I nid help.

I know this is crazy but i nid the help...of blog peeps to go flat by flat at the block next to me to look for my dog.. I seriously hear the dog barking for the past few days.. so I'll nid to go flat by flat block by block to go look for it. But i can't do it alone.. PLZ!!! i nid help.

Tml if possible !! contact me on my cell 90214103.. to enlist.. UR HELP WOULD BE VERY MUCH APPRECIATED!!!

Hate Tears Pain Jealousy Greed creed

Perharps i've been a jerk too much recently. Yes.. Indeed I am one. NOT recently.. always.


Sorry if i made any one's day bad.. really... i meant it.

Beng is lost. no news for him. worried and sad i am.. hating myself too. Deeep inside i'm selfish. I always wanted things for myself. I'm an ass. Trully. I never tot for others. I want tings greedily... for myself. I want beng to be there when i'm sad.... I want attention .. I want People to acknowledge my existence. I want all of this. Every ting i wanted .. i want it for myself.. nvr giving....always receiving.


I'ld complain i'm alone.. when there is so many ppl out there feeling alone too. I'ld complain i'm alone when i'm the one who wants to be left alone. I want to show care and concern... only to want to accept it back.I'm a parasite to man kind.. defect of god's creation.


Who i am hates who i've been... -relient K

Beng come home..

WHere are you boy? Why aren't u beside me now? U'ld always stayed beside me when i'm using the com.. Why aren't you here now? Where are you? PLease come home...


I'll let you have part of my bed if u come back boy.. U'ld used to fight with me for the bed during bed time. Without u around.. no one is there to fight with me for the bed. Come home beng..

You''re always there when the whole world turn its back on me.. but now... u aren't there.. nobody is there for me.. I nid u beng.. come home..

U'ld always wake me up from my sleep at 9 , without u , i can't wake up.. and i find it so hard to fall asleep.. beng come home...

I promise to buy lotsa dog treats for you when you come home beng.. plz come home.

Don't leeave me hanging on the thread alone boy..your my cure from this ilitious world..come home now beng..

Please beng.. i beg of u .. come home...

Dear blog peeps, i nid alittle bit of ur help now .... dearly.... I've lost my dog... Ah beng, on a thursday morning on march 02 . If any one of you guys spot it .. any where.. PLZ!!!! contact me!.. The family really misses the dog dearly.. SO plz.. Help by contacting me either way.. on msn via Junchin02@hotmail.com .. my email.. 90214103..my cell...THanks alot!...

Heres a picture of him..

Food for thought- Is it more embarressing to fart in the public or to burp in the cinema or to walk with ur fly open in the mall??


Hmm, ROT my day away today.-_- Ay naruto 167.... bleach 70...


So i've been wondering.. what am i gonna do during the break. WOrk? i can't find one. PLay? with who? Chalet? we can't find any common time together.. ay... i guess i'll be serisouly rotting away my holidays too~ Aw crap.. but i'm sure looking forward to my birthday!!! lol, ay.. this is not a reminder.. i'm not trying to tell u guys that my birthday is on the 17th..i'm not trying to hint to u guys that i want presents... i'm not doing anything of the above mentioned.. seriously~...-_^

YAY! 3 down 1 to go..

Ay , so... stress level reduced by 75%... left with Java.. Ay, i dont wanna tok abuot it >_<.... I had my Managament and organisations behaviour examstoday.. Mob for short.. Ay, think i'm so gonna not do well for that paper.. Dreads~ Well, its over now i guess , went to town.. to eat. Ay, pepper lunch...I think i need to work on my japanese pronounciation more. Ko ni chi wA! Omaiwa ~! ay crap, i also nid to work on some language skills too.. with dinner over , we went for pool.. after which we went to be posers. Lol, I wanted to start a gang fight with my tie!!!! Crap. Went to esplanade.. there was this really cool gig there.. Damn, the vocalist damn natural~ ay.. After that we went to the did some photo shots. ay, posers we are.. a group of korean tourists actually approached us to look at our great "art work" .. lol pretty cool, i starrted tokking to them with my japanese accnet and greeted one of them wtih the AN nyeong haseyo.. lol, its a good ting i learnt korean from hazel.. lol, it promotes that i'm a internationally friendly person LOL.. ay , crap... i'll end here.. with a pic of us , the pee dudes.

Alrite heres to all the coffee lovers out there...

Orite, After sometime off , its time i did some decent blogging .. AM having my exams now. Stressed Mode.... Any way , In this post , i'ld like to review this blend of coffee by nescafe,its called the blend 37 ,Cup of character.


I was just doing my groceries for my grand ma when i realised that we're running outta COFFEE~.. So , i went over to the dried goods sections and there it was.. In a dark , gothic yet attractive Bottle..OUt of curiosity , i grab a bottle and turn to its back and looked. There this interesting read abuot this man who survived in a ship wreck and lived on coffee for 37 years. The astonishing news break through recently and its said that nescafe wanted to make a debute out off this extraordinary man , thus Voila... the blend 37 was created ,re enacting the 37 years the man spent on his salvage.

I looked at the gold blend , i've normally drink.. and look at blend 37 again and instinctly... i looked at the priced.. a dollar difference. Lifted a brow -_^ .. Well, its not too bad to spend another dollar for something new i thought. Thus , in goes blend 37 into the shopping cart.

As soon as i dropped my groceries in the kitchen, i scourge for that bottle of my precious. Twisted the bottle cap, peeled off the protective Layer.. Ay, protective layer.. doesn't that sound risque... Lol. I tooked up my mug , my spoon , dunk the spoon into the bottle of precious.. scooped a spoonful outta the bottle. Grab my creamer, my brown sugar... did some chemical reaction.. ta da... the wonderful cup brown liquid is finished!!!! MUahahahahaha... -_-


Ay, took my virgin sip for the new blend..Ay, more then i anticipated. It was a whole new taste~! That gingerly sour taste from gold blend... was taken over by a more robust.. mild bitterness. The aroma of the coffee is amazing as it spreads to every corners of ur mouth. So much so that u could actually smell the coffee while its in ur mouth. NIce~ For that 1 dollar difference.. its worth it >_<\/


Right , so if any of you guys run out of coffee at home, do remember this post of mine and go try Blend 37 out ~..

Ay , wats better then watching Movie parodies after a tough day at school? Lol , snugggle up and chill peeps and enjoy the parodies laughs after laughs..

Star wars MTV?

She scurries to the toilet... locks the door urgently and reached out for the side cupboard . From the highest level, cleverly concealed was a packet to marlboro lights. 1,2,3....8 she counted. Gingerly , she pulled out one stalk and stroke a match.Her heart pounded rapidly as her stalk of ciggarrette is being lit. Suddenly , the door burst open and her mother grab her hard on her wrist.. forcing and pulling her out of the toilet. Shocked she was.. vindicated she tot she is.

"What on earth do u think u are doing?? "Her mum screamed...

"What...."She protested... her trade mark uncouth style of replying to her mum...

"I'm going to bring u to the police, have u any sane idea what u are doing? Do u care about how i felt when i see u doing things lie this" her mum sobbed, pulling her to the livnig room hard on her wrists.

Then her brother heard the commotion and walked to the living room from his bed room only shocked to see his mum holding a packet of ciggarrette on her hands.

"Look at her! Look at ur sister , look at what she has done ... nvr in my life i've expected her to be so bad."Cried his mother , tears flowing down her sunken cheeks.

Shes been sufferring... with the stress from her work and as being the sole bread winner of the house. Their dad , do occassionally comes back once in a blue moon. Other then that , it had always been their mum looking after the three children. A cancer survivor , the only thing that motivates her into such a drive is to see her children grow up to be fine adults .

Her brother , dazed by the sight of the ciggarretes, his mind distorted on what he is going to do next . Straight away he sat down on the couch while listen to his mother rant at his sister.

She stared , eyes filled with deep hatred at her mother.. in her heart she felt that she was correct , because it was THEM ! who made her smoke, THEM who put her into such a sorry state, THEM! . its their fault! NOT HERS!....

Exhausted from the ranting , her mum felt faint and collasped onto the chair nearest to her.

"MOVE" that word flashed in his brother's mind for a second... jolting him up from the couch..

"Why must u make mummy cry... Why must u hurt the hearts of ppl who cared for u ?"Bellowed his brother.

"Why must u smoke? WHy must u do with ciggarrettes? "

"Do u think its cool ? I'll answered that question for u , Its absoulutely not."

"Can't u see that ur are beign used by ur friends? I understand that u felt that ur friends are the closest ppl to u and u would do what ever it takes to help them, but have it ever crossed ur mind whether what u do is correct or not. Will it hurt the hearts of PPl who care for u ? "

"True friends won't land u into such a sorry state as u are now! LOok at U, 3 years back before u came into this school u aint like that! you were just like any other ordinary fine gurls out tat.. Look how u've stained urself with ciggarrettes and vulgarities, LOok at the god damn mirror and see for urself how UGLY u've turn to.. Ugly!"Her brother rapped those words out from the bottom of his heart..

Silence.. and that cold stare... was all the response she had.. deep in her heart she was fighting... That devil ... I didnt do anything wrong...


Hot bead of tears rolled down his cheeks... he sobbed...

"When i look at u.. i can only see my self as a brother who have failed... to guide his little sister on the correct path..When papa left us, i know u felt sad, but then u were still young me too.. all i can do is to cry with u .. marcus is luckier he didnt know how it really felt then..."his words trembled with his emotions.."Do u know how i wished u didnt went to the same school as i am?My grades then suck... i wanted u to get better grades then me... i wanted u to go to a better school..its ok if u didnt did well for u studieds, but i ddint expect u to turn bad as well..I didnt wanted all this to happen...but looking at the ciggarrettes now , i feel helpless and i can only cry for u .... "

"Please dont smoke.. become a better person... if u are still there... Know that what u've done is wrong.. and correct it.. IF u still nid help, me and mummy will be still here to help.. even if the whole world turn their back on u .. ur kins wont. Becos its in our blood... so plz... become a better person and let this be the last time ..."Pleaded her brother, discarding all pride resorting to pleadings...

Akwardly.. she nodded her head and proceeds to the sink to wash her face...

Extreme Make over in progress... Make over of the day.. Ernest a.k.a ern.. but knwn as the ern meinster for today..

Orite, its the Ern-meinster B-day now. We celebrated his b-day yesterday and , we , the extreme make over team ... was kind enuff to give the ern-meinster the make over he deserved as a birthday gift. Dun say yor nigga daddy aint treating his little sonny good enuff yo dawg.. your hear? Lol..


Well.. we went to far east to actually have his hair rebonded. Ice rebonding i think , and i've learnt quite alot about rebonding today. We went to this cool saloon on the 4th floor i supposed. 04-21 of far east shopping center. We were greeted by a friendly guy named ??? . Ern was then ushered to a seat nearest to the door and the long gruelling yet worth waiting for wait started. First it was the applying of some cream which looks like mayoinnesse(i'm pretty sure i got the spelling wrong..)to me.


Then after awhile it was the alien ball on the head.. And then a wash.. then the ironing... Ay, the whole processed took like some 3 hours and 30 mins.. -_- me zj and boon practically covered the whole of far east ... leaving no one square feet spared.Then the finaly moment came when ern revealed his new hair style.. His girl friends were like going OMG OMG OMG OMG looks like some small boy or sth...I tot it look like the korean actor from the movie my sassy gurl friend.. when i interviewed ern whether he was satisfied with the hair style,he replied and definite and positive yes without any hesitation. So it was a job well done for the extreme make over team... Till the next episode stay tune ^_^..


Right , dinner was on erns at marche. Crap i think that Rostli thing... and that enormous sausage.. Was damn filling.. Looks can be deceiving..


It was some pretty nice stuff at first..but to keep on eating that.. I couldnt help but turned Green. Till now the taste of burnt potatoes still resides in a corner of my mouth tingling with my taste buds.

Went for pool after dinner.. Ay.. there is definately lotsa ppl today at town. And omg , the posers.. with the extreme street wears weren't the minority, on the contrary we were overwhelmed by ppl with extreme dress codes. They practically swarmed around in large packs. So much so that i tot the singapore Idol auditions was held at town. O_o


Well maybe i'm a toad, or rather.. a frog in the well..~

We bid ern and his friend.. his brother and another gurl gd bye as me zj and boon went home first. Well.. that concludes the day.. happy birthday ern!

YAy!! new blog scheme again..

This one really perks my day up.. Bright colour.. easy to read words.. hiack.. User friendly too.. ay i just love the sun..~!

Orite, 3 days... since i've blog i shall rant on with no mercy..

Valentines day was cool.... avoiding and playing pool. Hiack. Ay i wished i would have a date though but hiack.. Like Rock lee from naruto always say.. we are still young we are full of dreams with our ne ver ending YOUTH! *thumbs up with the good guy smile*.

Integrity

On that day i found an o2 xda phone. Not say i found.. calvin saw and i picked it up. We then gave it to the reception corner to report loss..

I then heard from zhi jian and ernest that the phone cost alot they were rambling about how "Kam gong " i am to give the phone back. Then i questioend my self of upholding my integrity; how many ppl out there would still up hold their integrity after being tempted by such valuables. Hmm, i've gotto admit it.. my integrity then wasa wavered under ernest's and zhi jians propagande! Ay ,after all.. there must still be bad ppl to allow us GOOD samaritians to stand out. *>_< ern and zj~! Lol

Good news for me as i managed to swim 30 laps alraedy.. yesterday... how ever... there were intervals la.. and i couldnt help it at the 20th lap to go abck using free style becoz my calf muscles kinda got too strained ~ but ay.. i'm swimming well liao orite.. Lol. Went to seoul to celebrate calvin's birthday. The dog is seriously obedient.. unlike the beast beside me now.. had pool for awhile at fusion and went home after ern's halve a treat at Tcc.

Ay, today had vball not much happenings.. rained though.. heavily.. ay..

Well .. tats about all for the update!

Dear blog readers, its valentines tml.. heres a lil something i've done to embrace the occassion..hah, i shall post smth joyous in de conjuntion of the series of sad happenings for me.here goes...


The History of Saint Valentine's Day

Valentine's Day started in the time of the Roman Empire. In ancient Rome, February 14th was a holiday to honour Juno. Juno was the Queen of the Roman Gods and Goddesses. The Romans also knew her as the Goddess of women and marriage. The following day, February 15th, began the Feast of Lupercalia.

The lives of young boys and girls were strictly separate. However, one of the customs of the young people was name drawing. On the eve of the festival of Lupercalia the names of Roman girls were written on slips of paper and placed into jars. Each young man would draw a girl's name from the jar and would then be partners for the duration of the festival with the girl whom he chose. Sometimes the pairing of the children lasted an entire year, and often, they would fall in love and would later marry.

Under the rule of Emperor Claudius II Rome was involved in many bloody and unpopular campaigns. Claudius the Cruel was having a difficult time getting soldiers to join his military leagues. He believed that the reason was that roman men did not want to leave their loves or families. As a result, Claudius cancelled all marriages and engagements in Rome. The good Saint Valentine was a priest at Rome in the days of Claudius II. He and Saint Marius aided the Christian martyrs and secretly married couples, and for this kind deed Saint Valentine was apprehended and dragged before the Prefect of Rome, who condemned him to be beaten to death with clubs and to have his head cut off.
Here is a story of saint valentines in his prison cell...


Folds of sun light creeped through the square window, no larger then the size of one's palm. There he laid, ontop of the mass of dried hay as a rudimentary bedding where his body rested.

"Father.. wake up.. I've brought something for you...."a thin voice echoed through the wallows ..

A plate of scrimped food was shoved into the prison cell via the gap between the floor and the wooden door.

"good morning Julia, how are u today?"Croaked Saint Valentine, had he not hydrated more .. he's lucky to only have a dry throat.. had he had any little more hydration... he would have just died.

"valentinus... does God really hear our prayers?" Julia asked from the other side of the door.


"Yes, my child, He hears each one."



"Do you know what I pray for every morning and every night? I pray that I might see. I want so much to see everything you've told me about!I want to love and be together with the man i love.... " Julia continued


"God does what is best for us if we will only believe in Him," Valentinus said.


"Yes, i have my faith in god and belive in him with all my might."Julia cried, tears flowing down her cheeks as she hold saint valentines hand...

"Praise be to god' he said..

On the eve of his death Valentinus wrote a last note to Julia, urging her to stay close to God. He signed it, "From your Valentine."



He suffered martyrdom on the 14th day of February, about the year 270. At that time it was the custom in Rome, a very ancient custom, indeed, to celebrate in the month of February the Lupercalia, feasts in honour of a heathen god. On these occasions, amidst a variety of pagan ceremonies, the names of young women were placed in a box, from which they were drawn by the men as chance directed.


The pastors of the early Christian Church in Rome endeavoured to do away with the pagan element in these feasts by substituting the names of saints for those of maidens. And as the Lupercalia began about the middle of February, the pastors appear to have chosen Saint Valentine's Day for the celebration of this new feaSt. So it seems that the custom of young men choosing maidens for valentines, or saints as patrons for the coming year, arose in this way.


So,ay love birds.. do what u must do.. singles don't fret.. ur not alone.. hiack.. perharps u could ask me out tml? no gays pls.. Lol

YAY THE POST IS TAKEN DOWN? but has the saga ended? no.

Be it me being benevolent.. be it me having a great mood now.. i decide to take that post down. I shall not accumulate more bad karma in me , but hEy if any one is interested in reading it.. I'll send it to u . To the person who know who he/she is, this is not done for u ... And yes, i've asked ur friends and they've showed no doubts on what they've heard and there is not misintepretation. sad i would be, i won't make myself sadder by creating more sad ppl. U mentioned about me flaming u on my blog... on irrelevant stuffs.. i'm not sure how relevant is the content of the post is now.. but Hey again, contradict it with what ever explanations u want orite. I'm sure u'll pushed all the blame for what ever u've done to some one else or some other stuffs.. We wanted to helped u, as friends.. but u 've said u dont want friends or rather.. U DONT NEED friends who help.


Nostalgic when ever i sit on the bus and pass by star bucks i would be... re affirmed that I'm a redundant existence in ur life... jaded

Taken from one of those interesting "emails" that I received,take ur time off, have a sip of ur favourite beverage, snuggle into ur work chair and enjoy ...



When you occasionally have a really bad day, and you just need to take it out on someone, don't take it out on someone you know -- take it out on someone you don't know.

I was sitting at my desk when I remembered a phone call I had forgotten to make. I found the number and dialed it.

A man answered, saying, "Hello."

I politely said, "Could I please speak with Robin Carter?"

Suddenly, the phone was slammed down on me. I couldn't believe that anyone could be so rude. I realized I had called the wrong number. I tracked down Robin's correct number and called her. I had accidentally transposed the last two digits of her phone number. After hanging up with her, I decided to call the 'wrong' number again.

When the same guy answered the phone, I yelled, "You're an arsehole!" and hung up. I wrote his number down with the word 'arsehole' next to it, and put it in my desk drawer.

Every couple of weeks, when I was paying bills or had a really bad day, I'd call him up and yell, "You're an arsehole!" It always cheered me up.

When Caller ID came to our area, I thought my therapeutic 'arsehole' calling would have to stop. So, I called his number and said, "Hi,this is John Smith from the Telephone Company. I'm just calling to see if you're familiar with the Caller ID program?"

He yelled, "NO!" and slammed the phone down.

I quickly called him back and said, "That's because you're an arsehole!"

One day I was at the store, getting ready to pull into a parking spot. Some guy in a black BMW cut me off and pulled into the spot I had patiently waited for. I hit the horn and yelled that I had been waiting for that spot. The idiot ignored me. I noticed a "For Sale" sign in his car window, so, I wrote down his number.

A couple of days later, right after calling the first ******* ( I had his number on speed dial), I thought I had better call the BMW *******, too.

I said, "Is this the man with the black BMW for sale?"

"Yes, it is."

"Can you tell me where I can see it?"

"Yes, I live at 1802 West 34th Street. It's a yellow house, and the car's parked right out in front."

"What's your name?" I asked.

"My name is Don Hansen," he said.

"When's a good time to catch you, Don?"

"I'm home every evening after five."

"Listen, Don, can I tell you something?"

"Yes?"

"Don, you're an arsehole."

Then I hung up, and added his number to my speed dial, too. Now,when I had a problem, I had two arseholes to call.

But after several months of calling them, it wasn't as enjoyable as it used to be. So, I came up with an idea. I called arsehole #1.

"Hello."

"You're an arsehole!" (But I didn't hang up.)

"Are you still there?" he asked.

"Yeah," I said.

"Stop calling me," he screamed.

"Make me," I said.

"Who are you?" he asked.

"My name is Don Hansen."

"Yeah? Where do you live?"

"*******, I live at 1802 West 34th Street, a yellow house, with my black Beamer parked in front"

He said, "I'm coming over right now, Don. And you had better start saying your prayers."

I said, "Yeah, like I'm really scared, *******."

Then I called ******* #2.

"Hello?" he said.

"Hello, arsehole," I said.

He yelled, "If I ever find out who you are...!"

"You'll what?" I said.

"I'll kick your ass," he exclaimed.

I answered, "Well, arsehole, here's your chance. I'm coming over right now."

Then I hung up and immediately called the police, saying that I lived at 1802 West 34th Street, and that I was on my way over there to kill my gay lover. Then I called Channel 13 News about the gang war going down on West 34th Street. I quickly got into my car and headed over to 34th street. When I got there, I saw two *******s beating the crap out of each other in front of six squad cars, a police helicopter, and the channel 13 news crew.





NOW, I feel better - This is "Anger Management" at its very best

Caution to blog readers who have really weak hearts..dont proceed reading on.



We are holding on to hope, becoz death is so unpresaged... Death is immnent when we lost hope.


It only takes a few seconds to fall from that high storey.. Through out this few seconds.. u began to think about ur life.. what have u been doing.. Memories flashed in ur mind . By the time u start to regret it , u've hit the group. Head first, followed by the rest of the body. U saw ur body, the shell which contained u. U saw how multilated it would be, bits of brain tissues spilling outta ur skull, deformed jaw, eye balls forcefully erected outta ur sockets , a twistem arm, indented rib cage. Its unsightly, even for ur self, how would ur family members felt.


Escaping .. is always the best way out.. NOT . We tend to perceive that giving up is the easiest way out, It may seemed so for some, how ever on the contrary, u'ld actually lose more.Ur loved ones, ur kins, ur family, ur friends... we are all holding on to the hope together. Pulling each other.. through thick and thin. Love might seemed to be illusive but look at how prominent, the tears of the people who loved u flowed. Killing ur self.. ain't gonna help the fact that u've let urself and the ppl whom loved u down.. It only aggravate it.


I feel sorry for the children and the widow.. May thy hold on to hope and continue living strong.


To all blog readers, hold on to hope.. Live ur days to the fullest....

Orite , Dedicating this song to all the heart breakers.. Ay, u know who u are.. lol.

The heart breaker song~


20days,since i've heard from u..
I tried to call, but there isnt any use..
so i've been wondering, whats with us..
So i've been worrying , If then meant last..
I wished my valentines to be with u,
With the movies and kisses~.


Girl Tell me the things i've done..
This isnt any fun..
Could u talk to me...
Just even for this once..
I nid u by my side... or i couldn't live through one night ...
I want u next to me, never leaving me.


waking up is so tough, and sleeping is just so hard
The streets that we've once walk, the beggar at the side walk.
I couldnt help my feelings, just sinking down my heart.


Girl Tell me the things i've done..
This isnt any fun..
Could u talk to me...
Just even for this once..
I nid u by my side... or i couldn't live through one night ...
I want u next to me, never leaving me.

Talk to me.. Just even for this once..
Be next to me.. or i couldnt live the night..
Girl please dont leave me....

Jc company: Control station this is Jc company plz respond

Control Station: Roger Jc company, crystal.

Jc company:Requesting back up.

Control Station: Report status and current coordinates.

Jc Company: Heading north west 200,401 love river, currently melting in it.

Control Station: Wth, Jc company , Please re affirm location and situation

Jc company : Code red ,Code Red , we request immediate back up~ WE're going down.

Control Station: Jc company , help re inforcements are current setting off to the coordinates u've specified , do u copy.

Jc company: MAY DAY~ MAY DAY... We're going down.. the s..ii.......t...d....own..... *BSSSSSSHHHH>>>.

Control Station: we've got a situation.

*plays Sugar we're going down by fall out boy*

La la la

Rite, woke up in the middle of day and night ,limp to the toilet, jumped around as soon as cold water touches my skin and knock my head on the sink~. Right, jump into my jumpers, pat the dog ,open the gate and close it, and sets off to the lrt station.

Hum the tune for the song i've wrote last week, stared at the person who close the lift door on me. Stand sleeping on the lrt. Droop saliva on the way. Woke up at Cck station, met calin. Took mrt , saw jm, look look see, stand sleeping some more. Change train, sit sleeping on the other train. No saliva drooped. Hate the sun~ hate the foreign girl beside me.. most prollly jap.. which kept moving closer to me. Found myself a new seat, sat sleep. Change train, sat sleep.

Reach changi, walk sleep. Drew 10 bucks from the machine erected from the wall. Ordered Big mac. Drank Orange water.Took too much sodium nitrate on the harsh brown. Drank calin's coffee. Top up more coffee. Two packs creamer.. two packs sugar, like old times. Met calin's bf. Saw a mutated table cloth on the way to sent jp off. Found out that mutated table cloth is jp. Took pics. Saw Jp off. sat sky train. Sat MRt, change mrt. Start reminescing old times with calin's bf. Felt nostalgic on 960.

Reach home. Watch pokemon. Decides its too boring. watch some anime. watch mask rider. on com, do project. call km. Call some more. call ct. do project. call km. call some more. Call km home. went sheng siong, Bought the nose sticker. Did groceries. Went up stairs to take lrt.Went into the station. Tap the card. Look at the schedule for the next train. 1.20p.m. It was 1. Tap the card again. Took lift. Flag 190. Alight from bus. Hum . Reach home. Rant at bro. Starts using the nose sticker. Decides one isnt enuff so went on to use two. Carried on with project. CAlled km, ask him to go temple.

Met ct and km at liv 2 eat. Went to the temple. Enquired uncle at temple on how to bai tai sui. Uncle explained in un comprehensible language. Km translated. Found out that we nid 6 mandarine oranges. Rush of to buy. bought. came back. Uncle said we nid rice vermicilli and dried longans. Scourge the whole of bangkit for the holy items~. FOund them. Owed km money. Went back temple. Donate money. Burn candles and joss stick. Look at ct and follow what he is doing. Apparently, he is doing the same thing too. Followed the guy infront of us. toured around the vicinity of the temple.I got three more joss sticks left after the entire walk through.stick it to the nearest urn . went to grab the joss paper. Was told to do an hooking action from head to toe with the bundle of papers.Stun for a moment , intepreting what the person just asked us to do.Looked at ct for clues. couldnt find any. Starts trying out. Kept going. Held my breath as i didnt wanted to laugh. Finished with the action. Burnt paper. Tok under block . decides not to do sit ups today after laughing too much at ct.

Reach home. Cook dinner. eat.Ate. watch home ward bound while completing project. Complete project. disturb dog. starts to blog. end blogging.

Rudimentary Socialing ethics ... I doubt theres any known existence...

Hmm, Part and parcel of life. Departures, ppl come and ppl go.Cries joy saddness and happiness, shared and wasted. Perharps Whats left are kept in the back of our brain and over whelmed by other foreign intervene... Well, most prolly hatred?

What ever it is.. I've learnt that this iis one of the things that is totally out of our control , like it or not.. I've gave up on pursuing any furthur and succumed my self to the destiny beyond. well, not that its any bad though, i'm sure every one will live well and all.. happily... I'm sure..i belive that when one is done with his work or her work.. they'ld live for the benefit of not causing obstructions to any activities too.

HAh, that tinge of melachony..

Right snap back to reality..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IRENE!!!!!

Orite,today's irene birthday... didnt really celebrated.. but ay , i think the present shud be cool~


Right, today is the first time i saw the maths lecturer so angry.. ay , and the way she throw her tantrum, gives me nostalgic feeling of my previous maths teacher in my previous school. Well, perharps that an adoptable behaviour?


Right after school, went back to school for vball. Crap, the old birds all wore the CSC jersey except for me wit the pt Tee. Odd one out again, but well, in due time.. zheng hua alumni team will be diversified.. with the ppl playing for zhenghua csc and bukit panjang csc differentiated. I'll be in bukit panjang Csc.. first time playing for a foreign team.

After vball ,met km at the school's canteen after that went to buy some ice cream and then went to calin's house for JP's pot luck. Lotsa food.. very cosy feeling i shud say... hmm.. wat else?

Right.. gonna fix my com up, conclude here.

Happier chinese new year dudes and dudettes~!


Ay, crap, this is supposed to be posted 3 days back but, ay .. i counted on sincerity.. Lol, now, aint that pseudo typing~.


Right, ever wondererd what makes chinese new year so wonderful ? Well, i think Cny is so great becoz i get to see ppl whom i've not seen for a year and~ its a fashion parade though i'm much more interested with the food. Ay, man, that temptation had to stop.. I'm having a sore throat already.. Peeps, eat away happily but watch the limit eh~


Ay, did i mentioned gambling.. omg , Km won so much weed from Jm;s house yesterday... ay, LUCKILY~ i choose to be his stock holder.. Lol.. and i just sit there and hope..... very hard that he gets good card.. which he indeed did.


So much so for investing in talents like him.. ay , Peeps, u guys ought to catch the fire works for CnY next year sial... The fire cracker is just too spectacular.. it went pilipialak pilipialak for like a minute , ay, make it a deafening 1 minute. Ay, not to forget.. the crowd.. OMg,over whelming.. even the cisco traffic police can't hold their post. The whole atmosphere at china town during Cny's eve can be summed up with only one word. Terrific~


Orite..Signing off now.. hope u peeps enjoy Ur festive seasons and had fun .. Best wishes for the rest of this year peepS~!

So slow,these times are passing..There is just so much crying..

Why can't i learn to make it stop,will it ever even stop.

Children.. have been crying.. Underneath their blankets trembling
Theres no Stop to this shet, When ever will they learn...


here they go... Quarelling again, theres just so much of the pain
Why can't we, just keep loving..
Why must it end up like this..

I can't ,help it , i couldn't live tommorrow.
I need ,some one out there, to take me far away...

Here they go ... Quarelling again,
theres just, so much of the pain
Why can't we, just keep loving.. Why must it end up like this..
tell me why.. tell me why..... tell me why... oh lord tell me why.....

Here they go ... Quarelling again, Quarelling again, theres just, so much pain
Why can't we, just keep loving..
Why must it end up like this..
why must it end up like this....

The marathon...

Orite, went to bt this morning.. with Zhi hong.. apparently a noob. First time at bt, alot of things he'ld need to catch up on. How ever... did manage to tok to that french guy riding on the Giant Mcm carbon 1997 frame . He said he'ld be joining the race too.. great.. i wont be that lonely on race day liao. Zhu jia also was thinking of joining the Ss races.. ay, but kinda ps him today... coz gotto go off early to baby sit my bro.. coz there would be some one to deliver the shoe shelve.. ~

AFter it came.. went to meet km to go to far east. Ay, for Cny clothes.. this is only the season where i've the mood to do shopping , coz i've nid to .. Any way.. Its only till today tht i have to agree that Far east sells stuff at higher price~ for majority of their stuffs.. lucky me i didnt got my stuffs there.. i actually save quite a sum for that pair of cargo pants where i bought else where. So we gave up on Far east and decide to go to wisma atrium. Then km suggested we buy cheap pants from giodarno or sth... so we.. being cheap.. went into the giodarno shop. To be so so dissapointed.. the pair of denims is going for 69 bucks.. the rain voiced our sorrows then.. Lol.We then decided to walk to heeren. The place was pretty nice and all.. new stuffs every where.. but ay, sian la.... the designs are not worth the price we thought.. so we ultimately....... decided to walk to bugis.. Ay, this might be one small step for some of u here.. but its one big leap for us ... we've cover so much mileage before while doing shopping.... at least for me.. and the rain only made it worst.. we got to bugis .. got my cargo pants... and then while we were still at parco... ws called for us to go to woodlands.. ay... So we travelled from bugis to woodlands.. but the bus we were on cranked out on the way.. so we took the next bus and meet ws at bp plaza.. before taking a cab down to woodlands. It was nostalgic at woodlands ... because i remember dad used to bring me there often to pay for the fines and car park bills..but ay, it was more shopping and we were walking more. no words could describe the fatigue we had then... Stuffs there are pretty cheap, but i warn u... u gotto really compare the prices there in between the shops.. becoz they vary alot. There was this instance where a uncle quote a price of 35 bucks for the pair of pants ws wanted to buy and the uncle said that no one else in this whole area would selll that pair of pants cheaper then he does.. if there is, he'll repay that amount of money and give ws the jeans , but ws said he saw cheaper ones at the other shops furthur down.The uncle arrogantly insist that he has the best price , so.... ws bought exactly the same pair of pants for 30 bucks at the other shop we were at and he went back to the shop and showed the uncle the pair of pants... ay, he was speechless indeed. Lesson learnt, nvr tok bigger then the size of ur brain~.. well well, we had prata for dinner and that concluded our fruitful day ...

Projects , due schedules, monitor screens, key boards..working every day, playing lesser then what i gain..

Ay, sian sehz. Something is going wrong some where in this dreaded life of mine .Lets put it this way,

___________________________________________________________________________________

import Javax.swing.JOptionPane

class mylife{
Public static void main(String[]args){

int work;
int dealines;
int play=Integer.Parseint(JOptionPane.showinputdialog("Enter your play time"));
while
If (play!==int ) {

JOptionPane.showmessagedialog(null,"Knn, enter properly la~")
do play=Integer.Parseint(JOptionPane.showinputdialog("Enter your play time"));}
else
System.out.println("This is Jc's play time :" + play);

for (work=0;work2){
(work*4)
}
else(work*2)
}

if (work>10){
System.out.println("Jc is working more than 10 hours a day..this is his work time :"+work);
}
else
System.out.println();

for (int friends=0;friends
System.out.println("Jc nids this amount of time with friends="+friends);

if (friends.length!=="alot")
System.outprintln("this is so saddening... haiz");

System.out.exit(0);
}
}

ay, java codes..

The Abc Song About You!!!!!!

A you're adorable ,
B your're so beautiful,
C your're the Colours in my life~~

D you're so dear to me ,
E you're everything,
F you're the Finest Gurl i've need..

G your so Good to me,
H U make me happy,
I Just want to be with you~~


J you put joy in me,
K you Keep me company,
L i'm loving you only..


M you make Merry...
N you're NICE to me,
O my gurl ,please dont leave me~

P you're my pretty,
Q you make me queesy,
R you're so right in time for me..

S you're the strength i need,
T you're There for me
U my gurl is what i need~

V you're my valentine
W I'll wait for you,
X I'll be with you for xmas~

Y You are the best in me
Z I cant think of any words already~

Now i've completed my abcs,
i just wanna say to you,
Your every thing to......... me....eeee....

A couple of thanks and a few sorries

Orite, been away for some time already.. Omg.. i even needed pz to help me do a post up.. THKS FOR THAT!Thanks for zhnging my blog also.. its so swee now alraedy... wo hen xie xie ni... AY, some of u might have heard about me joining super band or sth.. and some gave me support and all.. THANKS TO U GUYS TOO!!!!...but sorry too...

We found out yesterday that there were quite alot of stuffs that we were not prepared for for the audition.. the rule that requires two songs to be performed hit us the most i think... at least for me.Already i was quite unprepared with this one song of ours already.... and we found out that we needed one more chinese song... ay that just does it i thought.. ay, after much....debating... it still ends us at withdrawing from the competition. ITs a very sad thing i think...

Aay, sorry really kingsley.. for making that decision but i guess i was really hit by reality then... man.. sorry too to those who helped me out for this thing.. like matthew...km....ern... thks for the help ....

I think a frog.. doesn't have a strong voice.. rather it has strong legs.. thus.. ay ..life goes on everybody..

o_O

*ahem* hmm... erm... a... A... hmmmm... hope this helps >_>
So JC talked to me about his responsible to sing the song well.. o_O
And his day seems good. Probably alittle stressed coz he needs to deliever his vocal WELL
haha, what else? He is gona seek help on how to format win2k hard drive, so as to help a verrry nice girl. So if u guys read this and has idea, pls go look for him. Bug him pls =D

zhi

Perharps PPl were meant to leave after all, perharps its not fate doing the work but our own concience conttolling our fate... and perharps i'm supposed to leave then and nvr shuda came back.. perharps thats the best way..

ORITE! EXAMS OVER!!! omg omg omg...rite.. lessons start next week..crap..and kenny is damn persistent on make up lessons..

ay, quite sick today, think coz of the weather.. damn it.. i've failed my job as a pro environmentalist by wasting so much tissues..

Ay, went out with evan and Jj in the evening.. supposed to have more ppl de.. but lol.. the turn out was quite pathetic but ay, fun la.. haha , chun hung's oreo coffee frappe is great! Good JOB!

Rite.. the new year already has a few set backs .. Hmm.. Rite.. we'll get through there eventually ~!

Happy New Year!!!

Ok i know this kinda lagging ... but ay, got caught up in stuffs thus ay, lagged... any way all the best this year , work hard every one.. we'll reach there!

My new year resolution..serious one.. really protect what i have now.. coach a team of young aspiring cyclists... race for team sp with a few other comarades.. try to join the 4 seasonal races... try my luck out at the malaysian racing scene... get better grades for my studies...oh yea.. and stop pissing off every fine lady i meet.. perharps i'll settle down with one this year? ay this is a long term target..

any way.. aliyoz amigos... happy new year~~

"for now,dont bother to look furthur.. work with what u have now":Edmund.

I tink its time each of start to self reflect on what we've been doing .. Be it right or wrong, is it really what u are to do such things? Is it beneficial for u or others at all? what image are u trying to potray ?How significant are ppl around u ? and how are u distributing this amount of significance...

Hmm, Jp said this before"i can't accept the fact that this had happened " trully now... what really have happened ar? Is it someting we accept ? or is it someting we must amend? Don't tok about not being able to amend this kinda stuffs. It requires each of our little efforts to actually make things right again. Right, giving up is always the best solution in all the problems, what who is gonna lose out in the end? And omg, don't phrase things liddat on ur own" if i don't have this bunch of friends , i still have that bunch of friends" ay, seriously, how long would it take for all the parties to realise that disregarding is the best option? Well, i'ld say lets stop, and lets do it.Lets stop saying " this is hopeless, every one is liddat, this is not the first time she or he is doing it already, i give up , i had enough" .

Lets move on together.. lets continue what we are good at doing together... Lets stop giving up on each other, lets stop being pessimistic about us... let us been captured in dairies, photographs and memories down the road together.Lets give each other a chance and give ourselves a chance as well.

We will get there, eventually , some how...

Orite, i'm pretty down ranting about all these comments i wanna give... Sorry for being a person who is so concern about the ppl around him.. Feel free to leave a tag if u had any comments about this post..we are all ppl who love to share...

Living in this emptiness inside of me.. just plain o'bored..

Rite, been pretty un eventful recently, the usual proposals stuffs and revision work for the exams only.ay, scrolling through the msn contacts again, so bored, up down left right. Life's pretty wasted here..suddenly every ting seemed to have subside down. ay , there is trend now in the group, the guys are gg out themselves and the gals are doing that also.. perharps we were nvr meant to be called a group at all, but maybe two groups~.. Hah.. why ar.. liddat..

Heard my brown's johnny zhng my car again. Ay, pretty lame and funny to me i tink, other wise i tink its just a bunch of fags having some interesting self form of entertainment.

Well, i'll just watch the birds , trees , skies grass and rain then..

3 cheers for better eye sight!

yay, i've finally pimp my blog... ay, hoping this would be much better then the previous colour template.. i always belive black and white is the best....

MERRY CHRISTMASS AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

hey all blog peeps, gong xi fa cai, merry christmas.. Here i am , infront of my pc, on christmas eve, wasting my time away and eating a spring chicken instead of a turkey. Lol, but i tink tis year's chirstmas for me had been pretty interesting already.Went to the beach early in the morning with ch , km, ws and ct. Ay, the rest all ps us. gr8. We [played beach vball all day , ay the other teams were pretty good and ay, comical too.

Left them at 6 to go some where for someting... Lol. Mystery mystery mystery, mysterious me kept everyone mystified , guessing what the mystery is. Hehe.. Hmm, tot of going to ch's place after that but hmm, i tink i was nided some where else... Lol.. thus, i decided not to go ..

Oh yea, Mr santa~ i've tried being a good kid for this year... ay, i'm pretty sure i'm one. hehe, so why don't u start doing ur thing and start making my wish come true. Eh?

don't hang me up high and drop me like a stone ...

Out fishing today.Hmm, tok about slowing down on a fast paced lifestyle.Been stressed, by the e learning week.. and the cycling stuffs didnt make life much easier..and omg, not to mention the support i'm receiving for all tis shet.. tis is totally.... *plays welcome to my life -by simple plan* For lord sake, i'm worst then he is..

Tink no point hiding, life tis past few days is pretty fucked up. Feel like just jumping off the building or smth.. make it short and painless..

Every one is pressing me for smth, yes , i owe them, projects, proposals and all the shet. FUck.. and they come all at a time.. and i feel no point in organizing events with no ppl turning up, always doing the wrong tings withuot some one to tell me the right ting, shooting blindly... and when i wanna give up, i tot of the club and how it will survive after i gave up.. fucken.

lets tok about the ride soon ling and me is supposed to be organizing for tis friday nite.. Note sl and me. ~ and i'm the only one doing the shet.. from writing proper proposal.. to contact wen jie to contacting the saa deparment.. and even the police for the permit. all i do.~ and its supposed to be org by me and him. Gr8.The best thing about this whole shet is that tis, ur doing soo much shet..putting in so much effort, and u have ppl telling u that they dont want to go becoz they dont feel like it... fuck. And some even blamed me for not telling them in advance and all.. please read the fucking big 4 by 2 meters wide white board in the club house... which i wrote every ting on. Ok la, blame me for not making extra effort for not calling each and single of the 30 members in the club.

Gees, i really salute wen jie..

oh yea, i didnt managed to caught fishes today... just caught 2 crabs.. hmm thats crappy enuff.. and dont ask me why i still have the time to blog so much when i'm complaining about the lack of time becoz i'm using the time waiting for the stupid server to load for me to blog..

peace out(p.z copy righted)

Steam boat fever...

Been having loads of steam boats tis few days... friday with the guys.... sunday with the peeps.. today with the class.. omg... i've been on board three boats in less then a week.

Saw the aftermath of an accident just now.. Pretty bad i tink.. the motorbike with the car.. Hmm.. ms louisa mentioned before that one of the few things one might see before the occurence of a fatal accident is dark figures circling that area... Hmm, well.. those are the words of a medium... ay, dunno how true it will be. ANy takers?

hmm.. i think i can be so ignorant of things at times..

The results of hating.. disliking.. and disregarding..



Hmm.. how should i go about tokking about tis.


Man, born ignorant of mentally induced emotions,acknowledging only physically induced emotions.. How ever , as time passes by...we experience the defects of life and start knowing the different types of feelings.. one of them, hate. abhorrence leads to less appreciation to what one used to have..


why do we have to hate at first...Well, hate is caused by strong dislike after a series of course and effect .To hate now is being too genralising.. lets be a little more specific.. to hate some one..
We hate some one for the character they possess which is deemed as wrong to our perception.Note, we are learning as we are growing and its either we have ppl changing into characters we disregard or we adopting hate for a specific personality.
Why hate some one.Applying the word some one into the description on what causes us to hate would be; to hate some one would be caused by strong dislike after a series of course and effects .


An individual would know some one. He or she... would first give a neautral perspective of to him or her.. Well, this divides into different scenario... that person might cause dislike to him or her.. causing less appreciation..thus the person most likely will be disregarded by the individual. How ever they might become friends due to the mutual affection for each other. ( friend n.: person whom one is on terms of mutual affection ). Time passes by, that individual would have adopted different hates for different personality. What seems orite before might seemed not orite now already. The 'friends' that individual might have possesed the character that individual perceive as a hateful personality ... and he or she starts to hate that person... who one was his or her friend.


At this point of time... the individual makes a decision. To accept the friend for who he or she is ... or to start Disliking.. leading to disregarding... once friend... now some one who is disregarded..


That person who choosed to hate will continue to do so... disregarding.. and in the end gets disregarded too.. hate... is controversial... its a karma kinda ting too.. In the worst case scenario... we'll adopt hate for almost every ting and disregards everyting also... What are we left with after that??

Keep lying and we'll get there...


Hmm, i forgot when was the last time before yesterday the six of us went out but i tink it did stirred up old memories yesterday. how ever diverged our path had been, there is still tis little bit in us that is link together. HOpeful? ay, dunno but think we've enjoyed each other company yesterday..


been naive tinking about the msn contact list tingy and the scrolling stuffs... some how i tink its all about getting back what u gave. or some how.. reaping what u sow.. smth liddat..Tings aint liddat naturally.. well, thats that .. Tings definately will get better... no one is alone.


Really take lotsa tings for granted.. so much so that i dont see them at all.. haha, my bad. I'll work on that.. hur hur..


k la.. go already.. ciao , happy holidays peepS!

Time out..

Wootz, i've been so busy for the past few days that i didnt even have time to complain about it.. My my.. thk god most of it was over...

Yay, finally got the bike for my bro.. he seemed pretty excited about it.. nvr see him clean his bike clean until so enthu before.. woots, hopefully a new cyclist will be groomed.

Hmm, really very stressed now adays.. too hectic.. and i'm speaking too fast lately due to the lack of time.. see its really soo busy.. so.. i decided to relax and speak slower... hur..... hur........

ay. crap. anyway.. i added in icons.. for better navigations.. haha too much feed back on the spot the navigations game already..

Over and out....

The sun.. the sand.. the breeze and the sea water.


Ay, My.. am i partially tanned now. Hmm , went to sentosa with the peeps today.. not to mention some stupid set backs tis morning. Damn.. some times, i couldn't help but hate. Oh well, life goes on as always.. ppl come.. ppl go.. we are learning so much both together and individually as we passed by all walks of life.


Perharps i'm hoping too much too.. Km said smth which really made me tink alot." we try very hard to remember , to experience the things we did before which was thought was enjoyable BEfore.. how ever , it seems the harder we try now.. the sadder we get from what all those failures. Things likes this are meant to take a more natural course where by if it will happened.. it will happened.."


I thought on impulse that hey.. that perception is wrong.. we should always fight for what we wanted ... not wait for it to come along..how ever, was condradicted when i was tinking the number of times we failed and fall badly.. and the number times we succeeded. The odds are quite obvious to the peeps who know.. so heres the catch... to fight and fail badly.. but have more hopes on succeeding.. or waiting for it to come to us... and not be so sad as we lead our own life , be it lone.. or be it another new 'home" in our hearts.. waiting for a miracle?

CONGRATULATIONS SU FEN JIE JIE!!!

Hmm, so ..i just came back from the wedding dinner.. waiting for my turn to use the bath room.

AY, gramps was laughing when he told me.. " so tis time.. u don't have money to go to barber.. and u faced some strong winds on the way here.." Ay... coz in the past when i ruffled up my hair in attempts to style it.. he said it was messy and i gave excuses saying that the wind messed up my hair... And when i started to keep long hair.. he said it was long and i said i didnt have the money to cut my hair.. Ay.. not bad.

Ah ma knew about HX's gf liao.. omg.. and he is gonna bring her over to meet ah ma during new year... ay.... I hate it was his mum kept saying i couldn't get a gf.. well, not saying that i'm not confident with myself or wat... but , when she kept saying that.. its quite embarrasing.. infront of all the young ones.... ay. hx understands my plight though. Hmm.. every one is commenting on my hair today.. good one bad ones.. Da jiu said i look like that frog prince.. And i was like.. HUH~! ... but the best is when 4 jiu said i look like andy lau with the spoilt watch and side parting.~ my my.. Of course... quite a few didnt appreciated my hair as well. .. said it look like some wild grass or bird's nest.. Oh well.. HIGH SELF ESTEEM HIGH SELF ESTEEM HIGH SELF ESTEEM HIGH SELF ESTEEM

Hmm.. thats all for today.. hopefully it doesnt rain TML!!!!!!!

Put the picture in ur mind into the camera- Aundry



Tink i've been listening to Cmr song's too much.. even my thinkings had turned glorified and gothic.Ay..





Su fen jie jie is marrying tml.. ay , how cool.. ~ Hx gonna open the door for her.. Omg.. I tink i nid to grow shorter to do that... hmm.. or is it due to lack of recognition? Oh wat ever... will be able to see gramps tml.










I met tis damned damned skilled photographer just now.. Ay , tooked pictures for me to be publish on come magazine.. but ay, his works are just.. amaching.. Tot i learnt a trick or two from him. He told me his purpose in life and i was there wondering about my own.. Pretty corny question and pretty not orignial.. have u ever tot of ur purpose in life yet?











Well, at times i tot i did have a purpose , but hmm, as time passes by it just became part of a boulevard of broken dreams. Hmm, I belive alot of factors serve in changing our purpose in life... Some factors serve as guide lines. For example the reason why we study.. Take for example me.. pursuing at course in sp.. tis might result in me coming up with a purpose to do what my course is teaching me to do. how ever they are just guidlines though... we might not follow. AGain we are confused at what our purpose is in life? Wondering aimlessly waiting for ur purpose to come? Well, good idea ... but don't , we're supposed to find it. I tink, majority of us realised the fact that we don't usually get our purposes in life that easily... Its elusive.... wen we tot we found it.. we just lost track of it again. HOw many ppl died out there without trully finding their purpose and pursuing it till the very hand? Ay, tis question is indeed subjective.. ay , i'm sure i'm still looking for my purpose.. have u found yours??

3 months back jp started planning for the chalet.. 3 months back we were all hoping for a chalet... 2 months later...we couldn't get a suitable time slot for the chalet and we tried to slot in a camp cum chalet instead. HOW EVER.... costa sands allow only minimum one night of bookings for chalet and thus we decided on a two night camp. HOW EVER ... we could not find for the right place to camp in and ppl don't want to camp for 2 nights so we decided to camp for 1 night... AND WE couldn't find for tents and we decided to just have a BBQ at SENTOSA... HOW EVER ..we could not get any one who is 18 and is willing to go over with us to sentosa to help us book the pit thus we decided to book a pit at east coast instead... HOW ever... all the pits for the time slot we want has already been booked.. so we decided that we go to SENTOSA on saturday and go to jm's house for BBQ on sunday.... HOW EVER... my mum JUST ... i mean just.... told me that my cousin is going to throw her wedding banquet tis saturday and I MUST BE THERE... How cool....what a totally fuck up situation... It seems like there just nid to be just so many odds for us to go through...

Get hit the first time.. start dodging the second time..

"people always perceive one by what one does.. and not by what he actually is..."
How true is that.. am i seeing a classical demonstartions of superficial perceptions... or was it me, the one perceiving superficially . How do we even differentiate superficial from the truth. No matter the odds, i lay my stand that what one does.... don't neccessary defines what one is... Hmm.


Photo taking session today. Hmm... 2 shots.. ay, and thats it.. Good ness ~ for that 2 shots so many ppl were unhappy.. Lol..interesting ~

MOB test.. OmA... hope i dont fail man.. damn it.. the stuffs i studied.. only a fraction it came out. and quite a fraction of the test i didnt revised much on.. ay ay..

Didnt managed to jog today.. hmm.. wasted... got home too late.. oh well.. thats its for today..

Out~

3 cheers for sad endings and heart breaks~!

Ay, its a sunday. I hate sundays... coz i know ima go to school tml... and sundays are nvr happy days coz i'll be spending too much time tinking about tomolo.. in conclusion... sunday sucks..

BEeen not motivated to do anyting... today.. tried riding... but after 3 laps.. i decide that thats it.. I dont have the mood to cycle today... went home. WEnt for pool with km and irvin.. ay, long time no see irvin liao.. well, he is quite a aspired guy for bass, i did mean aspired ... LOl.. but i duno about the talent.

WEll, couldnt judge on that.. i'm not music person myself.. tml's a test... MOB.. shet.. i hope i dont fail.. please let there be mcq questions.. Hur hur...

wish on~

It a brand new day every daY!!!! -chicken little.

These couple of days have been pretty much good. Ay, with the return of jp.. its like adding colours into the dull lifes of every one,not polishing some one's boot o r smth.. but i really felt tis way. Its a whole new familiar sensation i've lost for too long. Well.. thats the power of the pei factor i guess..

Ay, and i got a new pair of slippers .. how nice.. Spent the whole of yesterday out. Went to plaza with jp first , the place changed too much. Then went to meet the rest of the peeps and went to xian de lai for steam boat. At bugis, ay, i like the sesame sauce. AFter that.. went to the arcade... there they went catching those big soft toys with those claw like machines, and OMG.... ch and km ,they managed to catch that very big tigger.. after spedning like 12 bucks. not bad.. but the rest of the peeps wasted quite alot of bucks also.. trying to catch someting..LOl..

WEll, i wasn't much gonna belive in luck till i saw that event that happened yesterday. After that went to kinda , ton at jp's house. Watched chicken little, ay funny show with lotsa teachings.. cool show for the kids. Then played cards till like 530 then i decided to went home.

Went swimming with km today.. after that badminton with the peeps again. Ay , too much.. Lol..

NId a break..

Ay, welcum back Jp.. I tink u've waited 6mths for tis? Hmm hmm..

So tired from everyting seh, got tis sudden urge to laze again. To be unproductive.. lol, tempted..

So much Drama the past few days for me.. ay , too much can kill ... gimme a break...

Out~

Hope i'm not wrong for handing u a heart worth breaking.

After Years of waiting... yea i mean years.. i finally get to see a moving pz.. OMG~! and Its under super super weird conditions. Tis is so gay ... ~omg omg omg omg i'm getting all jump up inside just tinking about it. Yesterday played pool, actually zj and ah boon wanted to go JE to play de.. but i weirdly suggested cck. Thus we were there. We were at table 4. And i mentioned in the previous post that i kept noticing tis gal who went bare footed. I tot she looked familiar and wanted to approach her but couldnt find for an appropriate pick up line ~ and i tot she look like pz.. and it really turned out to be her.. Lol..

Dont wanna wake up in the morning and i can't fall asleep..

Some how ...i understand why i'm so pissed with all tis.. i forget how many times tis kinda situation had happened.. over and over again..and each time i'll get pissed all the same.. BUT~, i wont give up i tell u ... no matter how any of u try to pull me down... put me away.. i'll still continue to pursue on.. don't try to even dampened what i belive or pursue in coz u'll only end up dissapointed.. U CLEAR!HAH!

ay, k.. thats expressive enuff.. school was pretty bored... as usual. Today is the first time i see ms soh soen en flare up. Hmm not totally flare up to me but i tink that might be what she interpret as flaring up. Well, ya know... some times.. u nid to do the right tings to get respect from us.. flaring up may be one of them but ay, i belive some how what she dids is pretty off.. Look at chee siong and learn.. ay ay...

Release from mob early today.. then boon and zj wanted to go play pool.. so off we went to play pool at lot 1. Hmm.... i couldnt help notice the gal at the other table .. coz she tooked off he slippers and played bare footed.. Ay,i tot she looks familiar.. ay, and i told myself i was tinking too much and i carried on missing my shots.. as usual.. too lousy..

Hmm..tink every one is really perceiving the fact that giving up is the best option.. but ay.. ur wrong.. its the easiets option.. but not the best option.. get that rite..

The defect of aspirations is when it turns into destruction..

Hmm, went to school too early today.. but it was not all that bad. I managed to met saufi.. Some one who i tot vanish from the surface of earth very very long ago.. Ok la.. we just didnt tok to each other for very long.about a year and halve i tink... AY, managed to catch up.. quite alot. on the train. Hmm.. i tink he plays quite a positive and optimistic role . I seldom hear him tokked about his defects of life.. ay, too good.. tis kinda person good.. will live longer..

Had lunch at the legendary 'food court 7' . It wasn't much of a food court.. A restaurant rather.. Free lunch as the Pt's is paying. Wootz..The food was orite and the session was nice too.. Played badminton after that. Ay , made the whole tutorial room stink after that. I tink we made the tutorial pissed for awhile back then wen we came back, ay..

Good, i felt less lame today...the lame refrainment is taking effect! Ay, most prolly coz tw was being pretty lame today..

Oh well.. it was a warm day after all.. Jogged with km for 1 hour after school. Hmm, i tink that when ur jogging with some one else.. esp of same competence.. u tend to jog more effectively ..1 hour of jogging' effectively' was no small feat. km tot we might have completed 15 km.. hmm, i tink thats quite good.. ay ..

hopefully what ym's training schedule he draw up for me is effective.. or else it'ld be just too bad..

Tired of all the big fake smiles..

Woke up early tis sunday morning..

Wanted to swim... ironically... but ay , no one to go with.. km and ct double ps me.. very nice of them...

So i sat at my infront of my com.. scroll through my list of contacts on the messenger.. Hmm, i see lotsa peeps online.. but yet.. lack the motivation and the courage to double click on any of them. I tot i wanted to tok to some one , just one.. but it seems that i began to refrain from doing that. Bad experience maybe? Its difficult to tok to some one who will understand what i say as well.. not that they are intellectuallly disabled.. but maybe i'm the one who is expressiveless..Hard to tok to some one also coz they might not be bothered and most prolly busy with their own stuffs too.. i understood that... i'm most prolly a nuisance then... Well, i tried occupying myself with work also.. but ay, again lack the motivation to do so.. the urge was there to tok to some one.. but yet contradicted by so many contradictions. . . . not that its making me sad or wat.... its just... some nostalgic feeling... Then i tot i've plenty of friends but again... it reallly seemed that i'm bluffing myself all over again.. hah. too bad.

well, that was melodramatical enuff.. went to the gym after wards after lunch.. then did managed to swim and found out that i actually swam better then yesterday. I knew that i could swim like a fish but ay , most prolly i didnt anticipated what there is yesterday.

Well, that was pretty yesterday alraedy , am gonna jog for 1 hour tml.. Hah.

My first Dnf record.. ay lance.. i'm par with u now..hiacks

Rite, had my first trialothon today and lost badly. ON the swimming and running part la.. lemme explain alil about trialethon alil . Its a race where u gotto swim first... and then cycle... and finishing with the run.U nid to excel in all three components to win. Sadly, i tink i only excel in one .. Maybe they shud do a relay such that some one else will swim and run.. and i'll cycle for them.. wakkaka..

I did said i wanted to dedicate tis race to uncle rusty.. wondering now.. whether he should be proud or dissapointed with me? ay, if he is dissapointed then too bad... i did managed to drop alot of ppl when i'm cycling though. sorry uncle rusty..

well, and yea... the promise i made u to make.... i tink it doesnt count now already bahz..

Hmm.. in a dillema now.. whether to feel good or bad... oh yea... ernest and the rest of the old peeps won me ~... too good..

I will swim like a fish~!

In less then a day's time.. i will be racing..

Hmm, i heard from the old guys that there would be roadies there.. and of course ppl from the dragon boat team will be sending ppl over.. BUt hmm.. I duno if i know if would drown tml or not.. but ay ay, will try my best to stay afloat for the 2 laps..dang..at least lemme win the peeps from chess club alrite.. wakakkakka...

good luck to me and ernest~ and the old peeps who are participating..!!

Death.. so predictable yet elusive..

Ay ay, go watch naruto.. its quite nice..


Well.. had the first meeting for like soo long for sp cyclists. ay ay, so glad .. fixed up another bike tis week for the club.. ay , take it as charity work bahz.

Ay , quite unbelievable but i'm doing lotsa tings for the good of others now adays. Hmm, it might be that i'm doing lotsa good tings before but i only noticed it recently.. Ay ay , one way or another... its the same..

Weather had been pretty cold recently. Ay, make moods go bad easily too. Just 4 days later it will be the triathlon race already.. Hmm, i dont know how to swim.. but i could still run and cycle.. ay , will get there eventually.. To add on to the significance of tis race... i'll dedicate it to uncle rusty...

Tis is for you Uncle Rusty...

The chronicles of burnt rubber and dust particles..

How long have i been riding on my bike alraedy? Ay ay.. too long.. i lost count.

When was the first time i learnt how to coordinate the gears...

When was the first time i had some one to tok to...

When was the first time i met Uncle Rusty..

When was the last time i met Uncle Rusty...

When did Uncle Rusty passed on...

Gone and remembered..Thk U Uncle Rusty...

Stop whining about your fate and start changing it..

Tink i was too sick to ride that i almost fainted at bt tis morning.. Bad... next week trialoton already...

Had steam boat the other night at ct house.. hmm , steam boat with lights from hand phone is cool... its pretty warm too... ay , lucky the boat was running on gas .. not electric.. or it will be just too bad..

Ps , pang sehed hazel and the peeps who went to hazel's party , didnt wanted to go to the party .. too many ppl , and wats more.. i want to accompany my mum.

Hmm, tink i'ld nid to train harder to get more stamina.. tis morning's event is just too dissapointing..

I love you.. because my mum told me to love the mentally illed ppl~ ay...how lame can it get..

I hate thursday... gotto wake up so early.. i hate rainy days.. its cold.... and its a cold rainy thursday today...

Went for gems.. ay, clearly stated on my face that the person wearing that face is acting cool. Hmm, couldn't help it... bad morning ... bad rain.. bad day. Well,we were supposed to come out with ideas for business plans... ay ay... i looked at my wet socks and i could only tink about water proof socks... ~

of course , there are plenty of other ideas too.. i tink the wireless electric guitar is cool...

Hmm...i havent book the chalet yet.. damn it.. sorry peeps..will book it quick.. i promise..

What i do doesn't implement who i am..

Omg sehz.. i had a horny dream yesterday nite seh...~ n i couldnt belive it wasn;t horny enuff for the ppl i tok about it with..sheez..

Ay ay, class was boring today.. every ting is boring.. i didnt even had the appetite to eat.. tink shud be falling sick soon.. shud be..gd, hope mcs would be elongated.. lol wat a word..

Tink now adays have been an attention seeker for long enuff.. irritating enuff ppl.. time out. time to invert abit.. introvert style..

I want to fall in love with the gal i know...not some one who aint near me.. so far away from me.. la di da...

Ya knw.. we cant always rely on time alone to heal wounds.. By the time it does so.. new wounds would be created.. apply some medicine for goodness sake..

Caught up with sleep.Ay ay , thats what sundays are for.. Good.

Had a bad time today.. it just didnt work out for me.. haha

To bt with ruben.. it was quite late already.. and it was pretty dark in there with the trees and all.. I was riding down tis path when suddenly tis stone flew into my left eye.. the pain was excrutiating.. i was like.. ow ow ow on my bike and tings went blur for my left eye almost instanteneously .. a passer by cyclist stared at me as he braked... and very slowly ride past.. good ride past.. thk u .Then washed my eyes with the water from my hydra.. still pain.. ruben caught up with me and we slowly rode to the visitor center.. i couldnt go into the trail any more....the pain is subsiding..slowly..ruben drove there.. but some how.. he couldnt get his car to open with the remote.. and he left the key in the car.. great.. hur hur.. so too bad.. we've gotto cycle back to bp to get the keys from his dad.. the spare one.. it wasnt nice.. cycling with one eye almost blind. The time we reached the house.. ruben's tyre had a puncture.. great. I told ruben to take my bike and go after his car after he collected the keys.. so off he went as i pushed his bike slowly to wen jie's house, only to find that we couldnt get the tube out as the tyre is built in such a way that u nid 3 tyre levers to get the tyre out... and wen jie had only one. ay, in the end ruben came and took the bike in his car.. la dida.. it was 9 already then .. and dinner was horrible

Too bad.. ay , but ~ tml will be a better day.. wakkaka

Effective comparisons makes one improve.. defective comparisons makes one hate.

There was lightning and thunder tis morning.. i was smiling and smiling coz i tot the ride today was cancelled.. but ben decided to go against all odds to carry out the event.. so there i was .. in that event.. so weird... stuck alone with cheng hong and zhuo hua.



The ride was good, there were many female cyclist today.. and zhuo hua keep acting desperate.. Too bad, the ladies are too old..

Rode back home around 1. Got back some sleep.. went out again to ah yong's house.. ay , his bb 1 month le.. so 1 month ago.. i was officially enlisted as Uncle.. so sad..

And there we were at the dinner table. ah zhi bought his gf there.. ah yong was with his wife and baby.. ah yun was with her bf ah wen is out with her bf.. hx told gramps about his gf.. and me... was laughing my ass off at the channel 5 show.

too bad..

Life is too short for regrets-Ms liew during gems class

Woke up damn early today.. stupid flu.. i nid my sleep..

Ay , so i attended my first Gem lesson today.. was quite cool i guess. But some how i tink its smth to do with my attitude or.. smth liddat.. Nobody sit closed to me today.. wakka.. its like.. there tis 4 by 5 rows of seats. two sets of them.. the peeps would be at the other side.. while its me alone on the other side.. totally isolated. Too fierce..

How ever , my group is great i tink.. 3 gals v 2 guys... one of the gal was rather crappy ay for her look.. Looks are deceiving i tell u ...so i'm not that fierce as i look.. Duhz.. Well , i found out that most marketing teachers have much wonderous story to tell the class and the teach today told us about how a healthy shit should look like. Its like 9 in the morning and there she went.

Finally bought the database tb today.. ay , 24 bucks for a stack of paper binded by a hard cover.. Its definately worth it... yes.

Am atttending my dbms pratical now. Look tis proves how slackky i am.. , great.. here comes that old lady.. and some one behind is yakking non stop.. shud up~ ..

We are going against all odds...

ay , it seems that our original plan for the chalet has to be cancelled.. ay

I tink i fail in writing songs.. ay..

Hmm , chee seong's lesson today.. was quite cool i tink.. hur hur .. after that went to town .. with irene ernest and tw.. ay , tw had to pon ent gems.. hur hur.. tml will be my first lesson , omg , 8 in the morning, and i was laughing my ass off at the ppl who nid to stay back on wednesday afternoons. Oh yea.. there was tis gay incident at taka i tink..

Tennis elective slots are all taken up , ay,.. too bad. Gotto head to pengerrang again some time next next week.. with the rovers.. , i tink their lame.. but oh well.. la di da.

I'm so gonna buy my clothes tomolo already... nid to spend that money before they are wasted on smth else.. hur hur

Its not working.


It such a big dis may,
every one starts to hate.
Just another different day ,
the feelings are so dead...
All i see is the pieces , all torn and frayed, all torn and frayed...



If you could see it in their eyes, its full of lies
Insanity is their pride , what else could i say.
They said thats friends are there,
we nvr gave any care ,they nvr gave any care, we are nvr there~

It such a big dis may,
every one starts to hate.
Just another different day ,
the feelings are so dead...
All i see is the pieces , all torn and frayed,all torn and frayed


What the fuck is wrong with us, there so much anxiety , soak in tis enimity
Not a day without the sad faces
Nvr had enuff of hurting each other... its not okay its not okay its not okay....

It such a big dis may,
every one starts to hate.
Just another different day , the feelings are so dead...
All i see is the pieces , all torn and frayed,all torn and frayed

Harmonics - Lead Vocal -Lead Vocal with harmonics

I know that tings cant always be there at the rite time..

9 o clock lesson today.. Hmm.. maths is like old school stuffs.. and i felt nostalgic doing matrices again... was late coz i was being stupid. Idea is stupid..

actually.. i tink ms soh soen eng aint that bad... i dunno its just the first lesson with her.

Yuan yang , teh bing and kopi bing is nice...

Get well soon ern...

Mob presentation was great.. ay..Mrs juliana is good..

I dont like the saloon i went just now.. the service is not good.. picasso at bangkit.. dont go there to have ur hair cut.. not good.

Jogged. I tink 10 mins was good for the 3.6km...

I'm so psyched up for the triathlon... now ... how to stay afloat in the pool without the floats..

Days past,ppl die.. things go away, chapters on the book closes..

Hmm, monday again... kinda cold...

Heavily geared today, full of books ct wanted.. damn it.. he didnt gave me the book i wanted..

database is boring as ever.. ay ~The teach is also.. trying very hard.. ~

However, java was as interesting as the tutor. Var,boolean ladida..

Hazel was late again .. ay ay, cant blame,today was her mum's opening ceremony, she got to go there to do the lion dance.. but her brownies are getting better and better... Ok la, make that better coz tis is only the second time i ate only.. but its good already..

MOB saw us doing the group work. Hmm i see well planned groups.. ay.. Now that every ting is over.. whats left was pieces i guess.

I still owe gary money sehz..~ 4 bucks.. damn.

broked.

Don't go... stay.. here with me..

Mum was planning to bring us for picnic at east coast with the aunties and uncles.. i wanted out so i was out.Actually wanted to buy the clothes alone but i guess i'll postpone it.. Cycled alone to east coast though.

There was this ah pek, cycling halve naked on his bike. I wanted to ask for directions from him but hes cycling faster then i anticipated. Mm, its either he is good or i'm getting OLD, irony. Ay , got to know tis faster route and it kinda shortened my journey much as i only 1 and halve hour tis time, addding to the fact that i got lost at town.

I think dare devil was nice.. maybe one day the directors shud make a move involving all the marvel super heros... ay ay ,one man just isnt enuff to save the world.

don't do it..

Its in the ugly things u'll eventually find beautiful things which u must protect and keep..

Woke up by ct to play tennis.. ~

played till 12 ~ Hmm.. havent managed to return km's racket yet sehz...they are at ch's house now but i dun wanna go.. ay ~

Decided to cook today.

Braised pork.. grilled fish with garlic... prawn salad.. mushroom soup... some apple pie with vanilla ice cream topped with raspberry syrup and fresh straw berries~

The pie was nice i tink~. hur hur..

I'ld love u if could ...

Hang over day..but at least it is a better day...happy holidays to dear blog readers..

Did not wanted to wake up, but ay ay, got to wake up... early in the morning , got the tennis racket from km.. Met up with calindar~ at plaza bought stuffs.. i didnt want to cook.. too bad~ ima temperemental cook..~

Saw lotsa tennis balls flying around the court... some close to hitting me.. also saw some man swimming with some new style at the pool.... laughable style..

So i didnt cook after all, ate some over sized fish ball noodles.. thks aunty lim for the noodles.. hur hur.. is that appropiate?

K pool was filled up with ppl and smoke today.. ay, i see punks and punks wannabe every where.. IP zone's fault ... owned 2 peeps at daytona and was owned by some faggot... tyco only.YEllow button~ ....

Sundae with colourful cereals is nice, but straw berry sundae is healthier...

Ate out.. the food at fajar is getting better and better... la di da.. ay, baron's is good..

Got some funding from dad.. i tink i nid more clothes.. dammit.. hated shopping but i tink tis time bo bian..

hmm, some tings are just better left un known rite...

rite...

I just nid that one sign... gimme the sign plz...

Ay ay, start school,i see new begginings and familiar faces. Hmm, was that being nostalgiC? ay

The classes were great but the food at that stall totally sucked. The potatoe was not up to standard... practically not supposed to be consumed.. ay .. bad. Nong time no lame in class ler...

Dunno why i'm particularly became more conservative over certain stuffs and ideology, perharps after what i saw and felt from the experiences i had... gave me tis attitude...

Had tis series of unwanted events happening to me... tis few days.. Its became a problem actually... and its one of the worst i've encountered... sigh, some times.... its difficult being the person u are..

Went to lum's place to help out with western dishes.. gave suggestions and got to meet tis real fantastic guy call gavin. I know its sounds gay but its really fortunate to find some one who has the same interest in u and appreciates what u do as he knows how tough it would be.. In tis case, we both are rather into culinary. He worked at fins before thus the enthuism and me is becoz i've said that i will learn to cook good food.and hah! , hes there , one of the few Cooks out there i'm able to work together with. I mean its just natural , we started out making the sandwiches .. if u tink its just normal sand wiches u are wrong lo.. Its rather complicated and they are supposed to be produced in bulk lo.. ay ay. We designed the sandwiches in such a way that we hope to appeal to the mass public.. And then it was the salad..and the main dishes like steaks , fish and chips la la l a... Ay , during the cooking session we were both exchanging skill points on every aspect lo. I tot him how to actually marinate the chicken and how to control the moisture content in the chicken while he tot me a more effective way of slicing faster with tis awesome method.. Ay ay.. its just too good ..and i was a total nut abuot cooking 4 years ago.. haha..

I"m not being mean but some times.. some tings are just not meant to be...