the Old 05 peeps, but ay, not alot turn up, apparently, only me and ernest stayed over together with the girl gang. Jeeze, It was fun though , especially when the night was spent gossipping about people. The high light was Yan ching's "fur".


There was yet another sighting incident again. While walking with the girls to see the sunrise during the wee hours , I felt a chill down my spine and i had goose bumps. My first reaction was to show off my 'very long' arm hair to ernest . When ernest turned over to look at them , he immediately turned back. Then we kept quiet and continue walking.When we were furthur away from the place ernest told me that he saw a white apparition beside me when i said my hair stood. GG.. and to think about it, its the 7th month too!



Sigh, i'll start to have a no life life after tml when i start working. Work eat sleep work eat sleep, take photo abit. SIgh ,well i think i had my fair share of fun. I think. Went to esplanade to do photo shooting with pat just now. Jeeze, yet another spend time together session.We played more pool then shoot photo actually.Aiya, we can't get any decent shots any way when the security guard decides to off the lights in esplanade. Then my friend had yet another accident again when the barrier at the car park fell on him. Tsk, apparently he didn't pay attention to the barrier and was ogling at some sleek sports car instead.


Jeeze, I need sleep , but I can't sleep. All these thoughts inside me, are bothering me but i'm not bothered actually. I think. Jeeze.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

They crushed us like an ant

Sigh, the team is out of the tournament! Jeeze, who knew we'll be so serverely crushed by the foreigners.. argh~ They're big, they're strong , they're ang moh. ~~Oh well, they were slow any way..I'm quite satisfied looking at them run around.





Well, now its back to training mode again, but before that, i think I'ld have a chat with M.o to see whether zheng hua is playing next year.





Been sleeping alot after the law paper, i guess it was pay back for the lack of sleep during the examination period. So, I was with the guys at mos on friday night together with tw's friend. Well, it wasn't the most enjoyable nights I had but , I had some serious man to man session going on with ern after the session.Well, how come i'm not surprised that we share the same perceptions.. again~





Hmm , then i watched the movie 881 with my family, in celebration of my sis's birthday. Ay, its quite a nice show that had a strong singaporean essence in it. The hokkien/chinese/ broken english dialouges they had were interesting and well thought off. Indeed its something to be expected with the likes of roystan tan as the director of the film. He's too damn good .


Argh, i've still got a few more flicks i wanna catch on the big screen, but I'm too damn broke to go watch them. Dman it, good thing i'm working ~! Jeeze, life without money sucks.

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Phone lost~ bad karma, good karma, got karma?

Goodness gracious me, i lost my phone, AGAIN!

FUCK!~

Scenario

I went to study at fajar with Ct as usual for our law paper tml, Ct decides to have dinner so i acc him to the hawker. When we were about to leave , Ct ran away first because there was a stray cat near by, Ct ain't afraid of the act, He was afraid of the germs on it. So he ran without his wallet and i was being nice so i took it for him.

Act

Then we proceed to the place where we we're supposed to mug at. Then while we settled down, i realised my phone was not with me. At first i thought it was Ct playing a prank with me because he started taunting me and all, but hur , he called my phone and told me that it was off. I called it myself to confirm.

Attempt

We then went back to the hawker in desperation to find my phone , but it was pointless from the start. I called star hub to suspend my line. Sigh. An diseased society indeed!

I couldn't help but thought of the time when i was in year 1 , when i found an O2 phone and returned it to its owner. Giving the circumstances then, i felt good when i perform an act of upholding integrity. Sheesh , so much so for maintaining a good karma.

Ok , on the other hand maybe i don't have a fair balance of good karma and bad karma after all. Ct suspected the indian uncles which are sitting beside us and drinking beer . I wanted to ask them , but ct decide that would be a bad choice, drunk angry indian uncles == dangerous people
to him. No offense, but after that i began noticing that where ever we walk , there are indianS! Well , take for example the place we mugged at. At first there was this , solitary indian pushing his cart around , should be a sweeper or so. I noticed him. Then there was this indian couple who walked past us , speaking in very heavily indian accented english. Then , a bunch of indian kids like , skipped past , dance past or sth(seriously, i dont understand why they can't walk normally) . Then there was this indian family, the mother going in this string of indian lingual which i supposed was used to scold her son which looked quite demoralised and was looking down. The next bunch of Indians which walked past was the high light, a bunch of grown up indian men, I supposed they're foreign or sth, walked past, hugging each other and holding hands. I know in their tradition its supposed to be friendly and all, but at that point of time, the disappointment level i had , i couldn't think traditional,I became modernized and thoughts of homo sexuality came into my mind as I looked on with disgust.

ARGH! I'm feel so sorry for my brother. sigh.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Mugging break

ARh, LAST PAPER FINALLY THIS FRIDAY! Law paper.. Jeeze,chatted up with Ming li, jeeze , so fking long since i've ever talk to her .. and she gave me tips on how to study for the law paper. Thats to study every thing on the night before and the morning of the paper. CAN you belive that she got an AD with that tatic and she actually said its easy? OK, smug bomb detected !

So the past few days had me pulling my hair bla bla shet with the papers. Sigh ,I definitely had plenty Jc's super morning wakeup call deluxe expresso... Jeeze, i know caffeine is bad, but woots, many cups of that is actually quite fatal, even my pee smelt like coffee after i drank one of those~

Arh , talk about peeing. Ever been to a uni sex toilet before?

The other day i was studying with CT at some lame shet macdonalds( k i know studying at mac are for kids and all but jeeze, theres no place else) and i happened to need to pee. Thats when i realise the toilet they have cater to both sexes. Well, i don't understand why they had to do that when the toilet is actually quite big , but , sadly, there is only one cubicle and that cubicle happened to have this blue color rubbish bin. ARh huh, sounds familiar girls? There i went , thinking its some ordinary rubbish bin and i threw my much used up tissue paper in there. The moment i flipped the lid open i saw it. Bread with JAM! BREAD WITH STRAWBERRY JAM!!!!!!! (Well, I don't wanna sound so crude )Yes , I took a second glance at the contents because i thought i saw something out of place. I told Ct and he went to look any way, shrug..

I bet some one will be laughing damn hard now.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

I have no reason to be happy...

Its ok , i'm old enough to deal with my own problems.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Vagisil.. The face cleanser..

Mum brought me and marcus out for dinner this evening. Dinner was great , I always love eating dinner with my bro around, when ever mum asked me to do something I'll get him to do it instead. This is not an act of domination, I'm trying to teach my brother to be more street smart ! How is going to take care of his sweet little girl friend if he ain't as smart as me.

We did groceries after dinner and I thought that the facial wash need to be stock up , so i went to look for it. While i was contempltaing between tea three and the ginvera promotion , Mum came over with a bottle of this.



"How about trying this out.. Looks good~!"Mum said, obviously, she didnt read cause she wasn't wearing her glasses..

The text was small on the bottle so i moved closer and took the bottle from her to scrutinze on to the details on the tiny text...

Then the birds and bees started to fly , the flowers bloom and the skies became clear~~~

(P.s , For those who don't know what vagisil is, obviously you didn't pay close attention to the Mrt advertisments on the train... Tsk. Go Google Vagisil if thats the case)


Right , updates , So i spent the evening with the peeps at eski bar to celebrate calin's(I hope you enjoyed the flame thing, it looked so extravagant) 19th birthday at holland vee. Considering the fact that the heat waves from the damned weather was killing me, i think Eski bar is pretty a neat place to chill. I was surprised there was absinthe in their menu but the guys said its most likely an imitation... Hmm..

I left halve way to meet up with the guys for guys night.Jeeze, its something so over dued that no amount of fines would do justice. Every one had so much story to tell and update , we tonned the whole night ... I was having doubts on us finish the three bottles of vodka (considering the fact that i was KOed with just halve a bottle) but woots, we did good . I think. Kk , sorry PZ~ for the shet stuffs i said.

I think the best high light of the whole guy's night conversation was wiht ern saying so seriously.. "I want to be a pig"

ZOMFGBBQRP la kum hong~

He even went on to admire pigs for their ability to cum for 30 minutes..~

From now i'll always think of ernest when i eat my ham.

Friday, August 10, 2007

The night adventure...

The day was spent mugging at home for Fm , fuck , so many stuffs to download into my pea brain. Ay , but then my beloved patrick called me to say he wanted to spend some time together , so woots, we went for a spin....

Ah yes , the photo is misleading i know... We actually rode to town .

While Patrick was parking his bike, the gear lever came off , woots, GG...He can't shift gears. So we went , helter skelter to marina square to look for tools. the shop keeper at home fix was a nice guy, he opened up the shop again just for us to purchase the tools. How ever, the tools didn't fit the bolts on his bike, thus , GG , He had to manually changed the gear with his hands. So we stopped in the middle of the high way at a down hill inorder for him to change to gear 5 so that the bike can go faster. Its , hilarious.

Ay, but he got home in one piece, so ok la.. Jeeze, dude, we need to be together more often ... Sigh...

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Happy birthday Xing Cha BOR~

K its like 230 am in the morning of national day, I'm so excited that i can't sleep. Yes who am i kidding. I'm currently talking to Gary and reading my past post. Gary, is a very very sad dude, his love life is simply, heart wrenching , thus me being the very kind me gave him a motivation session and some very very sound tips.

Then I was looking at my previous blog and Zzz, i can't help it but felt disgusted with all the grammatical errors and poor vocab. Ok i'm not saying I'm all English teacher now and all but hmm, i though i could at least salvage it ab it by re-editing one of the post. XD


Tuesday, December 21, 2004:.
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To you,

By the time you are reading this,you might have known alot of things already, how ever there might be still some stuff that i've kept to myself..

Its been such a long time.. I've waited.. I've hid around ur shadows ,I hurt and got hurt for you,through all these years. Do you remember,the bottle i gave to you on your 13th birthday,together with the pooh card.. hur hur. Its the first present i had gave to any girl. Yeap, i'd alot of first time with you.That day when we broke up, i was waiting outside the gate for you. There was a slight drizzle, i though u might not have brought any umbrella along , silly me. I decided only to enter the school when xw told me to..Again,that is a dumb move . Maybe u think that its nothing, but at that time, i really wanted to send you home with that umbrella.

August 25 th, the day you broke up with me,I will always remember this date .I'ld always reminiscence on the memories we had . The first time i saw you cry, I felt a sudden urge to ask why and who made you cry and all. How ever , i never did , I guess i was too late to ask. Some one else did.

Then, you and i stopped talking for awhile yea?By then you were with xw. I got to know that through Irvin. However xw eventually told me about the relationship both of you are having . Hur Hur, for the first time I felt so much pain going through me at that time..I don't know , i know i would be jealous,but it was far from that.Its more then jealousy,but i kept every thing to myself.I didn't want any one to know that i still like you . I didn't wanted to put a Xw on the spot .

I began telling xw stuffs about you, what you like and stuffs like that. Well I did that for a simple reason actually, that is to see you happy with him.I wanted him to give you things I couldn't give,love that i can't fulfill,I didn't think much then.Then i saw you drenched in melancholy.I hated him , i knew its not your fault,but he denied all responsibilities and till now i still have doubts on forgiving him. Yea, I'm very small air(petty).

On my 14Th birthday,you and him gave me a car(well , its a miniature model, but a car is still car )and i still keep it with me. That was the first present you gave to me. i sorta really treasure that yellow car. It is also on my 14th birthday that i made a wish that i could be with you again. Hur hur, childish i would say ,the wish never came true.

Christmas that year,I received a Christmas card from you, I'm looking at it now. It looks simple, but I can't explain to you the joy I had when i received it. I was like jumping up and down. Lol. Then we started sending each other letters too which I'm also reading now.As i read them one by one , i felt my heart ache more,i don't know why.

Then we began talking again,its like a miracle . I could still remember how i rush back home from sch and stared at my phone waiting for you to call me.At that time i was more talkative, so we managed to talk alot. With all of that,I build up enough courage to ask you for your hand again.However when I saw your conversation with Stella,I was demoralised.I felt like an idiot.Thus ,I decided not to tell you anything and all.However ,Chong Hoe went to tell you every thing i guess,thus in the end.. it still went back to you rejecting me.

I remembered telling you this lame joke about my heart having the same fate as the goat's heart Annan(the bio teacher) was telling us to slice up.It was funny , how ever with every word i typed my heart felt like its being sliced, over and over again.

We stopped talking for awhile again after that. Then u were with laren u knew from the ice ring. Mm, I bet you didn't know that when u were all ice skating and all.I was rollerblading!I borrowed a pair of roller blades and i started to learn how to blade.I thought of this concept that roller blading is the same as ice skating. I am a slow learner thus i kept falling, but the each time i fell, the thought of me being able to join you all to ice skate made me not give up, until eventually... all of you stopped ice skating.

I guessed the both of you broke off eventually too, that is what i guessed though. I began to try to talk to you again, I've put in plenty of efforts to get into a conversation with you . One of the things i did was to harm a very good friend of mine,Jm. Remember that day i said i like Jm when she was at your house? I knew that you were all watching what i type,but i continued.I kinda want everyone to divert their attention to me and Jm rather then the both of us, In order for me to talk to you more comfortably. It was unfair for Jm, but we manged to talk again, didn't we?

Do you remember there was this time when we cycled together ? It lit a spark again and we began doing more tings together again. You told me you wanted to slim down, thus we began jogging .Every time you asked me to jog with you , i'ld jump into my pt kit no matter i am sick.. nt sick.. tired or not tired.. busy or not busy.. hurt or not hurt.. There was a time i jogged with you with a sprained ankle. I had a hard time hiding the pain how ever,i did all that as i wanted to go jog with you,I wanted to be with you.

MM, remember the promise that i won't eat sotong again ?? Tell you a secret,i broke the promise!On purpose !That day, jp, u and me, we went to have lunch at gr.I wanted to see if you still remember,thus i ordered sotong in my meal.Its something i haven't had for a long time, but i don't think u seemed to be bothered at all,thus i ate my sotong sadly.

Then I watched my first movie with you. Princess dairy 2. Hur hur, i've got to say that i didn't understand much of that show.In fact,I thought it was pretty lame actually.How ever , i didn't mind that as I get to watch a movie with you. km knows about me holding a torch for you,so i guess he purposely seated us together. I know you were pissed , but Km was persistent, sorry.

Then, it was finally prom night. You looked the best on that day from the other times i saw you during this 1241 days(1241x24=29784 hours,29784X60=1787040minutes,1787040x60=107222400 seconds). I kept stealing glances at you from my table till ct asked me why am I staring at him. There was a dedication to you then saying that he love you so much right? or something like that.. I was heart broken when i heard that,cause it was not dedicated by me.

At the chalet,What else can i say, so much happened. I did had the chance to express my feelings to you at that time actually, but ,i didn't.I was afraid that things wouldn't be the same after i told you how i feel. I'm filled with regret now.Jm hated me for that.Below is what i wanted to say during the chalet.

As you open the brown package,you'll find the letters and cards you've sent to me . I treated them as treasures before and now I am returning all of them back to you.


Now,i guessed, that is it.I wasted my chance, I hated myself for it. Words can't describe my feelings now, its such a joke, its the same person who broke the news to me.Great, You and him must be happy now, all those sweet talks and stuffs.

I shall not lie to myself why you wouldn't reply to my msges .

I should not lie to myself why you would suddenly become moody

I should not lie to myself why you won't talk with me on the phone the you and him did

I should not lie to myself that i can hide this all forever...

I should not feel motivated again to work cause I said that I am going to take care of you ...

I shall not lie that I could get closer to you by jogging with you ..

I shall not lie that by helping you , You would appreciate it..

I shall forget about all the tings that happened in the chalet for it seemed significant for you ...

I shall forget the times i walked with you to school..

I shall think that I deserved to be scolded by my boss and customers cause i rushed through work to make time for u ..

I shall not wait for you in the middle of the night and try to sneak out of the house just to go fetch u from work

I shall not be worried that u would be stalked..

I shall not think that you remember all the things we did together..

I shall think that all these are my own doings.. and I am to be blame for all that had happened during all this time that i did every ting for you ......

For the second time and the last time Calin..I cried for you(0038 hours GMT Singapore ). Sorry for making you go through all this.I don't want you to apologise nor show appreciation.The best present you gave to me this Christmas was the chance to sent you home, to your door steps,i don't expect anything more, all i want to say is , thank you for every thing.

J.c
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.:jooncheen Iced 12/21/2004 11:59:00 PM:.

ARGH!!!! I'm like editing and laughing my ass off in the middle of the night ar. Patrick complained that he can't be efficient in his work now. ARGH!!!Its so much better now as compared to the previous one la. Jeeze.... This is seriously good entertainment and good way to kill time and KILL EMONESS~!!!!! WKKAKAKAKA. Now , i'll start laughing at my sister and bro even more!Blardy Emo secondary school days ~

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

Chill kid .. Smile=)

Arh jeeze , i think i'm getting addicted to that quote esther gave me. Chill kid. Smile =) Its like every time i got pissed over sth that quote came into my mind. Thanks kid~ and.. Hmm, we shouldn't think too much eh.. haha.

So i went for a job interview at serrangoon broad way studio today, woots and woots , training starts next Friday. So cool ar, to be able to work at a photography studio. Thank god maybelline informed me ~~~~

I went to meet the guys for carl's just now. Jeeze, to think i just had some disagreements with them the night before and we're there laughing our ass of at fat asses again. They're the best la. We had quite some talk about the happenings and all, hmm I like what Ernest said to me..

"
so get settled down, casinova is fun on and off, but sometimes u just need a hug from a gal u know that will be there for u and willing to give u a hug as well"

That was exactly what he said , see i didn't even bother correcting his English. I love the way he reminded me that I still need to be loved . Trust me ern, I tried.

Was talking to Tw about how we should live our lives now and all.. Jeeze, fate seems like a bluff and all, something they use to bluff girls or sth, I don't use it though. I'm afraid i'll make god angry~ XD

So i learnt something new today, CROSS STITCHING!

Before i even started i forgot about the fact that i'm actually needle phobic..and that cross stitching involves needles. Jeeze, but ay, I did 50++ stitches though so , i'm numb now, I can take jabs now.

Then to the kind person who taught me how to count those minute holes and all , which almost made me blind, THANK YOU! I hope you like the card, you know you will.

Updates

Kk, i shall let my week be all black . K, ernest had to hear my rants.. thanks

So we played against Ka csc just now , ay , we lost, 3 sets straight again .. but zzz, i think I did my best. Ernest's brotehr was there again , as usual , attracting lots of attention. Ay, the world class referee shut me up.. AGAIN~...

Tsk.. 8-8-2007. Woots, 2 person's birthday . Happy birthday calin~ happy birthday Jun Feng~ I'm lazy so you both can read my wishes and use it for ur own..

I wish you a merry birthday ,I wish you a merry birthday ,I wish you a merry birthday ,I wish you a merry birthday ..and a happy new year~...Best wishes and good luck in every thing you and you dO~~~~~~~~~

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Jc please Focus and mind what you say...

I need to ...
Be cool and don't be rash..
Keep my focus in all situations..
Take things step by step..
Accept facts...
Period.

Nasty mode...

Think i'm became a full fledged jerk today.

I'm out to piss people off. Tsk, trust me , I seriously got irritated over the slightest thing today. Even when I lost the triple knock out level on ern's psp. Zzz, some kinda vein in my brain definitely grew bigger today, supplying more blood to the hate cels..

I'm sorry esther .. zzz, i felt bad to say all those stuffs about the da jie gang. ARgh... next time.. I'll be good... sorry....

Argh, stupid day.

Sunday, August 05, 2007

I can't love the person i hate....

You show me how to hate him.. you hated him...
I hate him for what he did to you...
I hate him for what he did to me...
I hate him for taking away what i have...
You showed hatred for him in front of me...
I played his role when he is gone...
I couldn't be a better person to them because i had to play his role..
I don't belong to any body now because of him..

Nobody knows my story..
Nobody understood how i felt..
I could've been happier..
I could've not hate so much...
Only hell understands my resentment....

Now.....

You want to put me in his foot steps..
You want me to show concern for him...
You want me to love him...

I'm telling you now..

I can't...

I can't love the person i hate..

I'm just a guy, I can't be extra ordinary..

I'm sorry.

Saturday, August 04, 2007

Saturday morning full of shit...

Jeeze.. its close to mid noon now and i'm having a bad hang over. It gets worse every time i have one, i wonder why... I'm still not exactly sober now ... so pardon the weird sentences...

Drank plenty yesterday, the four of us actually finished halve a bottle of absolute vodka. Its like drinking some donkey's pee at first , but oh well, its booze, what gives. I can't remember exactly what happened and i think i was really drunk and high and i started talking nonsensical stuffs to the girls. I think i'm not able to hold alcohol that well any more, damn ,ernest protect me next time we club or sth or i'll get rape..

Ok , we're playing that silly indian poker game again which i don't know why , i had lousy luck to start with so i kept losing and losing and gotto down plenty much of donkey's pee. It got pretty high and we started asking each other questions. I can't remember the questions already. I think by then , the J cockster in me had already taken over and i started being damn ridiculous and shet. I think i even asked some one to be my GF on the spot. I think.. was I asking Ct or Yh ar...

I dunno what time i got home and i think they sent me home which was really kind of them to do that thank you very much ...... else i'll be sleeping in the streets hur.. I've been sleeping in a sleeping bag for the past few days.. (my bed spoilt) and this time round i didnt even bother pulling out my sleeping bed , i just slap my face on the floor and blacked out.


and..

Thats how i woke up this morning on the floor , back ache, face ache, head ache ... with a bad hang over. Mum then came back with a bottle of ice wine ... she asked me whether i wanted some.... damn..

Thursday, August 02, 2007

I can't help but question your actions

So i've sent irene off to vancouver.. this time ,i made it a point to be there to see her off. Lots of hugs , cookies and photographs.. Jeeze.. We'll miss you SBF.


I played the men's open tournament yesterday, we played against a team which is known to be stronger then us. Yes , we lost. Losing is something common when you play vball, but tsk, i really question that man's approach to losing a tournament. Its demoralising and disturbing. I didn't like it.


I think maybe I'm being too particular. Hmm.


The more i thought about yesterday's match , the more pissed i beacme... Damn it.



Ah yes, Let me give credit to ... the small and handy dandy assistant who helped me through out the photo shooting session at the air port. Thanks~!

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Irene's leaving again

Arh jeeze, the sbf is leaving town to go back to Vancouver again. Shet thing, i just watched the Simpson's movie with her and the kid just now at lot 1. They were kind enough to follow me all the way to lot 1 , and to watch the same show again together with me. The Sesf had to make fun of my oriental hotel waiter suit like long sleeve shirt.


We chilled at Ya kun kaya toast for quite a while. The seats were square and were too small to fit my entire butt. I was commenting that if i were to take of my pants and look at the mirror after the chilling session, i'll have this red square tattooed on my ass. Then irene had to make my appetite go bad by offering her EGGS to me. After which , she offered me her BREAD as well. So much so for a menstrual cycle. Sheesh


We've chat about every thing, from the complains , to what happened before, to the daily happings.. Its been along time .. So many things changed la, after that chill session , which prolly will be the last with her for quite a long time, i realised i've left behind so much things..


I don't know why the thought of irene leaving gets me so emo. Jeeze, I guess i haven't got the chance to realise it all until our projects are all submitted today . I've been too busy and stuck up during project times to look out for whats around me. I think i'm not taking these changes maturely enough , like someone who still cry for something he lost. Like a loser. Sigh , I'll leave it as that and go emo mode now.