I treat the people who read my blog well..

I think...

I let you guys listen to nice songs.. I try my best to cheer you up....I kill time for you.... I reccomend remedies for you...I even drew nice pictures for you =) <----- So when evangelline asked for the chawanmushi to be put up again , i can't be more glad than to oblige , so Evan..

heres what you asked for ..

Almond Drink is good

The weather for the past few weeks in Singapore is nothing but hell. Its terribly hot in the day and even at night , god bless those people who invented the air-conditioner.I think i'll be reduced into a puddle of essence of me if theres no air conditioning around.



The high temperature is bad. It harms the body , mentally and physically. Mentally for example the group that i'm working in,we almost commited homicide during meeting discussions . Damn the bloody weather for making hot heads hotter. If frustrations ain't enough we've got people falling sick. Jeeze, I bet the stock prices for ma kuang medical hall or the poly clinic have been rising like how hot air rises .



If you are how ever , having sudden, often repetitive, spasmodic contraction of the thoracic cavity, resulting in violent release of air from the lungs ,usually accompanied by a distinctive sound, in other words.. cough.. You can have an ALMOND DRINK.



I've been coughing my adam's apple out for the past few days and i just couldn't get a cure. Mum came back with 2 bottles of Almond Drink and told me to finish one bottle. It tasted not bad so i glady gulp the latter down, and the effect is instantaneous!I'm feeling better already, ok , thats what i feel, i dunno whether i'm better or not ,but ITS GOOOOOOOOOODDDD. If you are having sudden, often repetitive, spasmodic contraction of the thoracic cavity, resulting in violent release of air from the lungs ,usually accompanied by a distinctive sound, in other words.. cough.. do give Almond Drink a go.. don't say i never say.

We're victorious with a lost..

The atmosphere was tense..a bead of sweat dribbled down my side burns as i held the ball, ready to serve.We're on par with our opponent, saint hilder's alumni, the champions for the tournament last year and by far, our more formidable opponent.We won the first set , and they won the second , and now , we're on par on the 3rd set, 19-19... no one had expected Zheng hua to be playing so well against such a strong opponent , and to be able to send them running on their heels. Eventually, the crowd began cheering for zheng hua , strangers became supporters, enemies kept their mouth open wide and stare at awe, the whistle blew and i served the ball over.

Memories of my time at zheng hua training as a vball player flash as the game proceeded.I still remember the time when Mr Sng bought us a pail, and the few of us chipped in money to buy us a bottle of syrup and we mixed it in the pail and drank from there! Its hilarious , the things we did during our trainings in Zheng hua. I still remember how we start walking during the jogging session when coach isn't looking and ran like crazy when we're in his scope. Then the times when Mr sng says he wants to treat the whole team to break fast .. we were so happy but were disgusted when he came with 70 cents plain bee hoon with chilli sauce as a side. Then the time when he made a bet with us if we won our ever first finals at the west zone he'll buy us anything, and gen yuan asked for a mrt. We won, and yes , Mr sng owes us a mrt.

Now every one of us have different paths already, Ct and jy plays for Sp and have improved so much , Ws became the captain of team Nyp, Yk became the captain of team Rp , while the rest of the team , ppl like me.. remain in our solitude. My thoughts snapped as i prepared for the spike , the crowd started their chant .." wooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...... SAH~"

We lost.. the game , the players at saint hilders are great. They've got good skills , height and strength. As we shake our hands , we knew in our hearts, that we won. We sent chills down the spine of a giant , we fought till the very last point was wasted, we salvaged every points with every ounce of energy we had and we made a difference.That match was zheng hua's victory, our win.

Volleyball fiesta

A couple of quick updates on what i'm doing..

Been playing loads of vball matches lately, couldn't get enough of them. For bukit panjang we're into the quarter-finals already which is on next tuesady , woots it seems so effortless to play with team bukit panjang csc, they're good. Then , i'm now in team zheng hua alumni , like finally, i'm able to play for zheng hua again. We're now facing off different teams in our preliminary rounds in the national under 19 vball tournament.We defeated team zypheus today with a lip smacking 2-1 win. It was smacking indeed , the net was set so low today that every one had no problem over coming it , so much so that i jumped too high and had my head blocking the ball instead of my hands. Well, that kinda summed up to my bruised left eye. Its a comedy ... oh yea, did i mentioned, 10 yellow cards were issued in our match . . .totally ridiculous

I gave it a thought and maybe , vball ain't that bad to play. Since i can't cycle well any more , might as well settle for a sport which i could just play.. less competitively. Cycling is nice and all , but its all solo. I'ld like solo once in a while, but to train in solitude.. to be too fast in front of the pack, or too slow ... its always a solo affair. You don't share the glory of wining a race with any one else. You got it yourself. I've got enough of individual glory, enough to satisfy myself.I'm an easily satisfied person so Shut the fuck up , if u think I'm showing off .

Maybe volleyball would be a good thing to continue after all. There is more team work , and we win or lose as a team. Glory isn't just some nonsensical self proclaiming any more. Its a big shout out from 12 people, that we won~ eat that.

Ay ok la.. I like vball .

The jaw dropper...

Sheesh , its been a helluva week, Projects, tutorials , vball, club stuffs.. GG , I'm cranked out . Not to mention i'm so busy acting busy most of the time. Sheesh , and there is this presentation tml , damn and my leather shoe gave up on me this morning while meeting our client. , it couldn't got worse. Its good that i've got a bunch of carrying team mates and ly actually ran all the way to the club room to get my other pair of shoes, woots, thanks man.Much appreciated.

So, the other day Patrick showed me this girl , upon seeing her , i had the image of her Etched right into the back of my head. Sheesh, i just can't forget her.Well, so I'll be kind and I'll share the good stuffs, so i decided to post a pic of this

marvellous

hot

sexy

bootilicious

Stussy

Girl....

Don't look any where else ...

Jaw dropper, ain't she...XD

Appreciation , uniformed..

" Auntie can you help me to clean the table please, its very dirty , thank you"

Wearily , she drapes her rag onto her arm and push the cockery cart to the table . As she swiped the grime, her eyes wandered around the vicinity . Every table sat a family , or at least , a mum and her child . There were roses and cakes and beautifully wrapped presents in the arms of mothers. She looked at her hand covered with filth , took a deep breath and submitted to fate.

"Heres the pay for this month , sorry it came so late, the people up there were giving us a hard time."

"Thank you" she croaked.

" Hows ah boy doing? Has he been going to school and all? I hope he mixes well with his class mates..."

She kept her reserve and managed a smile as she packed her uniform into her bag. Ah boy is 19 years old now, he is her only son. The father died in a freak accident at his work site , leaving her as the family's sole bread winner. Ah boy finally made it into pre-school this year , he was diagnose with autism at the age of 3.

The casual walk back home became draggy steps. Her legs feels especially heavy today . The gates creaked open, marking the end of her tormenting journey back home. She sauntered in the dark pass her living room and into her bed room. She then took light foot steps into the kitchen for her shower in an attempt to make as least noise as possible, not wanting to wake ah boy up.

As she turn on the lights at the kitchen , she was froze.

"Ah boy! "

The child looked at her mother guiltily as he sat on the floor , infront of him laid cutlery sprewn across the floor.

" Ma..."

" what are you doing? So late haven't sleep!"

"I want to cook dinner for you ma, teacher said today is mother's day , I want to thank you for being my mum"

Tears welled up in her eyes as she dropped on her knees to hug her son...

" Shi shan zhi you ma ma hao, you ma ti hai zi...~~~~"

The dim moon light creeps off as he continued singing......

The escape..

I've not been blogging much as you guys have noticed,not because i'm busy but because blogger gave me some fuck up error, thus i can't post, but here goes , a post which is due 6 days ago..





Patrick the star fish introduced me to this wonderful place to fish a few weeks ago and I've been dying to try the place out. Last Sunday was a beautiful day thus i loaded my gear and cycled to the spot. Now one good thing about the spot is that its far away from civilisation, least considered far away for a Singaporean "spot" . Its almost seems un disturbed by any human activity and heres the catch , you don't get any net work reception in that area. Imagine you were to die there ,how nice.


Despite the swampy condition of its parameters, its actually quite a nice place to be at . Its peaceful ambiance eradicates any stress you have . Some how , it can be quite eerie when it gets damn quiet when even the cicada decided to shut up. Well, that didn't really bother me , i like a mysterious surrounding once or twice , for that moment of serenity . I didn't even mind if i don't catch any fish at all!






Nevertheless ,I did manage to land some fine catches at that area. Only a specific species though , the giant snake head(Channa micropeltes), other wise locally known as Toman or Siam lui.


Being a high level predator means that the Giant snake head eats many other fishes, amphibians and even small birds, but is not preyed upon by many other species. The Giant snake head is considered gregarious, with the young often following closely to their mother. There have been reports of protective mother Giant snake head attacking men who have disturbed the snake head's school of juveniles.



Well, not that I've been attacked , i wouldn't want to go swim if i know those fishes are in the water man. I did waded about knee deep to retrieve my line when it got snagged in some underwater branches though, with fear.Just look at it baring its teeth.

I couldn't bear bringing home those fishes and destroying that habitat and its Eco-system, thus fishes caught were all released after photo taking. The day was concluded with an awesome sunset . As i gulped down my Heineken , i couldn't help but have the urge to go at the spot once again , that my friends, is living the high life, my style.

Happy birthday Jp..

I've a confession to make .

Jia pei , it is your birthday and you are supposed to be expecting a message and a present from me in perth. Heres the confession , I've not sent you message nor the present. =X Ok , now you can go ahead and call me heartless , ungrateful and all those shet , because i really think i'm something like that . Ay, sorry .... i'm just too busy acting busy...

Despites all the names you're gonna start giving to me , i'ld like to say that i'ld treated you all the same and i'm grateful that you're always there and all , being concern and all those shet . Tsk , I know you're gonna go its ok and all for not getting ur present and sending you a message and all but tsk , face it, i could have . SORRY!

Well , in any case, please don't go thinking u're any less appreciated by me or any stuff along that line. Happy birthday ~ =)

Egoism,charismatic yet annoying in abundance...

Its been extremely busy for me, i was tied up with the club's FO camp and school.. So i thought i could blog alil before i go to sleep, tsk , waiting for hair to dry..

So we won the match , Shawn came with a casted leg -_- pff, what irony, thus i played that match... Its quite a nice fight i guess, well, i definitely feel the knees crying in agony as I pushed them to their limits jumps after jumps..Tsk, break already , if you must..

The Fo camp went pass last sat, well lotsa stuffs to improved on but we pulled through. AS i looked around the comrades which fought with me to keep the club alive , i see rusty blades... WE're tired... I'm tired... The battle had taken its toll...Its hard to put up a good fight any more.. THen i saw new faces, a new era, the young blood, which will carry on this fight , not for glory, not for recognition... but to strive for the passion that runs deep within the blood , that pushes us to triumph, the fight for SP cyclists...its been a long long journey......I'm glad that we came through...

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Egoism would best be describe by how a man overwrites perceptions given by others with his own beliefs and interest. Egoism occurs in both man and woman alike , its good to have alittle ego here and there but it definitely pisses me off when one flaunts his or her ego like its nobody business.IN this case , I'm Glad to be more exasperated with a MAN's copious ego.

I didn't really believe that egoism is anything good before , but some one, passed down a comment that egoism would add to one's charisma.I thought over it and found that its quite true that one who possesses his own set of beliefs has scored more likes and leadership qualities then some one who does not. See now , that's the time where Egoism is good to have.

However , what isn't good to have is TOO MUCH EGO. Imagine this situation, you're in a team doing some project for a client, and you believe that what ever applications you've input would work . You see your idea as a piece of art and would turn out to brilliantly and much appreciated by the client . How ever , in the eyes of many others who've seen or heard about what you're going to do thinks it isn't going to work that way. They've advise you , they tried to coax you, they've even did something which is better for you to look at , but you still hold your stand that your work is gonna work , stubbornly. You then take charge of the team and had them carry out your idea , and when you shown it to the client , he wasn't the least impressed. Voila , you pulled your team mate , and yourself into a toilet bowl full of shet, yes , you are in deep shit. Then you start thinking that the client's views are wrong and its unjust and you kept whining about the perfect plans you had. Pretty annoying now , ain't it?

Well, here's some two cents worth of advise I'll like to give . Its good to have you're own believes , and its good to fight for what you want. How ever , when the whole world thinks what you're doing is dumb , that's the point to start thinking that your are not that smart after all. Take for example King Leonidas from the movie 300 . If you've not watch it , go watch it , its a pretty nice film , good animated muscles and all. So , king Leonidas took 300 spartan soldiers out for a nice battle down the valleys of mountains with the Persians. He strongly believes that he should carry on his spartan tradition and all that shet , ditto, that's having egoism. That egoism sparked him to take 300 soldiers out to the battle fields to kill, yet quite some number from the enemy side , in fact its quite impressive what the 300 could do. How ever , They ended all dying piling on top of each other , with arrows stuck in their bodies when the Persian army came down full force on them(I can't imagine the pain if the arrow struck the , you know... part first.)Now , that 300 , what if any one of them harboured the thought that he didn't wanted to do this , but its his king's egoism that clouded his views, that he doesn't wanna voice out , in fear of spiking his king's Egoism. What if any of them would have those thoughts? Now , great egoistic one... put yourself in king Leonidas shoes, what would you do?

Well, its up to you now whether you still wanna be stubborn or not , change when in the need to ... If you still want to flaunt that egoistic "quality" of yours , you could go get yourself your little spear and shields, wear some sandals or something and go scream like some one just stick a cactus up your arse...

Kid and old man

Some times when i go out with my friends..they'll describe about the many sides of my characters ... many a time i disagree with their descriptions , because I KNOW MYSELF THE BEST! Pff, well , the reliability of that statement is questionable , so pff, i decide to start doing self assessments of myself , to show case , or admit .... the person i think i am.

I think i can be damn childish and immature at times . Just like a kid. I'ld whine and stuffs when i'm with the guys when i can't get the stuffs i want. I'ld be angry over the most meagre things like having to eat vegetables for the whole day. i'ld watch pokemon on saturdays and teenage mutant ninja turtles on sundays.I'ld show off when ever i can , like riding just alittle faster then the guy in front and smirking at him.

I can be quite an old man sometimes. I'ld complain about every thing . Even though there is nothing wrong with it , i'ld go all out to find faults which were never there. I'ld grumble just to get attention and irritate. Then i'll nag at stuffs to get them done.. oh yea , i've got back aches , knee aches and cry pain when it rains. Tsk , ah pek.

Even now i'm complaining about my knee, pff.. Vball match this thurs , think i'm not going to be able to play in main 6 , too lousy. Sigh.

Akward silence

The saturday was spent at home , sleeping and resting mostly , had a bad head ache and i went for the white one in the morning , that explains why i slept through. The thing about me and bad head aches is that they occur after a huge relieve , its like high tide of brain juices draining out as i began to relax, causing turbulence , thus head ache. Thats , comical science.

Its weird how i felt empty when ever saturdays are spent alone . Well, the fact that i'm alone contributes most of it , but i'm alone mostly , but its saturdays that hit me the most.When you work so hard or studied so hard through out the week and finally you have the week end to chill , you find that you're alone. I long for companionship , or rather, just people(or person) to chill out with.

Then i thought , maybe i need to find something to do ,usually i'll just go online. Now , going online meant i will be on msn and that didn't help much but cave me out even more. Messages began popping up , but those aren't stuffs i wanna hear . People i don't wanna talk to . Conversations i don't wanna start . It sucks.

Then again , i'll be scrolling up and down my contact list and i see people online , which i so wanna talk to . Just typing something to them. How ever , its hard , especially when you don't know what to type. Makes you feel that you don't understand them at all and perhaps its best you'ld leave them alone. That feeling is unbearable.

With so much contradictions running through , which can't be help , its hard not to feel emo and all.I began having childish and naive thoughts of stuffs , thats when i can get those imaginery scenarios i came out with before. Then i can't have the motivation to do anything . To a point that i'm just scrolling up and down my contact list , yes , going crazy.

Jeeze , i feel left out .



Sigh.

Work ends and school starts..

Today mark the last day of my intership period with Alliance spec. I don't know why i feel sad to leave the staffs . Especially the ones which were quite close with me and all. I always dreaded work and all , but when i stepped into the office one last time to see the np interns , i felt that i wanted to linger around longer. I didn't really had a chance to bid good bye properly, to the people i should . Sigh , this feeling gets me emo, i think i'm going to stop blogging now and start crying.. slash my wrist or something..

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They'll never taste the same...

April 7.. something still feels amiss...

I did mention i was tired of being the narrator of my life ... perhaps I'll rant about a few characters that came across me during the pass weeks. Some of them made me think, some of them sucked(mostly).. some of them been on my mind ... like a shadow..

Just yesterday i almost went into a heated argument with my boss. What I've experience was pure tyranny.Maybe I've yet seen or experience even worst pressure from bosses but , i deemed it as over demanding yesterday.To cut short , he gave us a pile of work to do after lunch yesterday.He asked if we could finish the work by today. The rest of the interns, i don't know why they didn't said anything but i voiced out. I said we can't complete the work by today. He looked at me and asked what would it take to complete it. I looked else where , obviously avoiding eye contact with him. Some ass said OT. The forbidden word. The boss then said that we could do OT and finish the work by today. He then asked if I've got a problem with that. I felt resentment and i said of course i had a problem , but it wouldn't be much of a problem to hinder with my work performances.

I finished my work on the spot though. When i submitted the work, my boss was surprised and said..." i thought you said you couldn't finish it on time? " I replied' yea , but i received some enlightenment when u said OT .." then he went " so you lied to me la.. when u said u couldn't finish.." I looked at the rest of the interns still doing their work... " well, that was before the enlightenment.." i ended the conversation after i finish sending the file over . The stay wasn't pleasant

I could have respected the boss ... but what he did sorta make me lose respect for him. He isn't the kinda guy who i'ld respect. I had mixed emotions as i left the building with the fact that i managed to finish faster then the interns there..it gave birth to so much more hatred ... I don't know whats wrong , but i feel that i would start avoiding them and all.

Guys out there , tell me now , what would you do if there is some one wooing the girl u're wooing and that some one gets the girl. Would u practice the code of honour of fair play ? Or would you start storing enmity for that guy or girl too? Would you be happy for that girl and accept the fact that he has got something that the girl likes and you don't? You.... i kinda expected for that to happened but when i saw it , i was quite speechless. Why would you want to be that waY?We're all grown ups , we know how to think .. beating him up won't be a resolution rite? What gives from resorting to violence? Pff, theres something called being immature , and well, i've got to say that i'm quite disappointed with you.

Sigh... what have we become? The insomnia bug hit me hard for the past week and i'm always waking up with bad head aches and stuffs. I just can't sleep. I wake up in the middle of the night , shocked from some oblivious fear... night mares? I reckon... i don't remember any of the dreams i had except for one which had this chocolate recipe in it. Weird eh .. to dream about chocolates.-_-pff... 6pills left one~

I did had enjoyable times and all during the week.Fishing with patrick ,and speaking of which , i feel so happy for you eh patrick~Ur HAPPINESS! Then i had xboxing sessions with the guys ... Fifa is leets . Too nice . Then Pz was so kind to give me my birthday present yesterday . A radio light clock thing... its cool. I like its tail and woots , i finally have a decent clock in the room.



The tail is too cool...

The world was never fair to start with...

Last Thursday night i was going to turn in when i heard this sharp screech followed by a loud bang. I rushed out of the house and this is what i saw.



Apparently , the driver lost control of the car due to its sheer power and he crashed onto that tree as seen. The ambulance and fire trucks arrived soon and i saw them try to free the driver out of his seat. I watch helplessly as they dragged the driver out of mangled car window and the paramedics performing CPR for him.I thought that the driver might be in some serious danger and i hope he'ld be OK and all. How ever , he took his last breath on the way to the hospital...

That man , was in his late 20s only. He was going home after sending his girl friend home when he got into this freak accident. He was a young entrepreneur and all. He does regular charity work and is known to be a very caring person. He could have been a great business man , he could have experience the many good things life could offer , he could have gotten married with his girl friend and have kids and all living in his small apartment. Death got him too soon. He never got the chance to do all those things he could have done .

As I saw the cleaner pick up the pieces of debris from the crash , I thought about how his loved ones would be picking up the pieces . They must be thinking how unfair and unjust life can be... Why would some one so good and nice be killed just like that. Tsk , we are so vulnerable. Condolence to who ever maybe be concerned about him and ay, i hope he find peace....

Changes

I noticed how my life changed yet dramatically these couple of days. Hammering down on me , twisting me inbetween reality and self obsessed thoughts , pff even a fluid concept would need some time to adapt. One of the major changes would be the fact that i'm not working at bukit merah any more, now i'm at shenton way .

Other then the fact that i have to travel longer on the SUBWAY~ i have to squeeze even more with commuters . Yes , i take the mrt at tanjong pagar where it is the most congested mrt station during peak hours in singapore.Well, taking the train at that moment show the true colors of singaporean commuters as they fight and shoved just for that 1x1ft of space to stand in the mrt. Packed sardines seemed to have much more space then that.

Now i'm working at the clients office , it meant that i wont' have time to go on msn nor watch videos any more. The boss mentioned something before leaving me on my own, Jc .. this is serious work, no more fooling around and do me proud. I can't help but ponder whether its some sort of testament given from him to test what i've learnt through out the six weeks at bukit merah.

Its really taxing though .. On the eyes , the brain , and the discipline. At crucial parts of the work , you can't afford to make any mistakes, and you don't know what you are doing until you try , and if u fail , thats it, one whole day of work might go down the drain .. Its like taking a shot in the dark. I think that doing Ots will become a norm for the next 2 weeks .No paid OTs would be the killer .

There were quite a few disputes over my attitude at the work place this morning. Hmm, i guess i should learn to resign my fate more often. Tsk , i couldn't help but smirk though , at the fact that some one got scolded.

Ay, too tired to give a quality post ..Will do one soon! Any what, thanks to the concerned people for showing care and alll. =D

My life , my sorrows, my happiness,my attitude, my love,myself.

"we'ld be better off as friends..."

Oddly familiar .. with that hint of dejavu when i saw that message. Its a different kinda pain though. I been running at the speed of sound , crashed and burnt . Theres much for me to learn and do . Unrelenting i am , i shall pick up the pieces slowly... don't think I'll wanna leave any behind. I sinned and cursed for being not a better man through all the stupid assumptions. I'll keep my mouth shut as i reside in this stench filled melancholy i can't resolve.

Things i can't remember

So i met up with some of pri school class mates just yesterday for a short while. I can't remember any of them.. seriously. I think i got hit by the vball too much on the head or crash on the bike too much that i seemed to lost part of my memory. Jeeze, so many names were mentioned during the meet , so many events and all.. I don't remember. I couldn't help but slipped into sub concious mode and think about what happened before. Of course it only made me more sleepy , plus the fact that i haven't had enough sleep.

Man i feel bad.. Its like i'm being ungrateful and i dont' cherish stuffs back then. I would if there is stuffs for me cherish and all..hmm.. I don't know . The peeps can remember all the stuffs and woots , i couldn't. Makes me think if 8 years later will i forget people around me now.. like the peeps from 2e1 .... the guys .. jeeze, wtf happens to me then.

Fuck .

I think I had quite a nice dinner on friday for once since allah knows when. Ay, it'ld beat dining in some other fucked up restaurants who can't differentiate between medium and medium well done steak.


Delicious till the last strand, thanks hun.

77760000 seconds of entanglement and i'm still stuck.

I don't really like my new time table for the new sem, tsk , and the fact that i'm in 3B15 meant that i'm in the third year of my life in poly . Tsk , wth , why time so fast. I haven't had enough making fun of lecturers, ponning dumb lectures, crapping with the guys , celebrating birthdays in side the lecture halls , taking poser pictures , making fun of twits girls and wth so much more. I CAN"T GET ENOUGH OF it. Damn , why did einstein invent some big fire cracker and not a time machine.

Ay, works interesting today though i'm not really in the mood to narrate about it. Ay, i'm tired of being the narrator for my life. I'm damn tired though, as in i'm closing my eyes slowly as i type this.Need sleep. seriously.

Patrick used that lousy old cam and took this picture below. Obviously i'm wowed by the capabilities of the cam...



Patrick's ,erm, hose.. caught on cam.

Ay, one month and more to come~!

Intro:
G Dsus4/F# Em7 Cadd9

Verse 1:
G Dsus4/F#
You're not alone
Em7
Together we stand
Cadd9
I'll be by your side
G
You know I'll take your hand

Dsus4/F#
When it gets cold
Em7
And it feels like the end
Cadd9
There's no place to go
Em7
You know I won't give in
Cadd9 Em7 Cadd9
No, I won't give in


Chorus:
G Dsus4/F# Em7
Keep holding on
Cadd9
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
G Dsus4/F# Em7
Just stay strong
Cadd9
Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
G
There's nothing you can say
Dsus4/F#
Nothing you can do
Em7
There's no other way
Cadd9
When it comes to the truth
G Dsus4/F# Em7
So, keep holding on
Cadd9
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Verse 2(same chords 4 beats)
So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear
Before the door's closed
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend, yeah-e-yeah

Chorus again

Bridge:
Am C
Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Am Em
Nothing's gonna change, nothings gonna change destiny
Am C
What ever is meant to be will work out perfectly
C
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

play intro chords with lalala hum

chorus to the end

Hang over mornings encore

Now little boys and girls, don't learn how to drink alcohol, booze is bad, it spoils your brain and rupture ur insides and worst of all, it causes hang overs the next morning if u happen to drink too much. You won't want that to happened, you'll be all nausea, woozy , lifeless , seeing stars or even start crapping from your ass and your mouth.

How ever if you happened to drink too much and have your hang over shet , heres a remedy. Drink plenty of water(in any case u'll be thirsty too), i don't wanna go all biological but just take it that water will wash away the alcohol toxins you take in. =) Its tried and proven .

In any case you should avoid drinking stuffs containing dairy products, or even other depressant drugs such as caffeine. Like coffee. Coffee is potent. You drink coffee when you're having a bad hang over ,pff you'ld explode like a volcano. Also try avoiding people who will most likely piss you off (i.e Your colleague whom you have a strong grudge for no particular reason) . Else the consequences can turn out quite ugly.

Thats about it, so now children.. Be good stay away from alcohol.. have orange juice or something .

~
thats it , i'm not going to drink any more!

"Jc.. please stop dreaming and face the bloody reality"

The other day i was talking to my beloved patrick and ay, i was lost for words and full of thoughts after the conversation.

We chat about how i gave up on racing and i told him that i want to give it another shot again and this time get into the national team .Why i felt so would be due to the fact that its what I've been aspiring to do ever since i started racing. I'm gave the opportunity once and i just let it pass . Now i yearn to excel in something i'm good at again.

Then he asked me, asked me a series of questions.What comes after i get into the national team? What can cycling so much do for me in the future? Will I be still cycling like that when i'm all wrinkled in my 70s ?What do i do with the medals ? How much is glory going to be worth?

I snapped.

I was taken aback and i started to think, about those questions. Its true that i can't do anything if i were to cycle this much . It won't get be any where other then great distances. I could get sponsors , medals, fame , glory but what would that all sum up to? Perhaps just another couple of more bikes to be added to the shed and maybe some health products.

I think its one of my bad habits to have this thirst to fufil other hungers then mandatory ones . Then i thought that by cycling it will fuel by deprived thirst for glory and fame and passion. Its with such childish thoughts that saw me through all these years , wasting my life mentally and physically.

I'm 19 now , 1 year more and i'll end my life as a teenager and enter adulthood.I saw how reality chase me like a salvaged beast. Its not glory and fame that feeds me , its a fucking piece of paper that writes DIPLOMA or DEGREE that would get me a piece of meat on the dinner table. People will start killing each other just to get a god damn pay rise, they'll sell out on their kins just to fufil their sales target , they'll start dumping their parents into the old folks home to make room for their own family, WE'LD HAVE NO GOD DAMN ROOMS FOR DREAMS .

Alas , I quiver at how harsh things are going to get. I snigger at people who can't adapt , i smug about what a fluid concept I am.I'ld only scream my lungs out for my hand to be held tight and never let go.

How ever , i do enjoy looking at how pissed my colleague is when i told her that she ain't the princess she claim she is and HE IS NO FUCKING KNIGHT THAT can protect her. Thats Snapping back into reality for you =)


whats false pretence when you can grow into it?

Bloggers discriminations

Working in Aspec has been a congenial experience for me. My bosses are munificently gracious with our atrocious behaviour during work even buying us tea breaks on a regular basis. We're even given ample work load that suffice us just enough to complete in time for some " quality relaxation" breaks .

Its with these breaks that allow me to able to appreciate web blogs and forums and such. I'll spent hours scourging information or scrutinizing on every little detail of a post by a good blogger. Its perchance that I developed more fancy on reading and writing web communes on the Internet.

Thus this explained the annoyance i felt while listening to the Muttons on 987 FM this morning. I've been getting my fix every morning by listening to the Muttons and their cranky jokes which never fails to perk up a lousy morning. They were frolic as the typical muttons every morning today and there was this topic about why people blog and why people not blog. Its a part of the show where by opinions are sought from the public on a specific topic given. One riposte from the common metropolitan for the topic is this . " I think bloggers are introverts as they'll rather communicate on the webs then communicate with people face to face."

Now I'm not being narrow-minded; or so if you can find any other words to describe my behaviour, but i thought that opinion was a bit far off from being fair? It was based on a generic , crude and perhaps even non-intellectual perception. I do see the light of the point made , but I'd conclude that it was meant to be a joke and it was quite a lousy one . Other wise I'm convulsed with the fact that there were such stereo types , totally repulsive.

Firstly , what has bloggers got to do with being introversive? Lets lay the definitions of an introvert first.

Introvert
noun(for this case )
1. (psychology) a person who tends to shrink from social contacts and to become preoccupied with their own thoughts [ant: extravert]

extracted from dictionary.com

Well, i believe those facts are of relevance without perplexity of my feelings in it .Then we compare it to a blogger. A blogger expresses his thoughts , lifestyles , opinions or anything that is on his mind on the blog and then it is opened for viewing to the public ,mostly friends. Now isn't that a form of socialization? I've seen bloggers making more friends by opening up their web logs to the public like kenny sia . In no way i see a blogger as a person who shrink from social contacts and to become preoccupied with their own thoughts.

Then i can't relate to how a person communicating on the web and not talking to some one face to face would be deemed an introvert. Its the 21st century , we've got touch screens , toilets cleaning your ass holes for you and stupid robots dancing making a big hoo hah. Right , point is, technology has made it possible for us to be more efficient and effective , communication via web is one of the most ingenious thIng I thought they've come out with , why does it seemed more introversive then meeting up with some one and talking to him face to face. Food for thought? I thought that person had troubles to acclimatize with the avant-garde society. Simply put , i think he is outdated.

I won't say that hey, bloggers cannot be introverts. No. Rather, I'm more like saying , bloggers are not classified under the term Introvert. Take a look around , i believe many of us are bloggers , what if its really like what that guy said, bloggers are introverts, wouldn't we be living in a nation of self obsessed freaks?

Part 2: Rider From Hell

i tottered down the carpeted stairs like i always do, holding the cup of mountain dew. he found the seat without much effort; the theatre was brightly lit still. it was rather a long wait for the movie. maybe im too kan cheong. XD he was already tasting the sweet sweet popcorns whilst i reveled in the booty-shaking reggae coming from the stereos.

the lights dimmed when more than half of the seats were occupied. movie trailers began screening. i looked around only to find sets of people who are either friends or couple. "so, which one do we fall under?" i questioned myself, randomly.

its, like, an hour or so after the show have started. a sudden vibrate in my pocket made me jump. i fished for my phone and saw this familiar twit-ish message. i was like, "what the heck?" our shoulders came in contact as he shifted himself close to me (to kpo). right, i handed him the cell without hesitance.

but strange. why would i do that? dont really have the habit of sharing personal stuff with just anyone, especially an acquaintance whom i havent seen for like 6 years and this is just our 2nd date out. heh? he even replied on my behalf. and what followed was crazy. XD

"eh, whens the last bus?" he asked as soon as we stepped out of soon tec. "i think we can still make it in time."

ay the day ended just like that? i stoned alil while waiting to cross the road. the next thing i know, he grabbed my wrist and we crossed over. Oo the firm grasp made me felt secured and safe. X3

"Slow...." he later added. zZzz and whats surprising was that i actually didnt kick his arse after that.

Some thing is starting ....

"Eh , how you know i like chocolates? Gosh, i didn't got anything for you... " She said as she looked at bewilderment at the pack of liquer chocolates .

The atmosphere got heavy for awhile and i could hear and feel my heart pumping against my chest , as if its about to jump out of my throat. With that , i'm lost for words and i couldn't say anything. Now , what is this feeling i'm getting now ? I asked myself. Seemingly familiar yet , theres a difference in it. Not exactly the same with what i had before. Its like a whole new familiar experience. Ah irony, if only it was strawberry ,we'ld have plenty of straw berry milk shake.

I looked around our surrounding , I see couples every where . Doing what they know best, couple stuffs.Pff, so this is the big deal about valentines day huh. I set my vision on her as she held the box of chocolate reading the information on it.Then i start wondering, how nice it'ld be.. to hold her hand... have her head lean upon my shoulders.. see her smile.. hug her and feel her heart beating against mine.. feel her lips press against mine.

"eh , movie starting~!"

I snapped out of dreamy land and looked at the time on my cell. Right , the shows starting, can't afford to miss it again.

The song of hate

THe past few days have been emotional and there is alot of black energy involve. I can't help but let hatred consume me devouring my insides rupturing my thoughts blinding my path. I see shades every where i look , trust was a luxury . This song accompanied my requiem every day and i hope you guys enjoy it. =D

Monday blues part 56134624

I kinda feel for those people in the working class having to wake up to the start of a week of bombardment from work.Its what i experience today, with a terrible head ache to make things worst.

Now children, its the festive season now and i know there'll be plenty of good food and these good food can be quite bad for ur health some times. So do take care of urself and try not to finish a bottle of hei be hiam at one go . Else the consequence will be varified often quite drastic.

Well, things got better as the day past by as I sweat quite alot and all. WOots, or maybe its like what ern said, the secret remedy . XD I'ld love to have that remedy everyday even though i'm not sick.

How ever, some one was being really sweet and all and got me water and medicine(fatal ones) when i was sick and all. Felt blessed and i wish i could just sing ," don't cha wish ur girl friend was hot like mine~?!" .... DOn't chA!?

Ernest belated birthday celebration.

So the fag had his brthday celebration again. This time things took a bigger scale as we had buffet at the market place at swiss hotel. It was originally supposed to be held at yuki yaki marina but i think they were turned off by the time limit.. thus they choose market place instead.



Any wat, the place we ate at had excellent service and all, louis was commenting on how those oval trays and high ball remind us of days back in raffle town club where we work as part-time waiters. It does bring nostalgia to me when i saw one of the waiter sneak a sip on a glass of coke.

Food was excellent and they had this big sea bass where every one feast on a portion of its meat, how ever by them time me and louis got back the fish was pathetically "fleshless". Woots, the fish how ever was nothing compared to the slices of abalone they serve to us and the shrimps and cray fish, which come in abundance. With so much of luxury items around, the term" spoilt for choices" would do justice in describing how we felt .


I decided to take a little of every thing , thus explaining the "rojak" plate.

I went to restaurants like cartel and fish n co and i love the soup they provide us. While Cartel and fish n co has creme of chicken or vegetable soup for their soup of the day, the market place had SHARKS FIN SOUP WITH CRAB MEAT! for their soup of the day. There is also bits and pieces of abalone in the soup. How cool is that. Its free flow too!


I decided to get alittle more creative and added bak kua into my soup. =D I had chocolate fondued prawn later too.


hei hei hei.

Of course ladies and gentlemen , the kitchen never fails to subdue that sweet tooth of yours with their own corner of desserts. From traditional chinese tang yuan stuffed with sesame paste to classic english brownies and supreme cheese cake . Top with ice cream and loads of chocolates. Then there is this 2 meters chocolate fondue machine flowing with i guess calbury chocolate or was it van houten?

Chinese dessert array.



My rojak dessert plate



sweet tapioca topped with vanilla condense milk.I like this one the most.

I didnt really go around taking pictures of what they offer us , else i'ld look like some rtard you gotto see it for urself. Woots, eating at that place isn't really easing on the wallet though , i'ld say you pay for what you eat, when the much dreaded bill came whines and groans were heard.


Argh the numbers.

Well, faggot , i hope you appreciate dinner and that poser head phone i get for you eh. ARGH >_<> IssHhshh WWiissHHhesss EeeeueeXxxx a HhhApppiEeeXxx bBBbbIIRrrttTtthh dayYyyyxxx WWwwooRrrxxxXxx, TttaaaaKkkkkeEee CCaairrEexxxx , Mmmuaacckkkksszzzxxx . Damn tiring typing twit.

Office skirmish tatics

Working in a not very small company with 4 bosses over my head wasn't one of the most desired out come from my two months of internship period. Though i'm much better off then some of the people out there, today and yesterday saw me going through a chain of events that brought me to harsh reality of work life. Its not fictional or any sort of day dream at all, its all real.

My bosses are mike , liu ,wendy and pik teng. I'm directly under pik teng but since pik teng was on leave mike had to take over. Liu was the general manager of the whole company so i fall under him to. Where as wendy is seldom seen.

I was given work by pik teng, and she brief us on what to do. See , though i knew her for only like 1 week, i think that pik teng would take a more simplified approach when it comes to work, its like a double edge sword. It'ld kill you and help you. So pik teng brief us "BRIEFLY" on what we are supposed to do and gave us , i could say, quite a simple and brief format to follow. I followed what she did and spent my past week and the whole of yesterday to write up procedures of up to 50 pages . It was simplified how ever it was still quite a chore.

Mike suddenly pop up and said he wanted to review the work with me. In my context, reviewing the work WITH me would be to look through and tell me my mistakes and all. I was wrong, totally. Mike sat next to me and said in a serious tone, tell me what pik teng tell you to do . I said the procedures and stuffs which i thought he'ld know, he looked at me and said. "I've not finish speaking.. tell me what pik teng told you to do as if i don't know anything about testing." I was caught aback. I was in a quick sand and i was sinking fast. I wasn't prepared for somethign like that and i stammered and start speaking quickly. Mike looked at me blankly and said" JC , do you know what you did just now will be reflected in ur grades?" I was flabbagasted. Mei jun , one of my colleauge also stared at dis belief and said." but Mike , what pik teng gave us was just that .. whats more JC only started on it yesterday" . Mike said" well, i'm in charge now since pik teng is not around so this is what i say."

Jeeze, and i was chatting so happily with him over lunch about bicycles .

Its not like i totally dislike Mike's character though. In fact , I like his drive. He takes his work seriously and is very precise about his assessments. AFter he pointed out my mistakes on my procedures , i found myself ashamed of myself . How could i ever think of showing that to the client! What the hell was i thinking. For that , i'm pissed with myself and i had a bad day for that. Not with Mike. Oh , i'll talk about Liu soon, but now, respects to Mike.

Well , so much for having a tough day at work I knocked off and went to meet some Soon tec girl who shoved me aside while i want to pay for my cap and paid for me instead. Ay, that sorta brighten the rest of the day up. sorta.


Telok?

Irreplacable -Beyonce

to the left to the left!

Happier Chinese New year !

WOots , its the first day of chinese new year! So exciting!

I've done quite some stuffs during the past week . I started my work at Aspec for my attachment, and on the first day of work , I love it already.The fact that I get to sign a private and confidential statement turns me on. I'm doing top secret stuffS, how cool is that . Shhwing!


My boss is so good to me that he even gave me roses for valentines day. Double Shwing .He's a GreAtY boss sial.


Chinese new year is cool. I love it when it brings back relatives i get to see for only like once a year. The kinda food that comes about once a year too is also sweet. Then the activities like the bai nian thing, the mandarin orange thing.. and most importantly the ang bao thing. Woots, i can't get enough of those. I told my mum i don't wanna get married as i wanna collect ang bao , she freaked.


Any what , heres wishing you guys with better properity , fortune , romance studies and health in the year of the boar. (hope i'm not pseudo typing)~

Fishing at the kelong

So way back Patrick took up a liking for fishing. Hes been asking me out to fish , i couldn't help but oblige. Last Saturday , we took fishing for us to a newer level as we hit my uncle's kelong located at the north eastern part of Singapore.

We managed to rendezvous a sizable group of 8 anglers from our contacts. They were Me , Patrick, jun yuan , soon ning, jia wei , Edison or sth, Benjamin and soon ning's friend. After some shopping at the tackle shop at changi village we embark on our boat ride to the kelong . We reached late after noon and as soon as i finished setting up my rig i toss it into the water to test it , and woots, i got a fish just by doing that.


Less then 15 minutes i claimed first blood.

I saw Patrick's lighted up face,there are plenty of fishes around there alright. Disappointed though the catch was a small one and its a cat fish.

It wasn't long before its night fall and the fishes we started catching seemed to be of different species. Other then the usual cat fishes , I caught a sting ray and an eel and some small tarpoon.


Not the most appetizing sight to behold

Around 9 we had monsters hitting the deck as jia wei broke his rod when a big fish struck and Benjamin burst his line . Jun yuan concluded that it might be barracudas on the lurk and our setup then was not ready for those bastards. How ever , the action still went on as Benjamin went on to land his two bat fishes with the help of jun yuan.

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Voila , the bat fish , protector of Gotham fish city.

Jia wei was demoralized by the sight of his broken rod . How ever , after hooking up a rock fish with a hand line helped brighten his day up. His friend , Edison also landed a rock fish , ay, i heard from the kelong staffs that if prepared well its a delicacy and that its sought after by some restaurants.


Its a tad bit too small for table size though , release later on.

The night went on as we caught plenty of other fishes mostly gear fish and cat fish . It was mentally challenging as we grimace through the night deprived of sleep. Some of us couldn't take it and had to hit the sack . How ever , Soon ning, our photographer for the trip, did not give in to the sleep demon and landed himself a nice table sized mangrove jack.


The fish had its picture took later on during day time , which explains the day light.

One of the most enjoyable aspects of the kelong would be the calming atmosphere it possess. The constant gentle slaps of the waves creates such an ambience it'd wash away all those stress from the busy urban life. The scenery was truly a sight to behold from the night sky to dawn. Who could ever expect to see such magnificence in Singapore.



The sun rays came seeping in and soon we were hit by the scorching golden light.My rod went for a deep dive suddenly and i wanked it hard. Fish on~ I begin reeling in and was surprised at whats the end of the line. A dog shark~


My first shark, not as big as i expected it to be though

The shark was released later as its not really edible and its quite a rare specimen . Later on the kelong staffs started feeding the fishes . There were so many fishes in the nets that i think if we were to fish all of them using the rod , we'd drop dead by exhaustion even before we finish fishing them . The food remnants escape through the netting and that attracted fishes to the net and that brought about a new feeding frenzy as surface action was seen every where , we quickly changed our rigs and started to fish for what ever caused the surface action. It appeared to be Half beaks,name kudos to Patrick's research, which were having the feeding frenzy. We caught some of those fishes , which puts up a good fight and can be whipped up to quite a good dish.


How about a game of darts?

We stopped fishing at around 9 and waited for the boat to come fetch us back to the main island. During then we took photos of our concluded catch.


Here's the basket load of fishes.

The boatmen finally arrived at 1130 am. We left the kelong as i watched the kelong becoming smaller in the horizon i got hit by the reality that internship is starting the next day . I'd wish to visit the place again soon , but the possibility of that happening would be so small. How ever , I'm so glad i came and woots, its definitely an experience I'd won't forget in due time. I think.

Over You-Daughtry

E
Now that it's all said and done,
B C#m
I can't believe you were the one
B A
To build me up and tear me down,

Like an old abandoned house.
E
What you said when you left
B
Just left me cold and out of breath.
C#m B F#m
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
A B
Guess I let you get the best of me.

(CHORUS)
E
Well, I never saw it coming.
E
I should've started running
B
A long, long time ago.
C#m
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
B
I'm better off without you
A
More than you, more than you know.
E
I'm slowly getting closure.
E
I guess it's really over.
B
I'm finally getting better.
C#m
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
B
I'm spending all of these years
A
Putting my heart back together.
F#m A
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
B
I got over you.



E B
You took a hammer to these walls,
C#m
Dragged the memories down the hall,
B A
Packed your bags and walked away.

There was nothing I could say.
E B
And when you slammed the front door shut,
C#m
A lot of others opened up,
B F#m
So did my eyes so I could see
A B
That you never were the best for me.

(REPEAT CHORUS)
(SOLO)

E
Well, I never saw it coming.
E
I should've started running
B
A long, long time ago.
C#m
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
B
I'm better off without you
A
More than you, more than you know.

E
Well, I never saw it coming.
E
I should've started running
B
A long, long time ago.
C#m
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
B
I'm better off without you
A
More than you, more than you know.
E
I'm slowly getting closure.
E
I guess it's really over.
B
I'm finally getting better.
C#m
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
B
I'm spending all of these years
A
Putting my heart back together.
E
Whoa oh ah oh
B
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
C#m B
Whoa oh ah oh
A
'Cause I got over you.
E
Whoa oh ah oh
B
Well I got over you.
C#m B
Whoa oh ah oh
A
I got over you.
F#m A
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
B
I got over you.

I'ld let u over take me.. i can't and won't chase after you.

I woke up this morning with a very sharp pain on my knee.. its like its getting worse. Damn.

I did my stats paper today. I'm like so fucking screwed . I think every one is. The paper is like so fuckking difficult , so much different from the past years ones i did.I can see foams coming out of mouths.. i see hair pulling .. i see rolling eye balls.. Tsk,damn ken kwan. Damn his gay paper.

Cranked out , burned out , stress out, fuck up, I joined the guys for steam boat at bugis. Well, putting the stress from the exams aside , i've now got 4 days to play, before Itp starts. Jeeze, I pray to God to slow time down during these 4 days please. Let ITP seem so far away.. please..

We had this Ma la steam boat. Ma la = very spicy. Its really so damn spicy that i thought i'ld die if i drink the soup from the steam boat.


Potent poison

Ay.. I'ma go enjoy every minute of my 4 days to the fullest now!


The pills won't work.

I'm better off now , thank you.

Woots, last paper later on. I'm so looking forward to it. Too much muggings kills.

So after tml's paper i've got like 5 days to play before its ITP. Dang, 5 days.. how am i supposed to play enough.

More blogging to be done soon.




Bad subtitles?

Theres a reason why happy endings are fictionous

This will be a post of myself and my day . Don't bother reading if you are looking for smth else.

Had a bad day today. A very bad fall. Alicia left us already , a big dismay . The fact that now we don't have an officer which understands the plight of the cyclists worries me. The letter box was opened today. Too much information was stored in there for too long. I felt the immense regret and dissappointment when i saw those demerit points. I kinda felt betrayed. I was pissed with myself .

The dispute over the club rooms had really pulled me down alot. The debate with the rock climbers had gotten quite hostile over the weeks . Every time i thought it was getting some where , its back to square one again. Today,i had yet another set back now that another officer had told the daiko drums to put the drums into the new room. I don't have any idea whats that all about ,and its bobbing me alot .Now that alicia is gone , i've one less option to rely on. The game is getting very tough to play , seemingly handicapped , and i feel the heavy pressure building up .

I fear the worst to have the club being closed down,at the hands of mine. I try my best not to let the club members down and every time i did , i hated that feeling. I haven't been a very good leader to start with perhaps. There is just so much going through that little or none would understand.

10 messages for 10 different characters on a saturday morning.

1) Shut up because I don't want to hear you speak. You're a dick head and its the likes of you that makes life suck. You have no sense of humour so stop, its not funny. Maybe you don't have common sense at all to startwith. Just your presence alone makes my day go bad, why can't you just bury your face some where or just burst in to atoms or something like that?

2) And YOU! Don't think i'll forget you.You just have to kick some one who is down on the floor right? What , are you some mental deprive or something? Stop thinking , its you! Its not like there are many people out there who would do what you did.Utterly shameless . Wait. You never consider what others perspective for you is right. Whats shame to you.Arrogant self centered bastard.

3) The world doesn't revolve around you now so wake up. Whats your problem pushing every one around and giving your own responsibilities to others who didn't deserve them. You wanna live a life , every one else wants to . Please do what you're supposed to do . Have profession in being somebody who holds responsibilities ,not a jerk.

4) I knew what you did . I saw those words you've said and you didnt know how much hate i had build up . Now i'm telling you ,mofo, u're one of the worst. If you're name were to be a verb or a noun or an adjective in a dictionary, you'll be describe with so much negative adjectives , verbs that it'ld fill up a page on the dictionary.Yes , the fonts u get from and mini oxford out there.

5)Look , our existence is nearing 1/5 a century on earth , but how come you make me feel like you have a mentality of a pre school? I ask you another question, are you a retard? I ask you another question again, are you mentally challenged? I ask you yet another question again , do you understand the words above? They are refering to you.

6)I'm really glad that you existed . I'm really glad that you met me . Or i met you.. Ay, one way or another. I'm glad. If i could ever ask for more is for me to spend more time with you. I could never get enough of it . All this time , i just wanted to tell you these..i think=D

7)You're always there for me . Showing support , cushioning my fall. Every time i felt cold and shunned i felt u're warmth embrace me.If i could,I wished that i could always be there for you. I regret not having the selfnessless attitude you had. Sorry

8)We would talk all night through if we could. I know that.This un limited words that just kept flowing out like infinity just seems so magical. Its people like you that spicen up my life , paint the grey skies blue for me. Thanks eh.

9)Jeeze , its been so long. Where the hell are you ?Its been great having you around back then , but when? zomg , its been so long since we last talk. I hope u're doing fine eh, tsk , i miss you. Don't worry , i'm sugar free. XD

10) Hey. I love you. YES , you. Not just some other pretty faces around. More then what meets the eye. Its you. Yes, i love you. Say you do too please.

Epidemic

I really shouldn't be posting now.. It makes me feel too guilty.Oh well.

So , the sem tests are next week. Damn , time passed so fast , i can't catch up. Maybe i don't need to after all.

Been studying and playing lotsa vball lately. I had this sudden urge to pick up an alternative language , spanish or french would be nice. However , the asian fever still remains and i think jap would be good too, no korean. =D Ay, i think it'ld be qutie some time for that to become a reality. Theres so much stuffs to do.

Some one called me today and asked me to go over to India to volunteer to help the needies there. I was like, Zomg, of all place India. Imagine. Me and that place. I think those who know me well should know the consequences. Nevertheless, i agreed . I thought it'ld be a good experience and its a good time for me to atone for sins i might be committing. Any one wanna join ? I can ask for extra slots.

I was talking to Jp about passion and stuffs.. We lose passion over certain things over time and all. Some times we quit. How ever , there are things that we can't quit . We can't just say no because we don't have the passion to do so. Like our job , or academic wise , our studies. Some times , our passion got to do with the purpose of what we do. Like i cycle because i enjoy cycling . Purpose of cycling is to enjoy cycling.I can't possibly fufil the purpose of enjoying to cycle if i've lost my passion to cycle.

I turned down the offer from saca to join the team's training.There are just too many reasons i can't and won't go. Mainly the lack in passion. I guess. Then there is the excrutiating pain as well. I can't train well under these circumstances.Its kinda sad.Again.


Help us!

Thats was categorised under the word POINTLESS

So recently saw a growth spurt of hopeful star wannabes on national TV . From the dance floor , to the idols series and super stars and so on. I lay my hands down and praise the courage these people have packed in themselves when they went for these competitions which is portrayed to like millions of people. Point made , if you're good they can see, but if you're bad you're going to have halve a world making a joke out of you. Now that's true courage for you.

I love these reality competitive shows. Its so packed of drama , emotions , reality and woo ts. COMEDY.I love the beginnings for these shows. The beginning of these shows are like the best part of it. It gets boring towards the end. -__- Ironically enough.

Its where the parodies , accidents , comedians by nature , emotions all come out . I love it. Especially when the judges of the competition had their face like this..-_-Or we have Simon Cowell on the show, I love logical sarcasm




I wish they can just air the beginnings of the shows . Just that would do. =D

Thrown of the tracks

Projects are all dued today, and it was all cleared nicely. Much thanks to my team mates i guess.. I'm supposed to feel relieved, but i'm not getting any better.I guess nobody understands what i'm going through cause i didn't told any one. No, not that i don't want to, i didn't know who , or what , or how or when or where to have some to talk to . Don't try, I can't talk if i just couldn't.

Some times i don't know what i'm going through too, cause i will just start looking at the bigger picture and get all these dissappointments coming back at me. No , I'm not ok. I got plenty of words to say , i've got a million words which relates to sadness running in my head.

I don't mean to hurt any one when i'm like that. I tend to. Well, i'm just a fucked up personality to start with rite?

$1.10 movie ticket

Thank god its Friday night and I don't know how i did it, but i survive yet another week in sp..

So i stayed in school for some good rotting session after which i joined the guys and we went to bugis aiming to get clothes for itp. We couldn't get any thing much but i got myself a pair of pants for 25 bucks. Its a rip off. =D

Guys night out is fun ..

The rain was unrelenting though , it went on for the whole day. I'm not exactly annoyed with that , in fact i actually preferred the cool weather,but its annoying to walk around with wet shoes .

I boarded the bus home , and it was damn packed and i didn't topped up my ez-link card. I only had $1.10 of coins with me then , i prayed for the bus conductor to be kind and let me board, thank god he did.I played the zen with my newly created play list . All the hits i love~

The passengers eventually filled up the bus and i was standing at the front door, so packed that i couldn't even raise my arm to retrieve my bus ticket. Then the bus stop and the entrance open , grumpy old man wanted to board the bus but it was filled to the steps of the entrance already. He then pushed and shoved his way through , almost toppling midget guy in front of him. Then grumpy old man went on rapping in hokkien that he needs to push , or else he won't be able to get on board(deciphered with my Superb hokkien) .

Midget guy couldn't stand him and shouted back in another series of hokkien words translated..." WTF , want to fight is it? Why keep pushing.. want to fight come on la. " I was quite shock that he actually said that to grumpy old man. Though any normal person will be pissed, i think they just will get off with the fact that he is a grumpy old man who is most probably senile already. The grumpy old man didn't gave in and went on ranting in hokkien explaining why he push and shove and he doesn't want to fight.Midget guy of course got angrier and was already in some sort of weird fighting pose.

This is where i get in the picture. I was caught in between them both, quite closely, as the bus is extremely packed. Breaking Benjamin's songs always get me into mode where i seemed to live on hate. Diary of Jane was playing when the both of them are arguing, i couldn't take it any more I put my arm on the pole in between them and stared at midget guy.

He seemed appaled and turn to me with anguished eyes."What the fuck u want? You want to fight is it? He push me first!" midget guy retorted. Grumpy old man was ushered by a kind lady who offered her seat to him . I continued my gaze, as cold as i could make it , at midget guy. Some other passengers made a small path with the little space they had and told midget guy to move inside . The midget guy continued his "I dare you to beat me " stare for moments and turned to the old man and shouted " you better be careful..." in hokkien and walked to the rear of the bus with one last stare at me.

I could still hear grumpy old man grumbling in hokkien to the guy seated beside him and that guy was annoyed as well and put on his ear piece. Pff, he is one hell of a jack ass grumpy old man alright.Yui was singing her song to me when i slip back my ear piece, ever so sweet.Well, so much for my $1.10 worth of movie ticket.

Forget a thousand moments, brace a million changes..

I chance by a child hood friend i've forgotten way back . He lives just opposite my flat when i was still living in the small three room flat with mum and dad. Memories of my days there were vividly etched at the back of my brain. We moved thrice , least, i've moved thrice .

We chatted and caught up on the bus . We didn't contact each other like we promised we would after i moved. Hah, promises back then to a kid , wasn't something meant to be broken. How ever , a kid being a kid, tends to get over stuffs fast enough not to be bound by them.

I found out he still lives at the same block but at a different flat. Theres been plenty of changes , some which made me think alot. His mum was sent to IMH, yes institute of mental health . I remember she use to scream like a mad woman at him for being mischievous and all, i didn't really wanted her to be really insane. His dad stayed strong and provided for his studies and all. Flabbergasted i was taken more aback by more things that happened.

We used to hang out at another neighbour's house as they have a Sega game console. We'd played all day there. It was a big family in that home and its never livelier. I remember the ah mm which cooks nice desserts for us when ever we are at their place. Then there is her husband , a sombre and quiet man , who seemed to share the same existence of an empty space. I swear I've seen him smile ever this once when we were at their place. The last time i saw them he was bed ridden as he had stroke. My friend told me that he had passed away about 2 years ago , and his wife followed shortly.They were remembered as a very loving and kind couple.

Then there is this two girls , sisters, who live next to my place. Ay , its quite funny things we did back then. Sega games were sometimes forbidden ,when we didn't did our home work or did something gravely wrong , like breaking a TV . (That's another story. ) We play family games, kinda corny but our version was quite awesome . We combined a mixture of cartoon heroes and role played a cartoon hero family game. Thus you can cater to boys and girls alike. We always argue though , on who gets to be the Mum and Dad. Those were the good times. Their lives turned way ward. The elder sister had a child at the age of 18 and the younger sis ran away from home. Their younger brother is still schooling and doing fine though.

It seemed too much for me to take when he relate what happened when i was gone for the 10 years. Things that were once cherished are taken away and never given back. Times that were share never came back.I've forgotten the names of every one of them , I've forgotten more things then i could remember. And what, i'm only 18.. theres so much i've forgotten , whats gives when i get older.

Get him a lady, not a whore.

So i've been away from home the past couple of days. Ay, i wished i could do that more often.

Was fishing again with ern , soon , bahamut and for awhile shawn.The night was good at broke back village , though the rain did gave us abit of the problem earlier in to the night but it all went well.


They braved the full blast of god's pee

Fishing is fun, whether there is fish or no fishes. Its the company , and the serene ambience which is a scarce commodity now adays, that makes fishing good. We did managed to caught some 20 + fishes though , which cat fishes form the majority .The cat fishes are threw back and the rest retained for the bbq the next day.


Fresh sea food always taste good .

Had chalet with the people from 13 ... Ay , weird eh , what the hell am i doing at their chalet. So out of place. Oh well,guess there aren't any chalets that won't make me feel out of place around.

Ay, to the person involve (You know who you are) , congratulations for getting what you wanted . We're happy for you. =D Make it last please.

You... E

Yesterday night was drinking night again. I went to sleep reeking alcohol and i had a dreamt.

This girl in the pic was singing .



I didn't want to wake up from that dream. But i eventually did.. and i woke up with a bad hang over and something else.

My new year resolution (2007)

I aim to ...;

1. Have better grades this year
2. Have an eligible person to take over the club
3. Give people back what i'm given from them
4. Have a secured 3k in the bank
5. Sell cookies once more
6. Perform at band edge
7. Go hokkaido
8. Revisit Redang

This year.