Jc's blog

I dun understand why, but i dun blame ... i know its difficult, i understand.

Today was quite a unsunny day.Went to siloso today...

Dangz woke up 7 in the morning to prepare the food manz... 2 hotdog sandwishes.. in the end. only the bois and angie eat only.. sianz..

It rained the whole day sial... wen we met it already was raining, den we boarded the bus first without km as he was late, due to my fault la.. forget to wake him up. Damn sucked.. The weather was so cold that calin and san li didnt went down to the water wif us.Mm, we played with sand for awhile den and finally all those who were reluctant to go into the water finnaly got wet.. heEh, temptation does work wonders..Km came awhile later.

TIme sorta dragged as we spent out bitter hours in the cold water.. The chill kinda penetrated our bones and we were shivering so much manz.. Then we got out of the water and settle at the shelter..Den yk came out wif tis weird idea of playing penalty shoot out.. hur hur.. i was like and idiot manz.. dunno how to handle the ball wif my legs.. but hehe, wen he suggested we used spiking instead of kicking.. hiak hiak.. he died.]

AFter tht work out.. i was feeling all pumped up for another go at the water there i am running into the water like an idiot hollering and jumping into the water... hehe, fun sial.. but alot of eyes looking at me..

Mm, we went off at 430 i tink.. dang.. they wanted to visit harbour front..

Mm, wen every ting sorta settle down and all.. i began tinking again, can say is fa bai ri meng.. Den suddenly, i tot of smth and i felt very dejected.. I shant say wat i tot here, but i hope tht for once my tots wud nt come true. Mm.. On the bus jie seated next to me.. i saw her face also like dejected liddat.. decide not to put too much pressure on her.. Was kinda pissed off at wat yh did wen she scolded km and st on the bus.. Its like, wen u make a crictism, knw that eyes are looking and u too and u make sure that wat u say dun reflect u in front of those eyes or wat've u said wud be empty words , i know she was angry also la.. most prob coz she's not been with us out often.. but tings weren't liddat before de lo.. every one would accomodate wif eacb other, every one could tolertate eachother.. but now.. i tink as time passes it brought distances in between ler bahz.But well i kept my cool and all, as i sorta understood why she did that bahz.

Then we went off to harbour front ler..dang, walk here walk there like idiots like tht.. den finnally settled at the food court. dang the tings there are damn exp lo.. ct was saying tht it is for extortion of the tourist's money. Hehe lame joke. But anyway... i sat infront of ct , and wen the rest went to buy their food i decide to have quick talk wid him. Hmm, he commented tht i could join media corps for acting as i am so good at it and its too good to be true. Dangz, wen he said tht , i remembered the word i told to yh at the siloso beach ,"he bi tong de na mer ming xian.." Aiya, i guess i am back to square one where i am wearing a mask again bahz. dAng i dunno manz... i dun wanna tink abt it.. i wan to break away from all tis.Mm , the best ting to do tht wud to occupy myself wif lots of tings to do bahz.. hehe, effective.

After eating we went to walk around habour front again den we decided to head home lo.. With me and yk going to lot 1 to buy his clothings and the gals going for bad.. Mm, dunno wat happened but i didnt feel like going after receiving a msg.. hehe. Ct and st and km went to gy house to watch the soccer match , tiger cup semi finals.. sg vs myanmmar.. Wah that match was ddamn good manz.. i went to join them after buying yk clothes wif him. We were like roaring and screaming and booing so loudly wen there was a goal.. I tink ct and km and me de reaction the biggest bahz..
we were like shouting so loudly lo.. hhehe. feel good after shouting sial..sg won 4-2 , the lions are roaring ler.. hehe.. the fact is.. we three are roaring..

WEnt str8 home after tht koz mum kbkb ler.. hehe

Tok to jie juz now.. alot of tings to tell her.. but i came down to only one ting bahz..she said tht she tot tht i was recovering ler.. mm, dunno bahz, its like after so much.. den now i like suddenly fang qi.. felt very difficult.. the amount of pain and sadness i had is so much....... I tink my jie know tht i wud rarely cry de even the adam khoo ting almost all the ppl cry i no cry ar... but now i actually cry for lin.. mm, shi qing zhen de bu xiao lehz...also dunno why.. now adays i tok wif her more and more comfortable ler.. i guess she also.. but i felt bad after yesterday wen km saw wat i was tokking wit her.. dui bu qi...Mm, now i wan to say ro ma de hua liao.. JIe, like wat i said yesterday, wen u nid someting to cry on.. i will be ur pillow.. wen u nid smth to hug.. i will be ur bolster... wen u nid smth to tok to.. i will be a voice recorder.. wen u are lost.. i will be ur light tower.. wen u nid a friend.. i will be juz me.. :D hehe.. Ro ma hor..

MM, dunno why, maybe now adays due to harsh weather and deficiency in food and much work and tinking tht resulted in me.. running a fever now.. Damn i tink i'm like wat pz said.. WEAK! , kept falling sick de.. I tink there is smth wrong wif my immune system , more prone to sickness den other ppl.. even my jie also stronger den me.. dang..