HaPpY BiRtHdAy To mE~!~!

Hur hur, soo its my birthday today... lets see.. had quite alot of happenings today...

First ting in the morning.. was late in meeting jp they all.. kinda over slept.. Lol.. They were angry budden cnanot show it.. Lol SO funny.I saw jm there den i kinda.. EH!!! coz she was supposed to be working.. together with yu hui and calin.. Really feel elated tht they took an off for me juz to celebrate my birthday with me.. They still had to rush here and there..Really , felt for their effort, even way back, i already told Jm not to buy the gundam ler... too stressed up for them...

We went to watch the movie.. son of the mask.. kinda wacky i tink.. AFter which.. We went to haigen dais to buy a birthday cake for me.. LOL, very nice sial.. the ice cream cake..



AFter tht calin san li and yu hui and jie min went to work ler...

Tht leaves us with jp. and gay ct and km.. Haiz.. with the 4 of us left.. time started to pass really slowly..

At first we want to wait for jm they all for a while at the bus stop.. budden Km say sian.. then i suggest we go marina square walk around.. DEn every one was having a pc face.. Ct had a stomach upset and kept complaining... haiz. jp was also tu lan .. MM..

den we walk off from marina square.. then there was nth to do ler.. i suggested to go bugis.. but jp dun wan.. Then ct say go his house eat steam boat... Then we go back bp.. Gay went home coz he say he tired.. Den left with me ct km and jp. I suggested for ct to go home to wait for us as he seemed to be in much pain.. Then i km and jp went sheng siong to go buy the food.DEn we changed placed to eat.. to jp house.. we asked ct if he could still go .. he said ok.. at first..

We then brought the food.. i carried the food and all to jp;s house with her while km went back to take the steam boat.. While at jp house.. ct msg and say he cud not make it.. den i was like.. den her bro come in and say tht there will be guest coming later.. so her house not fang bian liao.. Den i was like sian.. My plan to salvage my birthday had failed.. I told km not to come ler.. den i and jp wen to fajar to have dinner.. Ok la... still have smth nice.. Had a tok with jp over the series of events tht happened Today. Mm ...

After tht went home.. feeling kinda empty.. smsed xn if they could come out and chill or smth.. Lol, den they say no time.. AFter tht they called me out.. haha.. Then the also buy a birthday cake for me. LOl. another cake.. kinda cool..



quite impressed by wat they did in such a short time.. there was quite a no of ppl there.. kk ben yat yan Doreen Evan JJ and Xn.. LOL not bad.. first time they celebrate my birthday .. first time had two birthday cakes.. WEll tht kinda... salvaged every ting..haha

k la...I am stilll very happy over my birthday ...I missed my jie alot.. i feel so lonely now at night.. ~~

Lol, jus received tis smses from my friends.. Hehe, so glad tht i have them around..Thks to the ppl who wished me at msn too.. THkS ALOT~!

Wei En

YO its me again wanna wish u happy 17Th bday . Got more strands of white hair le hehe. may all ya wishes cum true & stay happy 4eva.Smilez more la

Chong tuck
Happy birthday... May ur dreams come true and all the best... lastly... PLZ PLZ faster go find a gf fast! stop sticking with me .. i also need to finda GF. Haha

LOl i see tis one i luff till i peng

JIemin

To my dearest Didi .. happy birthday! ! hee no matter where u go u must remember me as ur jie ok ! hee

calin

Happy birhtday dude.. hope everyting goes well to u .. all the best whereever u go u will have my blessings

Shallyn

Happy birthday! may all ur dreams and wishes come true.. stay hapy =)

Dun make tings so difficult for every one..

Mm, so.. tomolo is the day i get to hear happy birthday from friend all around me who care for me .. Lol.

Today ct km and jp came over to me house and i cooked spagethi for all of them. LOl, the lunch was kinda gr8 i tink .. at least i dun nid to spend my birthday eve alone. They were kinda arguing juz now abt my birthday tomolo... so much so tht i tink they tot of cancelling it. Lol, not tht i mind or wat. but i hope they dun get so bothered and so frustrated over it , i want my birhtday to be a joyous occasion and all. Its even better if they dun celebrate as it wud save those head ache and all.

I had a wish which can only be fufiled by two person on my birthday but it seems tht its impossible now as its juz too difficult for the both of them. SO then its ok, I'm still good without the wish being fufiledd and all.A sms of greetings and all wud do good..

Mm, later gonna go cycling bahz.. count my time away on my bike to my birthday lol. haha, happy advanced birthday to me bahz.!

Orite, its been quite sometime since i posted.. hur hur, kinda lazy to post recently.. busy playing Ko. Lol.

Mm, tomolo we'll be having a friendly match with bp csc. HUr hur, Dunno wat it'll turn out to be. I've now got a sprained wrist.. My right wrist some more.. damn of the best of time..

2 days ago we went working at sentosa golf club. The place was sweet and neat . Damn, the food were good too.. It was also ct's first day at work and well.. he turned out pretty diligent at work. Nt bad.

Today was at the pets Exhibition at IMm. it kinda suck, i tink, nth much to see. HUr hur oh weell, i did manage to buy tht super Big pack of nutro dunno wat choice dog food for the Mutt. Mm, for the first time today.. i bought all three animals out for a walk today. The two rabbits and the dog.. Hur hur, kinda like an excursion.

After tht, went to meet ct km and jp. Had quite a nice chat under the blocks and all, Mm tok alot, and they sorta, Tok abt wat had happened before too. Lol, digging the past.

Mm kinda tink tht i am abit less.. concerned abt tings happening around me,is it supposed to be good. I kinda tink it is.. lol, at least i get to live my secluded life.

Peizhi said tis from some time before..

"Friends truly accept u for who u are.. "

Kinda stuck myself on tis quote for quite long.. maybe thts why i began to learn to accept tings tht i've not before.. LOl, well done A.Z

The way

Orite.. tok abt yesterday. We kinda celebrated km's birthday yesterday

Met up early in the morning with ct to walk to Pjc to pass in the withdrawal letters and sch fees.AFter tht we took the bus to lot 1 to meet up with the rest of the peeps. KM can't make it to the movie so we went to watch the movie without him.We watched Hitch, the cure for the common man. Mm, like gay said, man watch ler know how to woo gers more.. girls watch ler know how to reject guys better. hur hur, wat was tht abt..

Any way, after the movie we met up with the remainding of the peeps.. ch said he'ld turn up after wards.The sushi buffet was kinda fun.. A new experience for me too. nvr been to one.. er erd.Was damned full.. tink i almost ate 20 plates. Mm, after waiting for chong hoe for very very long.. we decideed not to delay the cutting of the cake any more.. so i went down to collect the cake together with jie. After cutting the cake and all.. we couldnt finished the cake. esp the cream.. dammmit. So full of cream.. dunno wats with gals and cream. I prefer the mango cake.

After tht .. had another set back. Km dun wan to go watch movie...but the rest of the peeps wanna go watch movie.. had quite a difficult time. In the end.. he went to join wei sheng at town.. so we were left alone. We den decided to go watch movie at jp. hur hur. White noise. ON the way there ch smsed. Which kinda made me pissed. He said.."sorrie i can't make it juz now.. coz haven buying presents... Ps. WHY FIND ME SO URGENTLY...." dammit. i do question the way he regards us at time.

All well, we went to Jp watch white noise.. hang around here and there. Den went home. On the bus.. saw MF and his gf.We alighted at jie's house cuz jp wanna take smth from her. After tht we walked home.. FROM HIll VIew.. ARgh~!~!~! I dunno why.. but i felt like an idiot ..

k ... thts abt all.. Today nth much happen. go sch play vball den come back ler.. tomolo got work.. CT will be working for the first time tomolo....To whom it may concern.. remember my model kit of the blitz gundam ...

Sianz...

I dunno why everytime liddat one.... training then he will liddat esp wen bm ppl are here. Si buay sianz.. ITs like.. Kk's gonna be one of our team mate.. den he liddat . I understand tht he felt sad wen his place in the main six is threatened.. but does he have to over react..To the extend tht he is making ppl irritated too.


Haiz... tomolo will be a better day.

Destined.

Mm.. now adays after the o's alot of decisions are made.. These decisions had made us go seperate ways ler..after much of a sage, every one had took their path ler.. its time to say good bye .

I've been pondering abt it for quite a long time.... But finally i still agreed tht i couldn't and musn't make them stay for my own selfish reasons. Hmm, no matter wat... I'll support them fully in every thing they do..

Was at the beach tis morn ... hur hur.. cycled there at the bleak of dawn , the morning dew was cooling and all... I reached sentosa at abt 7.. Mm, long time no do tis kinda ting ler.. Cycled around and decided to sit at siloso beach . Dunno why ... sitting alone do help some times.

Reached home at about 11 .. juz nice to watch gundam seed. Hehe. From then on wards.. i kept waiting for some one to ask me out.. Finally km called me to jio me to go play lan games with him.. Probly.. tis will be the last time in some time i play war craft with him.....

AFter tht we went home ... den i met up with ct again to go to jp house to do the registering ting again.. however to no avail. Gone back from the infutile trip at 11 and reached home.. Jm told me tht she could help with the registerations so i told her my singpass and all. I registed Business info tech at sp as my first choice.. Mm, for the rest.. ijuz picked randomly

Temperate

Dunno why.. now adays.. i get fed up easier den before ler..

Today went to pjc only to be upset with set down no 1...Played vball there for halve a day den... Mdm chan came over to say tht the moe couldnt allow me to go in to Jc with such.. Amazing marks. BUT the sch really wants me to get in and they deeply regretted.. hur hur.. oh well, wasnt tht pc coz i tot i cud go to poly for business course ... till i got home and xue ning told me tht i cant with my grade for english.. ARgH~!~!~den i was like.. how business is my fav lehz.. and its my interest.. I was beginnning to have suicidal tots already..

AFter tht I couldnt find my singpass and couldnt log into the web site. Damn pc... I was like throwing tings around in search for my singpass ler lo.. oh weelll ben called me to collect the Ko setup disc from in .

ON the way back ct call.. i was riding my bike.. after the conversation.. I was putting back my hp wen i accidentally dropped it .. I was on the middle of the road.. and i couldnt retrieve it .. SO i have to get off my bike ... there was alot of car passing by and i hoped eagerly tht they wun run over my hp.. But eventually.. a taxi mowed over it...~~~ i was like.., SHET.. after chking there was no vehicles already.. i retrieve my hp.. Hur hur.. IT seems alrite to me after chk and all.. THe hp is alrite.. Belive it or not... it was dropped at quite a high speed .. And it was mowed over by a taxi on the wheels. And it still alrite.. dammit my fone is hard core...

After tht series of happenings.. km called me .. he told me to work tomolo.. he says ct will be working too.. den i was like.. Mm, ct and me gt vball ler.. ct will wan to work mehz.. i called ct up and he said km did tell hm to work.. but he refuse to.. I was like.. Hur hur, so much abt trusting him.

Went back home and tried installing the Ko , but to no avail.. ARghz, after so much.. i still cannot get it installed. Dammit.... I am soooo Tu lan now. GRrr

Crucial times are always short...

MAnz.. yesterday only went to sleep at 2 40.. today woke up quite early.. then my head ache did not go away.. from yesterday till now.. Running a fever also liao.. Damn.. and time is so crucial now.. its like.. I 've gotto make tis big decision by thursday lo.

Early in the morning went to take the locker key from jm to yh. But yh.. took very long to come down.. so i called calin.. and passed it to her as i was rushing to meet up with ct.

I met up with ct .. den we went to sch.. we couldnt contact mr sng so we walked along the 2.4 km path along with the taf club members hoping tht mr sng would be at the end taking their attendance.. but he wasnt there.. So we passed the forms to the head prefect.. Faizal.

After tht we walked to pjc through a short cut.. really fast.. we reached there in abt 15 mins.BUt the ting is we cudnt go in.. The sercurity guards wun let us in..So we went back home on the bus..

Went home.. already feeling feverish ler,.. so sleep for a while. Was awaken by ct's fone call abt 2 hours later... asking me to acc him to the bank to make his bank card. Mm, i was feeling better ler.. so acc him.. Den jp called also.. saying to acc her to victoria concert hall along with jie. I agreed also.. So i went to meet up with ct first.. We walked to the bank.. but seeing tht there is so many ppl...We skipped the bank and directly boarded the bus to find for jm and jp.

I called jm onced we reached the bus.. but she said she cannot make it .. Den i was like. sian liao lo.. ok la.. my fault la, i am supposed to call her before hand coz i was tinking they are ready ler.. Mm so tht resulted in me waiting at the bus stop under the harsh scorching sun together with an idiot who kept scolding me .Hur hur, did not rebel much .. coz i understand y ct so tu lan.. i also at fault. After a while he also cooled down then be come siao again liao... -_-

Den jp they all came... jp also ticked me off for not teling them before hand.. den i was like.. wah piangz... Abit fed up at first.. but decided to keep every ting to myself ler..We went to victoria concert hall.. me and ct wore shorts and slippers.. and we were like.walking the whole of the cdb area.. hur hur. Mm, on the way back home.. we had quite a lil discussion abt jp's decison.. Can see she had quite a tough time back there debating with ct and jm. I was .. in my head ache mode so i didnt quite give any opinion.. i also dun wanna give much opinion... i've only told her wat she shud be clear of when she takes tht path of wat to expect and the preperation.. maybe not acadamedically.. but also abt the environmentally and the mentally la.... mm, no matter wat jp does or wat path she chooses.. i'll definately give her my fullest support as she's some one i care for ..

Had a conversation with xw.. halve the time i was ... hehe , he ddint changed after all. He still discourages ppl and all.. Mm, i also heard tht he kinda mocked at those who didnt did well in front of them.Oh well, the theory of the turning over a new leaf does not work now. Er erd. Orite i gotto go before my head ache kills me.. ciao..

Shagged

Today went for vball..

Mm the bm ppl was hear today.. damn..today dunno why.. like shagged... Dun have any intention to jump and run.DEn make till today's performance not very good.

after training went riding with yk ... We passed by the tunnel under bke.. According to stories from tv.. tht place was actually.. Haunted.. Thts why wen yk suggested of going there.. i told him not to.. Den we we exited the forest. i told him.. den he said.. he almost wen there alone yesterday... AT night some more..~

AFter tht met up with km to change yk's stem. Not bad.. his bike now really looks racey. Then tis sun .. organized a ride to sentosa. WOotz, not bad.. quite a lot of ppl going.. hopefully every ting turned out well tht day.. er erd. Mm, Smths happened yesterday.. which made me reflected.. and it made me missed some times.. i had back then, hmm... Dunno ~

I open my eyes i tried to see but i'm blinded.. i cant remember how and why i am lying here tonight.

Wootz, today early in the morning went out for work ler.. Thou still felt kinda dizzy.. Mum sent us there today. hehe ,so we kinda got there early.

dangz the uniform i wore today is damned small.. very uncomfortable.

At the start of work.. every ting was quite strict coz we still dunno each other yet.. There is tis captain.. Kinda fierce, den wei sheng and i was like. keep on pointing fingers at her at her back. She really very kao bei one.. heng she nvr group with either of us. Hehe, Km went to be the runner today.. Er erd. Coz he tokked too much.. den the manager put him there. Lol.

I paired up with a captain... her name funny, Ah chow, and another gal. then she started calling me ah boi ler.. Abit irritated by tht coz tht time at pearl river all the cap there call me xiao di~. So i juz told her my name.. the manager passed by and i also told him my name. Muaha, i'm known now at the legends. Today juz serve the vip room. Kinda shiok. Hehe, xiao chow kept tokking wit me also. She juz wont belive tht i'm 16. Hehe.

Wen the guest leave we clear the food.. then i see alot of nicely portioned left overs by them.. den i was tinking.. wah piangz.. so wasted.. I told xiao chow.. den wah liao.. she say i go eat.. den she close the vip doors say cannot let the manager see.. Wah piangz, she really very nice sial. I didnt eat in the end coz i not hungry.. i asked whether ws and km can eat or not.. she say cannot. Whaha.. wen i told ws and km they so pc.. At pearl river also liddat.. at here also liddat.. the capt all treat me gd .. Wahah, den xiao chow kept quarreling with Km and ws also. Er erd.

AFter tht We went to collect our pay.. AT orchard saw tio Kp.. k la.. actualy she saw tio me den suddenly pull my bag.. Long time no see her.. didnt know she was still alive.. Mm, maybe i shall suggest tht we go on outings with her..

After tht went to sch for training..Wootz, went to help ch coach the b gals.. They really kinda... Pathetic.... there are only 4 gals. not even enuff to play a game.I was like.. how to train.. But i belive you zhi zhe shi jing chen..if we train some of them.. the c girls tis year will join up with them next year.. then maybe a miracle can happen... '

Mm, after tht went upstairs to join the rest.. training today was sian again. Yk was tu lan.. coz ch dun wan to sub him in .. I was like.. dunno wat to say.Technically ch was doing the rite ting bahz.. coz his receiving was better ler.. But mentally.. it was devastating for yk bahz. Den during the matches and all following tht he also any how play ler.. we outsiders see ler also pc.. Its like, if thts a real competition and he kept coming out tis kinda pattern.. we will die ar. I do hope Gy comes back and yk go play the main spike.Tht would benefit every one lo....Aiya.. dun wan tok bad abt tis ler.. nt very good too..

Mm, tomolo got two lots of tings to do.. go do the sing pass ting..and then cut my hair... sianz.

Wah...

Wootz now very tired.. Juz now was a working at pearl river.. ehe. REally not bad lehz.. its better then i expected it to be.. definately better then my previous job.. but the pay is far off la.. hehe

Early in the morning met up with ws they all.. den went to the restaurant... we were late ler.. den kinda go scolded by the manager.. Hehe, gen yuan they all there. Its like, the whole restaurant was zheng hua's one. Hee, nth like my previous job lo.. where i face every ting alone. THere was two section today.. we did both.. lunch and dinner.

During lunch.. i dunno anyting about chinese cusine.. though tht time tht guy from raffles tot us already, but i tink their style different.. here they use a simpler version bahz.. but i still dunno wat to do.. hehe. But My captain was good.. both of them are.. They keep on coaching.I got paired up with gy.. hehe Very funny one la..We keep tokking den our captain come over say even though nth to do cannot tok until liddat.. Muz find smth to do .. Act act. wah i here liao really sehz lehz..My previous job even my mum also wun gimme tiao gang until liddat ar.AFter tht the customers all came in.. all was fine until A custormer ordered for juices.i was holding the round tray.. then got orange and lime juices.. den i was serving wen a customer suddenly turn her head and knocked onto the tray.. Heng.. the juice all pour on me..Every one in the restaurant wen Oohh... so sia suay sial.

Tht ended it all.. hehe another funny ting during lunch time is.. my captain and other captain all keep pointing and like.. tokking abt me .. Den one of them call me over.. ask me how tall i am.. den i say 183... dey all go wah... hur hur every where all same reaction one.~ Den they ask me wat age i was again den i say 16.. den they go wah again.. ~~ pengz

After lunch me km dan and ws go suntec and marina square walk around....Mm we had two hours of break time.. actually we wanted to sneak into oriental for free food one.. but km dun wan... so we went to the food court at marina square..wah ehz.. daniel is a really good guy lo.. he keep ordering food for us.. ~ Wah.. if singapore got 1000 ppl like him ar.. the economy will be so much better.

AFter tht we went to sit at mac.. hhe... for some time.. before we go back to work again. Again there was some misunderstandings as the agent wasn't there to give us the voucher... Mm, i tink he also busy. But nvm.. the 'qian hui' looking manager still gave us a voucher.. she still say we are not at wrong its the management fault.. wah ehz.. realy lo.. tis job is good.. my job tht time ar.. if any ting wrong and u are there.. u are at fault one lo..~~

There wasn't much tings to do at night la.. coz customers lil.. hehe den my captain came over and tok to me .. she ask.. wat if i eat beef..Den i say HUh? den she huh back.. den she ask again.. Den i say got la..Den she say huh.. who cook one.. den i say i cook myself la.. ~ den she ask again. ur mum leh..i say working.. den she ask wat occupation den i say.. den she ask my dad leh.. den i say i dunno.. coz i really dunno.. den she ask me why liddat.. den i also say i dunno.. i say my dad doesnt live with us tht much.. den she ask why again.. den i say jia chou bu ke wai yang.. Den other captains come over liao..and listen to the conversation.. I was like.. i was the only one wearing white there.. den they are all in red.. ~ dangz.. Out numbered me.Then the manager come over ler.. they all siam away.. wahahah.. funny .

AFter every ting... we packed up at 10 30.. Wootz. not bad..

I tink i really like tis job .. in comparison to my previous one. Wah ehz.. Its like, i wun feel left out de sial.. nt bad.. hehe. Some more.. i get to see more chio bus den before here HIak hiak.

Cheated

Mm,kinda shagged today,,

Early in the morning woke up and meet up with km .. hur hur.. we then joged to cck stadium.. Kinda siong.. den we went swimming. AFter tht slack ler.. hehe.. go jacuzzi.Hehe , den we saw a kinda nice looking gurl sun tanning.. den km keep desiaoing.. hehe.

AFter tht we went home.. on the way back.. daniel called.. He say he got job vacency for us both and tell us to rush to The legends asap Den we kinda rushed there in a cab.. as he say the cab fare can be claimed.

Weather damn hot today.. arrive there all sweaty. den tok to the manager.. he say we came late ler he no nid so much ppl ler.. so tell us come back again.. Sianz..

After tht went to play lan with the rest of the peeps. Hur hur.. we played for quite long..

den also sian ler.. now come back home.. xue ning come tell me smth abt receiving moe's letter on becoming a teacher.. she say if the person received tht letter.. he or she will be getting results less den 20.. For l1 r5.. I haven received mine.. so now.. damn demoralised.. dunno if tht rumour is true or not...~~ haiz.

Tired~

Mm, woke up quite early today.. Went around cycling ..

In the afternoon i went to km's house to bai nian. Er erd.. his ah ma still tell me to kuai gao zhang da.. After tht i and him went to tef to bai nian also.. Wah piangz.. the iron horse stock juz came and the whole shop was pratically filled up with the bikes.. and boxes.. Er erd.. leonard also llooked damn shagged. Wilson also abit psychologically unstabled...


After tht we went to cl and ct house to bai nian.. Ct's mum is still the same. so funny.. hhe

We den went for dinner together at bangkit. Luan was there too together with la,shi hui and jr.we ordered yu sheng as today was Ren re.. hehe.. also lame.. the way we lao the yu sheng.. alot of weird comments.. hehe

Mm, tomolo will be going to jog with km to cck stadium early in the morning and we are gonna swim.. den come back again. Hehe train stamina bahz.. er erd..

K bahz.. thts abt all for today. ciaoz

Roses

Mm..Yesterday was valentines day, wootz..more eventful then i tot it wud be.-_-

Early in the morn acc jie to pets essential to have her rabbit groomed.. The groomer still remembers me.. er erd.. coz of my dog's weird name.

After tht went to meet up with jp.. they went to sch and deliver roses the teachers there.Mm.. funny peeps..

AFter tht follow jie go collect her rabbit again den went back home to get change and met up with km and ct then went for vball. Yesterday didnt play really well...

Mm, after tht acc dad and mum for dinner.. Mm, kinda promt dad to give the roses i ordered to mum.. hehe .. funny.

AFter tht went to return jie her ear phone.. She den went to do smth which,... kinda got me damn pc.. suan ler..her decision.

Mm.. nth to type ler.. ciaoz..

Hey there~! happy valentines to you !

I cannot express myself ... not becoz i dunno how to .. but its becoz i canT~

Tinking abt wat jp said to me the other night.. Mm, making me feel tht Perceptions really varies alot between ppl...

wOotz, downloaded the war craft demo yesterday afternoon and had been playing it all the way till now.. MM, now sian of it liao..

Yesterday wen to luan house...there was alot of other peeps there too.. hur hur.. we juz did our own tings and they did theirs bahz..JP and jm was supposed to come to.. but due to some reasons.. they didnt turned up.I felt better after drinking some of the champagne luan had to offer there but still sorta dizzy.. so i left earlier and went back home to ocntinue playing war craft.. er erd..


I woke up late today bahz.. also got nth much to do. My mum went out to bai nian.. my father go out for mahjong.. den marcus go out play bowling. den my sis went to watch movie.. and i am left alone at home.. with tht animal and my maid. ~ Sianz, i called up every one but all of them are not free bahz.. so of i went to bring tht animal for a walk around bukit panjang.. I'm glad i did tht coz now its so tired tht it doesnt have the strenght to disturb me any more.. my tatic is good. er erd.

I am still feeling very bored until my relatives came over to my house.. Hx was here, but i had nth to entertain him.. so bought him to the arcade at plaza and played cs with him.. Also sian one.. two person.. play cs... its like.~ lame.

msg kah peng happy birthday juz now.. but she didnt really reply.. mm.. maybe she forgotten about me ler.. er erd..Oh well.. cant blame i dun tok to her much ..

Hao bahz. gtg to rot to death ler.. ciaoz..

Shagged

Wootz,today had more ang paos den yesterday...

Early in the morning went to SHen shen house to bai nian.. Quite alot of peeps there.. we bought beng along.. so naturally all the attention was turned towards him....

Jus look how cocky he is being...


Shermaine.. my lil cousin also entertained us quite alot.. er erd.. especially wen she did the cat walk after changing into her new clothes.. ahha. Kids now adays ~~..

Tok to edz alot after tht bahz.. Wootz.Finally some one who is around my age to keep me from not getting bored. Hehe his specs looks not badz.. so i decided to zhi lian again.. and i took tis pic..

AFter tht we went to gramps house.. At first there was no one there and it was pretty boring.. Gramps keep on niam niam niam at me to go have a hair cut..~Luckily awhile later jiu jiu they all came followed by Ah yis.Again .. beng took the attention away...


Mm, hx came and we also tokked alot.. WEll, did gamble abit bahz.. i was on a winning streak bahz.. so can say won quite alot..~ er erd.. but gambling is not good.. i rather drink.. but for today.. i didnt touched alcohol.. Yepz.AFter dinner we went to The entertain ment centre for bowling.. For me being a begginer.. my bowling ball kept going into the "drain" JIe they all are all so pro.. ALl got strike and all.. soon i got board and went for pool with su fen jie.

On my way up i saw ah teck.. sitting outside the pool room. Awhile later.. ming fa wei da they all walk out of the room.Wootz, ml was there too. I greeted all of them.. den i greeted ml also.. budden she was like saying.. I dunno u u greet me for wat.. made me felt damn lame.. hehe.Do i really look tht different from the past.. I den walk into the pool room with su fen jie ler..

Wah she is damn pro lor.. for a gal.. All the poses and all.. i was abit worried for her as most of the ppl around us are all pai kias and all.. den alot of eye staring incidents.. ~~ hur hur.. but we played for an hour bahz.. den went home ler...

Mm, now very tired ... the fever like nvr go away lehz.. ~~ mm, maybe didnt drink enuff water..Orite bahz.. type till here today... ciaoz

Hang over...

Here i am, juz had my brunch.. having a hang over.. Tink i had a lil too much yesterday night....
Manz, i get tis white spots all over my body wenever i got drunk... ~~

Yesterday went around to collect ang pao.. hur hur..After tht at night we went to watch the late night movie.. seoul riders. Actually wanted to call jp they all de.. but i call jp she nvr ans my fone.. Mm...

THts about all ler bahz.. then tis morn wake up with fever ler.. muz be all those beer and ba guas.. Alrite.. i got to limit myself today.. NO beer... a lil ba gua.. hehe..

thts all bahz..

happy new yEAR~!!!!!

To all my blog reader.. wishing u the best of luck and all time happiness for which u preservere in tis year... Thks for reading my blog and craps all tis time.

Wootz, CHu 1. YEsterday was very eventful....hehe

At dawn, i woke up at 7 and called up km to confirm to see who is going to sch. In the end gt me ct and km. We met up gayness outside sch.. er erd. We saw mdm how.. and finally we were able to tok to her after so much time not seeing her.. Wootz, those were the times.The celebration was quite ok... but the highlight was when yu sheng came up the stage and sang the new year songs. Er erd.. i tink he is a very courageous boy to be able to face the whole sch and still sing liddat. And wats more.. he gave the sch alil speach after his amazing performances.

AFter the celebration we went around the sch wishing teachers happy new year and all. Er erd, the sch changed alot...We managed to caught up with mR luan. hehe, He's very shagged after spending the whole night working on the it presentation for the chinese new year concert. Kudos to him for all the work he done.He was supposed to go and have break fast with us at green ridge.. but wen we walked out halve way.. he says he wanna go home and rest.. so he went home.. den we like nth to do.. went back to sch again.Awhile later Mr luan called up km and said he left his home keys on the table and told us to go collect it for him. DEn he said tht we cud go and walk around first... as he is also wandering in the markets in search of crabs.... Hes a lame guy.

After tht we went to have our brunch at greenridge.. me cun lai ct and km. HUr hur, long time no eat at banquet ler. AFter tht i and km went to plaza..and ct and cl went to gr. I and km initially wanted to play war craft one.. budden ct callled up and he say he want to play cs.. Hehe, we discuss until we reach the arcade counter and we decided to play.. 40 mins war craft and 20 mins cs.. hehe. tok abt making the best outta 2 bucks.After finish playing cs, luan called km again saying he wanted to come to plaza to look for us.. so we walked around and waited for him.. hehe. AFter tht we meet up and went to ntuc to buy beverages . I tink he's a really damn alcohol siao lo. He bought two bottles of duno wat champagne .... 50 bucks each... and a bottle of nui er hong.. and another bottle of kong zi jiu. ~ The sum came out to be more then 200 with juz only 4 products.

AFter tht we sat the taxi back with luan lau.. er erd. Wootz, wen i reached home.. my dad told me not to come in as he said tht he wanted to go out to buy new year goods and told me to tag along.. so there i was in my jeans and we went to fajar to buy the new year good. I was looking at the bakery and then i saw Jp there. Wootz, kinda shocked i tink.. hehe i shouted and shouted till every one looking at her.. whaha. Did know she worked at swee heng.. but didnt know she working there.. hehe.

We got back home again.. and i waited till my relatives all came and we had our renouin dinner. Wootz, mum got drunk, i wanted to drink to.. but she said i cud nt.. dangz.. wen shes not drunk she allows me to lo.. ~ FUnny woman. I quickly finished up every ting and jp msg me saying tht they are going to chinatown AFter wards to look at the fire works..

Initially ct was going.. but it was too late wen we were going out so ct gave it a pass. We met jie at about 11+ ler.. hehe .. was only have alil time left before the fire works go off so we were like rushing here and there. Er erd. We met up with jp at outram and we rush out of the mrt . After a few secs , there was loud booms all over and ppl were going"oooo... AAhh' hehe, we reached there juz in time.. i manage to record abit of the fire works with my cam. It was very spectacular in deed, its like..a miracle happening in front of my eyes.. er erd.. i got lost with the rest of the peeps in the midst of the dazzling diplay er erd. I soon found them back and we went to the night market at china town to shop. wah biangz.. its really crowded lo.. hehe.. we were like squeezing our self.. hehe. I was like.. nursery teacher.. bring out two nursery gals.. hehe. After much.. we went home bahz. all shagged... hehe..

It all ended , but every ting was good. Alrite bahz, i guess its another start again.. wootz,tis year shud be packed with more events and excitement bahz.. Good luck to me tis year...

After math..

Mm, aint tht happy with the results.. Sixth position.. it sucked..Juz abit more to a medal. I hate myself for tht. Definately i nid to train more.. i'm lousier then i tot today.. esp the spds control, argh, still cant harness it well. WEll, not to say i did go back empty handed today, i sorta am glad tht my friends did turn up after all, I've shudn't have doubted dem.I also gain more experience ler.. and of course lots of injury. Well, i guess its all for a good cause but my swollen ankle is really killing me now.

Mm, Heres a pic of my bike before the race.. sweet and clean



and heres my bike and km's bike after race.. how nicely the dirt had decorated it.. hehe..



WEll, i guess life have to move on, i'm gonna prepare myself for the next race.Some where in march.. mm, hopefully.... i get onto the podium .

Its ok bahz..

Kinda.. filled with mixed feelings now ..

TOmolo will be my day of race. Mm, lots of my friends all cannot make it to support me due to some reasons bahz.. I understand... but i dunno why i still feel so.. Down over it all. Wat ct said really hit me hard.. Maybe i really no have friends ...

My final preperations are almost due ler.. First time i will be cycling alone tis time.. Hur hur, tatics used for the race will be quite different ler bahz.. esp now tht we are competiting on dryer and more level grounds.. I dunno how strong my opponents are.. but i do noe tht 2 of them will be the ppl i want to beat.I duno, hopefully my spds wun fail me tomolo and my fatigue wud all be healed.

TOday acc A guy and A gal, to their frst date. Hur hur. Kinda set up by me de.. but i tink was kinda poorly planned.. i didnt expect the show to be so lousy and for it to end so fast.. for those who wanna watch seed of chucky .. pls dun. it sucks. I understand tht there is alot of embaressment going through between tis two couple bahz.. and i am really shining very brightly.Dunno why.. i feel tht there is at least conversation going on between they two bahz.. but also quickly ended one.. Dunno why liddat. I really racked up my brains ler.. *shrugs*

Perharps tomolo there will be no one there to support me.. but yes.... i know.. Tht they will be all be wish me good luck.. for example irvin.. he said he wud pray for me. Mm, or maybe perharps i am only consoling myself.. Hur hur.. crapz

Gratituded.

I felt very very ... wat... after xu wei from ntu offered me his hand pump for me... WAh sehz.. alot of very supportive ppl out there.. Even the cycling manager of ntu dan came to gimme a pat on my shoulder... I am so very motivated by all tis peeps and i'll be riding for them, i wont let them down de..

Acc ct to queensway today.. had quite an eventful day bahz.. WE went to browse the shops at the shopping center den we saw wei da, ming fa and ming li.. DAngz.. HEhe for first time she replied me to my hi~ hur hur. Dao gal.

after tht we went to ikea.. then anchor point then ct bought me to the ABC market.. His grand ma stays there tht explains why he knows tht place well. After tht ,i and him each bought a shirt bahz.. hur hur, he bought a jersey for CNY ... ~

K bahz.. thts abt all today... I have approximately 33 hours left to my race.. jia you~!

Revived~!

Early in the morning.. i wen to meet up with jie.. Hur hur, she challenge me to race for 2.4km. Dun say i ungentlemently ar.. i beat her graciously sui sui bo pang zui. ACtually ar.. i realised smth.. we ran for 3.2 km instead of 2.4 today.Hur hur. Any way.. she has to fufil 5 task for me ler.. hur hur.. who ask U to be mouth itchy.

AFter tht got my bike to tef. Had it fixed up and going... Leonard was being really very good to me ler.. Hur hur, he even tot of sponsoring .. Mm, if tht it.. i will be a sponsored rider.He told jas to service my bike and change the tube and he even gave me a free tube for free.. Dangz. He even wanted to sponsor me a pair of wet condition tires.. a pump .. a pair of gloves.. and a dozen of energy bars. Den i was like.. wah seh.. hehe, of course i turn down the offer.. cannot be gian beng.

Den went to play vball ler. Wootz, Kk and Ah teck came today.Kk was really a different person today lor..Very wat seh... i saw a different ah teck and kk today. Dangz, imagine 20 year old ppl behaving liddat.. whaha.. i luff till i peng until siao ar. One incident was like tis.. we were at the food court makaning.. den ar.. i walk walk.. den suddenly a gal walk in my way.. kk two gals.. den they ar.. like ~~~ liddat. I let them pass me ler. but they still gu yi come bump into me. All tis time ah teck and kk have been observing .. and wen i went back to them.. den ah teck went.. wah ehz.. some one tan tio .. den kk also kept on suaning.. HUr hur, the way they tok ar.. damn tiko pek .. ~~ especially KK with tht funny voice. But they are fun guys to be with ..

Wootz,, tomolo i will try my best to complete 4 laps ler.. all the best to me.. jia you

Still dissapointed despites achievement

Rode Today early in the morning. I am doing fine with spds already.. i did two laps without falling and clocked quite a decent timing too.. BUt unluckily.. i had a puncture on the start of the third lap so i wasn't able to carry on. But some how i felt tht i could complete 4 laps today de ARGhz...called up pa do Ferry me back from the course back to home after tht.

IN the afternoon meet up with Qing ai de Jie .. Hur hur.I acc her to shopping (one of the three wishes she made,One down.. two more to go)... shopping for some V-tines day present tht is..~WEll..some how.. i might not understand gals after all and they might not understand us also.. hehe. But there is one ting which is about me.. I'm complacent for materialistic tings.. but i'm quite sure other guys wud be the same also bahz.

tomolo not able to train bahz.. with the punctured tire. HOpefully i get it fixed tomolo soon.. and i finished 4 laps.. by friday... Its a must to finished the 4 laps.. big words again.. ARGHZ~!

Damaged


Went to Bt for the first time with spds. KInda dissapointing.. I only did 1 lap.. I'm not able to continue with the injuries..

Fell twice , first fall at the first section of berlukar.. dat was kinda .. technical. Technically.. my front tyre slipped. Its quite normal for tht spot as its filled with loose sand.. and normally we are able to control the bike from losing control. But, i guess its my inexperience with the spds tht cause me to fall there. The front wheel locked out and slipped , due to my feet stucked to the pedal, i am not able to shift the weight of the frame to the opp direction, thus the bike began to tail spin .. cozing me to land with my feet stuck on the pedals on my arm.

For the second fall it was at the second section nearing echo. I tink its due to pure carelessness tis time. I did not saw the bulging rock.. so my rear hit on bad.. endowed but tis time luckier my feet came off the pedals.. so i juz landed on my back and went into a roll out but hitting the tree again with my hip.~~ Tht caused my knee and hip bruise.

Was unable to continue riding much after a while more.. Thus i decided to go home earlier. Hopefully tis wounds dry up by tomolo.. and i'll be going for four laps again tomolo.Orite Jc.. U can do it...

dun make me be the person i dun wanna be... dun mould me into wat i am before.. I dun wanna live another person live.. but i dun wanna dissapoint at all.. I hollered for any one out there who wud understand me and my feelings afterall.. But to no avail.

Wootz, today went to pets villa.. took a few pics.. i guess pic describe a thousand words so i shunt type much.. whahaha actually i'm lazy la.. lol here are the pics


On the car..with my shades.. theres our lead actor of the day. Beng.


Beng to the rescue...


They are having some major dilemia.. Whose piece of shit is tht?


beng den saw his damsel in distress..


Oh my.. some one else came in and saved the damsel .. so beng was left out.. and he went looking for other damsels.


and indeed he found two pretty ladies and they sorta.. kissed each other in the muzzels.


soon beng was bored with the two small dogs and decide to go even bigger..


alas.. his side kicks arrived


some how.. they are disorientated..


alas... our star of the day.. return.. leaving me.. bedless tonight again.. the end..i know my story plot is lame.. bear wit it

Wootz, yesterday was the last day of woork for me..

Dunno wat to write.. but heres some pic i took before going to work yesterday.. hehe kinda formal.. wahhaha..bo bian la. buy camera muz use mahz.. hehe












The rest are in the photo bucket.. hehe

Freedom

I am free after tomolo ler.. i told boss tht i dun wan to work till the end of new year.. so i get to work till the end of tis mth and i will be free after tht.. my ah ma isnt fine with it but who cares.. she doesnt know wat i've been going through tht place..

mm , tomolo will be having a lap session with xu wei,first time riding with him.. dunno how fast is he.. mM, i'll take tht as a challenge bahz..

Ok ler.. gotto go.. nite

Dejected..

Kinda sad, or some how down.. Juz got scolded reall harshly by a customer ..And after tht i got scolded by my boss as well..

Tis is wat happened...

My colleuge doris.. had tis customer. He ordered his material two weeks ago.. THe factory processed the stuffs and send it to the place. but the ting now is tht , the factory had sewed the curtain on a reversed side..so thts nt wat the customer wanted.And the custormer came down today with the curtain,obviouly furios and i was there alone as my bosses and colleuges had went home.So i was there with the custormer. I asked. sir can i help u . and he showed me the sample curtain he bought.. den i was ohh. Could u leave the curtain here so i could bring it to the factory and ask them to resew it. Den he went, WAT?~! i've waited for two weeks and tis is wat u gave me.. I belive in consumer rites and for tht i can demand a full compensation for tis . Den i was Stunned. Den i say sir, u gotto understand .. tis fabric is new and our factory does not know how to handle it well yet.. and wats more.. normally the fabric we use for night curtains are with the darker side facing the outside .. Den he went. I DUN CARE. I want my curtains now. Den i was kinda.. ~~ den i say.. sir. at least u cud give us a time to alter the curtain.DEn he ask.. how are u gonna alter it... (like wtf isn't if obvious.. resew the whole damn ting la) den i said.. sir WE wud dismantle the sewing and resew every ting back. DEn he said.. WAt~! there wud definately be holes and all in the curtains and now i am paying for such a defective curtain? ..Den i called up my boss. And he was telling me tht we couldnt accept anyting my chinese new year... Den i said tht tis custormer ordered his stuff before chi new year.. and now.. the ting is liddat cannot expect me to tell him tht the ting cannot be readied by chinese year.. Den i and him argued liddat lo on the fone.. Den i said nvm. I tell him to gurantee tht there wud be no defects on the curtains if we were to resew it..and he said yes and all.. so i told the customer. Then he said.. he could not accept it.. He said" I am not a 3 year old.. u tink i easy to bluff ar.. definately there will be some loop holes and u all will cover it." Den i went.." sir, our company had custormers before and they come back for our services and all i doubt our service tht bad if theres a fact tht we have customer coming back." Den he say" I dun care about all of that.. now i am only concern about my curtains.. thts all, Do u noe tht i could demand a full compensation and i could go on a case .." Den i was like.. "ok sir, it seems like i cant give u a satisfying answer.. perharps u might want to tok to my boss.." And yea.. he did tht.. the argument was kinda bad.. but the eventually resolved into someting.. i tink we had to reorder new fabric and redo the ting. AFter the custormer left .. my boss called up and off he went scolding spree.. He said. y u tell him tht we wud resew and all.. ~~ " ( tht is wat he told me lo..) den i kept quiet.. Den he began to niam... say next time dun do tis and tht.. bla bla.. haiz..Tht really made my day ...

Good ting tht tis sat wud be last day working ler..Mm, tomolo will be a better day for me bahz.

Not confident

I am still very unconfident with my race. haiz, today no go training again coz i woke up pretty late..maybe i am not gonna win tis race after all..

Got my new digi cam ler.. Mm, quite not bad looking bahz..hehe lots of freebies came with it took quite a few pictures already haAh.

Woo, yesterday got a chance to send jm to the.. Traffic light junction, good training for me on tht lol.

Sianz,later got to go work at tht stupid place.. hehe, tis sat wud be my last day working there ler.. so i guess i gotto make the best outta it. Mm, here are some of the pics i've took.







Goh Ah beng, Note, tis is beng after his hair cut.



Ma bro.. juz woked up.



He likes coming to my room, utilises my bed and all ~




Me, testing my cam.

A battle can't be won without appropriate confidence..

MM, today off.. Shiok~

Woke up quite late today.. Tok to jie in the later part of the afternoon. Hur hur, told her tht i smoked before and she went so tu lan.. lol. MM lin came to tok to me, but i sorta.. fu yen her.. Duno why i liddat.. maybe i really have nth to tok to her.

After my lunch i went to tef .. Damn cycling to thomson in the scorching sun .. Long time no do tht ler.. Hehe.. DId some catching up with leonard. Hur hur, he encourages me to do free ride.. HEhe funny guy. any way, i got my self the mtb shoes ler.. and cleats total of 110 for both.MM, i also registered for the race ler.. some how.. i dun feel very confident about winning the race.. Coz tht time .. after lin tht incident.. i got quite a few days nvr train.. its only recently tht i started training. Dunno, i shall do my best bahz..hope tis time no technical faults like the last time.

I left tef and head for sch for vball.. Today got quite alot of ppl come.. ppl from bmcc were here.. WOotz, Kk looked quite tanned ler.. long time no see. Hehe, we had friendly and we won one set, we lost the others becoz... The alumni wanted to try out someting different so we werent tht steady with tht so didnt turned out tht well.. but its juz a friendly so its ok to try smth new.Mm, was quite Gan dong tht most of the alumni vballers turned up for todays training.. i hope tht it wud be the same the next week...

Mm..having a bad head aches now.. kk i know i'm weak.. I tink i stop here ler..

msn down??

Mm, sian now.. msn down i tink.. i chua tio suddenly disconnected i tot my com like last time ... Sehz.. heng is the server down i tink.

Today quite tiring... working on a sunday sucks.. though i only work for 6 hours.. After my work went to queens way with bro again.. tis time i bought my pants ler.. hehe.. AT least i got tht settle.. now its left with my shirt and shoes.and maybe shades.. Wootz

tis morn.. smth nt very good happened ba... sorry to who ever there is to concern.. mm, smth cannot forced de.

Orite.. nth much ler.. Logging off bye

Its so easy to start a war...but so difficult to end it

Wootz, today off... went alot of places. my legs or can say, whole body aches now.

Early in the morning beng as usual bounce on me again... dis time more jia lat, he insist on my getting up by pulling my blanket away.... tht dumb dog is getting smarter... time for me to be smart too.

One of my clients called and said she was very dissastisfied with y service tis morn, tis is becoz the installer were 1 hour late for the installation and one of the curtains is delivered wrongly... sianz, let her scold for 1/2 a hour...Tht explains me being halve and hour late to meet ct..We went to the poly open house after tht.. but ar, some how i am quite unimpressed by the poly.. their carnival is not very catering to us we went there also dunno wat to do juz stare at every one else.We went to cca booth den walk around.. go eat .. den went to bt shopping centre play cs ler.. kinda lame.. me and ct play only.. i kill him he kill me...

After tht ct went home ler.. i go met with ed.. my bro. At np.. I was like.. walk alot of distance ler.. den we went off to bugis.. coz he brought me to go ... Shopping~~~~ arghz i hate shopping ~But today shopping was not bad la.. coz my bro knows how i feel then kept bringing me to look at the stuffs i like to see.. hehe. budden today shopping route was kinda.. lan.. hehe Maybe coz we two seldom do shopping de.. den now shop is becoz our parents FOrced us to.. hehe nid to buy new year clothes mahz..ok, so.. we took the mrt to china town .. at there.. we walk around up and down.. looking for chinatown complex.. and there is tis funny ting.. we walk to food street.. coz we both kinda hungry den we kept looking at the food and all, den we walk and walk.. we missed the whole of china town complex.. its such a big building and we missed it.. den we walk and walk all the way to tanjong pagar.. den we realised we were lost.. we like in some ulu district.. den hehe, i was lame and i told my bro tht if we folow the moon.. it will lead us to a mrt station.. and true enuff.. hehe we followed and we reach tanjong pagar mrt station.. den we took the train back to china town again.. tis time.. looking at the map first.. lol we found the chinatown complex.. and we ate our dinner dere..Den we went to look at the clothes there.. my bro was like really browsing through like some designer .. and he concluded tht the clothes there are too bengish..With tht we head towards bugis.. i was saying tht we could maybe walk there.. And ya.. he kinda agreed and we stupidly start walking towards the suntec building.. after an hour of walking..we havent reached... DAngz , again we find our way to the nearest mrt station to take a mrt to bugis.. tis time its raffles place.. and we found out tht we actually made a loop again.. not a straight line towards bugis but we go one big round again..

Den we reached bugis ler.. we walk around.. Den he brought me to tis very cool shop which sells alot of specs.. hehe.. den we went trying out almost every shades there for i tink 1 hour.. den we went off without buying one.. Whahaha.not bad.After tht all, we walk around then we went OG.. After walking around my bro tell me tht there is a gal who had been following us for a long time ler.. den i looked around but i cant see anyone.. so we continued..I was browsing through some wallets.. den suddenly some one called my name.. i turn around and i saw vivian den i was like"wah!!!" chua tio.. coz she suddenly appeared and she put make up.. and her hair do till prom tht liddat. and she was... working there.. heeh. I dunno why my reaction so big, maybe i seldom see my friends put on make up bahz.. den suddenly see ler not mentally prepared... lol.My bro was ticking me off on my way on tokking to gers... whaha, maybe he dont know me well.. whaha

After plenty of walks.. i didnt buy anyting for my new year clothing.. thts why i send jie tht sms.. ARGHZ~! i hate shopping. So tired now.. legs aching like siao.. tomolo still nid go queens way with bro again.den still nid to fufil 3 wishes due to some fine...~~~ Sianz, if only i can shop for bike goodies and stuffs, den shopping wud be better..hehe.

Is hypocritism really the way of getting friends.. if they are... is it really wat its called.. friendship.

Mm, some how.. i tink i shudn't really.. open out my mind heart to ppl like tis.. its wrong.. i tink.Coz i feel tht ppl wud be affected.. ppl have a life too, mm, yea.. I tink i better remain the way i am.Its better that way.

I feel like i'm some handicapped person or some one with disordered with the mind i wud say. At times i'ld question why i couldn't be like some who dun have tis much thoughts. Yea there maybe some out there like me.. but they kept their tots to themselves, unlike me now. Some how i tink tis species i am in shud have our tots to our own, its better tht way. For all i know, i am concerned about ppl i care and how they feel so i tink i shall do tis rite and dun make them have tis burden of knwing.

Self multilation? Perharps it is viewed as self multilation , but perspective varies i wud remind mine as self enhancement, we cant run away from tis, every one of us normal ppl seek for the better some way. Self contentment is a word tht wunt last.

I tink, tht i shall plan one day where my mind wud go blank, and stop my thinking and all, and yea, juz be an idiot. I hope i cud break away from these and be liddat.Isn't it childish.. tis kinda ting also nid for a planned date. I am lame

O rite, i guess i post enuff, i wun post liddat ler.. hehe.

ALways reach for the sky as there is a very chio.. chio bu up there....

I had a bad day at work today. I am so fed up wit the ppl there. MM, I tink i look at the better side bahz.. i'm gonna change my job soon ler..

Tomolo Is hari raya haji.. of tomolo, decided to go to pets mover again with beng. Mm, tis time go take a look at the place during a holiday. AFter tht i tink i gotta go look at ma clothes for new year.. and yea.. the Mp3 hehe..

I dunno Kinda find tht onlining had became more and more boring ler.. now the fact tht i had no one to tok to much also..Shrugz.

Mm shallyn kinda cheered me up with the funny quote juz now.. hehe shes a true and certified lamer too.

K bahz.. nth much to say ler.. ciaoz

I've set up a link for pictures.. do visit the link

change wen u are wrong.. thts the way.. dun live life like tis.. it aint gonna be happy.. do u get pleasure out of wrongs??

had quiet a eventful day today..

FOr the first time i went out wif boss for an assignment.. In his car he tok to me alot of tatics he had used to kept tis business going and all.. I told him my ambition and he kinda.. encouraged me.. Dunno, it seems like my boss aint a bad person after all..We exchange alot of views about tatical business and managing and i did learnt quite alot.. Wat my mentor tot me was so little.. and crude.. today was nth in comparison.I went to lien towers today.. it was by far.. the biggest condominium i've seen with my eyes.. Its like.. really big. I was so attracted by the owner's pool table in the room... made me so gian.

Later part of the day.. uncle sim came over to the shop to look for me.. Dangz, from then i found out tht he actually owned a shop before in bt plaza but it closed down.. we tokked alot too, hur hur, also much about marketing and entrepenuic socialization.. dangz, his chinese abit chim at times but i am learning.. hehe..

Mm, sold my helmet finally for 85 bucks.. dangz, now its time to get my shoes and a better helmet.. hehe.

Every one changes for the better.. but whether its good or not.. its based on the perspective of onviewers

Mm, had lots of of tots once again.. dunno why.. maybe its juz me wen i get bored all of a sudden...

Dang, today was very very tired... totally shagged.. was very unproductive and all.. haiz.. i tink i wanna stop working there also. I dun like tht lonelisness and the sense of unbelonging there at all..

ARh.. dunno wat to type for today.. verytired.. good night

I'm tired , empty, lost.

TOday early in the morning bought beng out ... to pasir ris pet mart and mover(recced by Jie and jp.) Theere not bad la.. gr8 place for socialization and theres alot of stuffs to see for the dog... The ppl there are all quite friendly bahz.. Beng was like.. super socialble, dunno wats is danger and is like.. kinda polite bahz.. I am so proud of my dog... hehe.Mm, but he kinda down with lots of health disorder.. poor coating.. sore and sensitive legs.. and skin growth.. MM, all these were kinda solved today bahz.. thks to the ppl at pet mart and essential.. The lady at farm art reccmed a anteseptic spray.. and the lady groomer at essential groomed that chao ah beng.. He looks like a diff dog.. so much so tht wen i bought it back to my house.. my ah ma tot i brought another dog back and kept scolding me. hehe. I didnt told her the price sial. scared she scold even more.. old ppl..I told her jp help me cut one. whaha.. Any way.. i had his nails trimmed.. ears cleaned.. and sorta inspected tht growth .. lucky tht lady was kind.. gave me a discount.. or else i nid to work there ler..35 bucks..

I calculated my expenditure for tis dog and it came up to a whooping $97.75 dangs man... and to tink i ordered a digicam.. i am soo broke now.. but looking at beng neat looks now i couldnt help but get excited and proud of it.. hehe.Dangz, its like my son ler.. den kinda got some achievement or smth make me so proud of it... dangz.. CRAPPPEEDD....

AFter tht all i went to sch play vball.. Very tiring . Mr sng saw me juz now with jm and jp sial.. Dangz, i also tot i saw his car.. wahaha, den kept suaning.. den yk sorta say tht jm was ct de liao.. den mr sng come gan me also.. say why i there.. de siao.. not ct.. wahha.. see tio mah jm.. mr sng also know how to tink one hor..lol. Then i was like.. explaining and all.. haha.. the whoel alumni team i tink knows about ct and jm issue ler.. not my fault....

SO tired and bored now.. sian.. nth to do.. dangz..

We are not Fools, we are juz blinded ... fools are those who knew they are blinded but continue to be blinded by all..

We are all back to the point tht ppl changes... and time is the ultimate destruction of every ting.. i Tink, tis quote is still so true from the day i tot of it..

Ct was rite, being an ideologist bring tis much pains to oneself.. WAKE UP ! speak based on theory.. the fact now is tis had all happened,and wat, making a fuss out of it can help? I am tired being a ideologist... so much so i kept fluctuating between perspectives... so much so that i feel that i am so damned overdoing tings.. and so much so i contradict.. HAH! so, contradictions catch up wif me again, yep its me again jumping into every ones shoes and having different yet had equally basis views. RIte, like who the hell shud i stay in..If i could choose to keep my stand to myself.. i cud, but if i do tht, nth gets outta it .. I dunno.. I tink i shud behave like every one else... juz, dun bother and all.. juz take it tht way .. yea, juz dun make a big fuss outta every ting..

I kept telling myself all tis , but some how, it feel so weird,I duno, maybe i've began to look at even more tings ... thts why i had tht tot tht day ... and thts why every ting tht happened now make me fear tht my tot wud come true.

Maybe i shud be like ct for once and instead stop being his opposition.. i shud learn from the dilly dally behaviour and takes no seriously..I told myself to be like that, like km ct st and the rest.. but i cant, I duno, some how i cant break away from tis tots of mine.. And some how, i feel tht i cant throwing away certain responsibilities... i dunno, i feel like i am so different from every one now.. perharps i shud see a psych one day...

dishearted

NTH lASt for ever~! ALl those eternity ting are shit, fully crap.... TOk about 4ever friends and all, tok about making the best outta time we have together... look at wat we have now.. juz look at all those differences we had now from before.. juz take a look at who's around now... looK at how the different amount of effort put in to salvage all tis....

I dunno, i might be over doing all tis, deep emotions run through me, i am having tis fear tht wat i tot of tht day might come true... coz, its slowing going to.. I dun WaNT IT TO!..The crucial factoer is tat we shud not be complacent about wat we have already, coz we dun have any more...Dun TOKED about fate coz i am still going against it...fate is there wen we belive it is there, most of the time we are doing the work..fate only do some of it... TInK~!..

bad now.... i am all saddened up by all tis... YEa, i'm a selfish freak performing this freak show.... dun bother.

The next big step is to let go...

Mm, tomolo we might not be conferencing lo, they might go off for steam boat.

Hmm, i was panicky moments ago wen my sis told me beng had an injury on the leg... dangz, its limping quite badly now, tomolo i will bring it to jp, den see if nid to bring to the vet or not..Plz let it be fine...

Sorry wei en i made u cry yesterday ar... juz wanted u to know tht i am a living example.. i hope every ting turns out fine for u ..

Mm, am having quite a number of tots now.. dunno, hope tomolo will be a better day.

*reminder* TOMOLO NIGHT CONFERENCE

Defence is paper thin..

I am not having a very good day here....

Fuck up working experience i had today, every one sucked once more. ARgh~! Tok about politics during work, i am juz only a kid lo.. hello young 16? Wth is it with all of u ... cant even gimme a break? The designer who called up was so damned too.. " lets get down to business la, u know it know it.. I wan to do tings professionally... lemme show my client my best...." He said. I was like.. wat liao, the professionalism is now with us.. not u, u only do the designs, while we are the curtains ppl, our opinions are based on our past experience and the ting wun look good, its juz a harmless suggestion... no nid to crictisize on our profession liddat, its too far off ... i dun crictisize ur designs at all lo...

dang, i am so hot headed now..every little ting seemed like a gr8 big blow for me.. sianz.

Mm, decisions.. hard or easy.. they all come with consequences..

Mm, today was quite busy at the shop bahz, run here and there up and down. Wootz, tiring and sleepy too, maybe becoz yesterday lots of strenous exercises..

Wootz, finally got ah beng to listen to my language ler.. hehe...so prouda myself..

Mm, nth much to say about today bahz.. conclude ler.. hehe

Mm, decisions.. hard or easy.. they all come with consequences..

Mm, today was quite busy at the shop bahz, run here and there up and down. Wootz, tiring and sleepy too, maybe becoz yesterday lots of strenous exercises..

Wootz, finally got ah beng to listen to my language ler.. hehe...so prouda myself..

Mm, nth much to say about today bahz.. conclude ler.. hehe

"Our Lives"

Is it love tonight

When everyone's dreaming

Of a better lifeIn this world

Divided by fear

We've gotta believe that

There's a reason we're here

Yeah, there's a reason we're here

Cause these are the days worth living

These are the years we're given

And these are the moments

These are the times

Let's make the best out of our lives

See the truth all around

Our faith can be broken

And our hands can be bound

But open our hearts and fill up the emptiness

With nothing to stop usIs it not worth the risk?

Yeah, is it not worth the risk?

Cause these are the days worth living

These are the years we're given

And these are the moments

These are the times

Let's make the best out of our lives

Even if hope was shattered

I know it wouldn't matter

Cause these are the momentsThese are the times

Let's make the best out of our lives

We can't go on

Thinking it's wrong

To speak our minds

I've gotta let out what's inside

Is it love tonight

When everyone's dreaming

Can we get it right?

Yeah, well can we get it right?

Cause these are the days worth living

These are the years we're given

And these are the moments

These are the times

Let's make the best out of our lives

Even if hope was shattered

I know it wouldn't matter

Because these are the moments

These are the times

Let's make the best out of our lives

its not a matter of falling down any more.. its whether u get up...

I am so tired today.....

Tis morning Ys called me as she said she needed company.. i did say i wanted to tok for only 30 mins..Dang.. she dragged the conversation thru the wee hours.. and thus.. i am left without much sleep. HAiz, so shagged now....was very dissapointed in the earlier part of the day...


Woke up and str8 after having a ligth braek fast i went riding.. dang.. my performance deteoraited by alot today... arghz... Dunno why, i take lots of time to complete three laps..I am dissapointed.. alot of climbs i cannto go up.. dang, my tyres.. maybe dey are not meant for wet conditions liddat but wat liao.. if i go race.. den like tis condition in race i tink i die liao lo sure lose one.. i felt so dissapointed manz after riding .. den like.. sat in the middle of the road and began to recall my mistakes and all... felt so lame with the monkeys all looking at me...

afternoon went to sch for vball.. dang, i couldnt run.. couldnt jump manz.. suffering from fatigue... had cramps on my leg muscles .. den ct kept on saying i very slow.. Dangz... si buay pek chek ...

DEn at evening went to play bad with the rest of the peeps.. wootz, i've counted..already 5 days no see tio jp ler.. hehe. missing in action ler she..jie commented tht my hair very short.. arghz... its short.. argh~!~!~!...

Sian.. now nth to do.. jie no online.. pz also no online.. if she online also play game de.. dangz.. so now i am very sianz..

dear blog..

i am now very fed up with st... i am beggining to disregard him ler.. i dun want to do tis.. but his actions made me do it, and yea, i will wack him up. I dun care wat the rest of the guys say any more.. if dey understood me.. they shudda know tht i kept quiet and let him have his way for a long time ler.. I've decide to even argue with him as i know tht his ears are not meant for hearing in facts and reasons , where as they were only there for the sake of being there.. Yea, lemme see him one more time, and let him blow his top of one more time at me.. and yea, i'll sure wack him up, i am not saying for the sake of saying.. i am saying coz i am totally fed up wif him already... his attitude has been like tis before.. yes... it has..he nvr changed... ppl around might accomodate to him but i cant..yea, he kicks me around and stuffs, i've enuff of that..

I've promised some already... dis is my decision.

This early morning at about 3++ i made a very big promise to my jie and i wud not break it ...

Mm, suddenly my thirst of becoming a much better cyclist grew stronger.. suddenly, i wanted to convert to downhill ler.. tht means, i'll do free ride ler.. tht means ... lots of tings..

Mm, some how looking at chris and stevie at penang made me had the urge to have a go at dh, but it comes with a big price tag .. i wud nid at least.. 4k to make tis come thru.. dangz, 4 k 4k 4k 4k.. where am i gonna find it..MM, through saving perharps, but i tink , there is a faster alternative.. win this year national saca cross country race wif my bike now.. then i'll get 2.5 k, enuff starters for a new bike.. den pluz abit of savings.. i shud be race ready by june.. dangz, lots of commitment...after i calculated it all out, meaning, i might not have time for alot of tings too..

Went to ikea alone today... dang,couldnt find my table, i guess i've gotta custom one already... sian..

juz now ah ma ordered pizza for u , dang... my ah ma is keen on eating junk food now , got to watch her health..

K bahz.. nth much to conclude ler.. tml will see much intensive training going on for me.. hehe.

was it me u are looking at... or it was juz my fantasty.

I Had my hair cut ler.. wootz, so excited about it .. hehe, now my head is less heavier..

Mm, woke up at 945 today.. dangz,i woke up and looked at the clock and this sentence kept on passing through my head.."i have to cut my hair i have to cut my hair i have to cut my hair.." dangz, i went to the saloon str8 after i brushed my teeth, den stay there wait for about halve and hour.. fell asleep, coz i was like juz wake up mode.. dangz, lucky the gal was kind enuff to tap me to wake me up. The gal who cut my hair also damn lo so.. i say i dun want to cut short.. i juz wan every ting to lighten up.. den she kept saying how can.. later sch will catch.. den i say i working.. den she say how can.. ur job allow tis hairstyle mehz. den juz at tht moment, one of my client called up , After i tok to her den the gal asked me wat i working aS... Den i say i working as sales.. den she say.. sales must look neat one mahz.. den i was like..fed up.. i said"ok, actually i am the assistant manager of a company selling textiles..." den she went ... orhhhh... asst manager can leave long hair....(Jkingly la..) den i was , hur hur juz cut my hair plz.

Had a furthur chat wif her later on , exchange quite a few tips on hair styling and the hair products to look out for in the market out there, wootz...hehe, as expected she asked me a question every other barber had asked me before.. since i turn 12 i tink, got gf or not.. tis time i ans yes.. wahahha, den she say.. orh no wonder wan to look so nice. -_- ....

Ok, after tht eventful morning i went back home and slack awhile while preparing for work.. lol, managed to watch gundam seed today, hehe reached work place only at 1230 , breaking my record of 1120, lol, i am officially 1 hour 30 mins late for work today. Haha.Ct came today again for lunch, hehe lots of tings to tell me about jc and vball stuffs, dangz.. he did most of the tokking today lol..During lunch i went to buy from dis hawker ... hehe, i happened to passed by only, actually dun wan to buy from tht stall one.. but he said smth tht made me buy, he said"SHUAI GE~! YAO CHI SHER MER.."i was working away from his stall already until i heard tis den i u-turn go back and buy.. whahaha. DEn while i was choosing my food, another guy.. some how, looking like er.... wei haoz.. ok la.. not say wei hao bad looking la.. as in the face nerd nerd de.. den ar.. alot of pimples.. , k tis guy came up.. den the hawker shouted at him " Lai shuai ge yao chi sher mer.." den i was like.. diao~~~~ Mm, again i was caught red handed for being bhb.. ARGHZ!~!~!~! T-T u two might tink its funny but its not.. its total embarassment.. ~

Oh well, work today was very tight. Alot of custormers.. for the first time i serve 4 custormers at the same time.. dangz...

AFter work followed mum bro sis and maid to plaza and had dinner,dangz, the food at plaza is getting more and more exp.. dangz, heng my mum pay , not me.. HiAck hiack. After that, went to watch the match between singapore and indonesia at cun lai house.. Wen i reach his house i was like.. where is the door bell ar.. den i shouted inside to them, oie wheres the door bell, and they went "GOAAAALLLLL" dangz, gr8 my presence led to singapore scoring another goal. hehe, den km joked about tht , he said, wah, juz now jc shouted where the door bell then the indonesia goal keep blur ar..the goal keep was tinking "LONG 'MEN' where got 'MEN' LING one.."thats why they conceded the goal. Mm, if u tink tis joke nto funny not my fault ar.. is km said one.. hee.After that match went for supper with them, wanted to order beer but.. dangz, km dun wan to share wif me.. so, decides not to..(Too much beer is not good for ur health boy"mdm chong ling ling)

Oh well, den that ended up wif me here blogging ler bahz... mm, now waiting for my goondo jie to come online.. she damn goondo one lo.. watch the news den dunno which side win, indonesia or singapore.. wen i saw her msg.. i was like.. omg.

Wishes might come true after all, there is hope beyond the pain..

Hehe, having quite a good day today.. like wat i wished for in the earlier part of the day.. LOl, i better be, or jie wud toture me de.

Work was kinda interesting today..There is tis old japanese customer which came in.. She was my mum's and my boss ex client.. she was a very nice lady.. a very good mother too.. And her family is .. very very very rich.. she has a bungalow in singapore.. australia.. japan.. two apart ments in america.. Dangz.. HEr daughter is spoilt manz.. She is twenty.. but she already stopped education some time back coz she wanted to pursue a music career. Thus, her mum enrolled her to a teacher , hourly she gave 300 USD to the teacher to teach her how to sing .. DAngz~! tok about major wastage of finances...BUt i guess she has too much to give ler..BUt she is a very humble lady... she dresses like any other obasan... Dangz.. there is really more than wat it looks. She had this stories she had with her wen she travelled around the world.. dang.. i want to be like her manz, next week she will be back to japan again. Hehe, well, she also did one ting tht really made me happy... She said that i was very mature in handling customers.. , i'm not showing off or wat.. but its like.. Wen u work on smth so much.. and some one actually gave u a remark on it.. its a great sensation .. She also said others tings about me but i tink the one tht raelly hit me hard is tis . dangz, When the lady said good tings about me... my mum ar.. instead of saying mei you la mei you la.. she went.. ya lo.. ~~ Dangz, i was like so red faced already she made it worst.. Den after on..she ask me whether i wanted to sing like her daughter too.. she say she could bring along too.. den i was frozen.. damn.. a one time opportunity manz.. to go to the states..I wanted to nod my head ler.. Den my mum intervene.. and said no... Mm, i guess that was the right ting to do also... i wun bear to live all that i had here and go for that.. Although i love singing alot too but i dun tink tis is the way.. Good singers out there all started from scratch, i cant be living off others liddat... Mm, for once my mum did the rite ting..

later part in the after noon went to buy a b-day card for Ming Li. DAngz, Tis mth like alot of ppl b-day liddat..

Ok bahz.. thts all ler.. jie today nvr msg me ler.. duno why.. maybe msging ct lol. hehe

blurified..

dang.. here i am early in the morn posting.. going to work soon ler.. so wud make tis a short 1.. come back at night then post again..

I dunno how all tis happened but my mum knows about wat happened between me and lin.. Well, maybe not all but she knows that i've been going out with her for almost the whole of december.. dangz. Dunno how she know.. It all started yesterday wen she asked me about my friends den she mentioned lin.. Den she ask.. "u and lin how come no go out ler ar?... How come that time house warming no call her come.." den i was like.
"O-O"

Den she furthur ask.. "i tot u two were together .... ' den i was like

"T-T"

DEn I say.. "orh... she went out wif her boy friend that day la.. "

den she say.."orh.. u all fen shou ler ar.. HA HA HA..."

Den i was like.
"X_X"

dangz, i duno how she know so much.. and hell i dunno why she laugh till so hysterical..PArents can some times be the funniest ppl alive..

Mm, wasnt having a good day yesterday due to lots of tings..MM hope the new stop today wud be better ~! Lame..

living in the bubble of my own..

living in the bubble of my own.....

Am i disregarded by all .. am i but nth at all...

Wootz, changed my blog lay out ler.. kinda made it maself.. hehe.. proud abt it manz..

Mm, today was juz another day bahz.. more boring then yesterday. Ct came over to look for me for lunch at bt plaza. Mm, he very troubled over lots of tings .. Mm, dangz.. i guessed i juz made him more troubled.. Lol. We today also abit siao.. ate a plate of nasi lemak followed by a plate of fried kway teow.. ~~, cannot walk manz after lunch, too full..~

Finally confirmed my off days ler.. mondays and a alternate week end.. yayZ, i'm free any of u two wanna book me? wahhaha.

Tis sunday i'm off.. golly i nid to do lots of adminstrative stuffs manz..

1)get myself the table..
2)paint my bed frame..
3)get my hair cut ..
4)buy that denim looking jacket
5)plan for wat to do on monday afternoon
6)watch the live telecast of singapore vs indonesia

Some how i dun tink tis music suits my blog any more lehz.. find it weird....

mm nth to write ler.. no quote today.. hehe.

at times i require trust.. but i cant bring my self to give others that,sinned for that.

Quite a normal day today bahz.. off i went to work on the bus today. Nth much happened at work today... Happened to persuade my mum to buy a dog ler.. but juz now after wat jp said.. kinda demoralizing . like dun wan buy ler.. Dangz. What she says is true bahz, i might not have time for the dog after all..

Mm, now the peeps are at gaynes house playing mahjong bahz.. i dunno how to play.. and my mum wants me back home.. thus i went home ..

hehe, abit side tracked ler.. actually today was the eve of yu hui's birthday, then they decided to celebrate it today. LOl, juz now jp called me and i made tis crude remark.. She was telling me to hurry up as some of them nid to go off early.. den i told them to start first without me... hehe.. den i said i know they wun bear to start without me.. LOl. Lamed. KNocked off kinda early due to tht and went to meet up wif Jie after tht.She laughed wen she saw me .. she says i llook funy.. Dangz.. ~ Like where do i look funny lo.. Any way .. was supposed to meet ct at the fountain later on as he wants to acc me to the block.. Mm, i got this idea since jie was there... hehe, i told her to go to the fountain first .. lol.. i guess she also knows wats happening and decide to follow me to buy my food.Mm, i tink wat i am doing also bu shi ban fa.. the more i try to help the more worst it gets ,... dang, but i dun wan it to become bad lehz.. Mm, jie went silent completely after seeing ct there.. dangz. I dunno why liddat, ct also all time idiot, kicked his ass jus now.. i kinda understand how jie felt that time ler.. hehe. BUt i tink i felt more as tis time.. there are two ppl which i wanna kick ass. hehe. Mm, maybe fate is not finished with its work yet.. maybe wat wud happened might happen.. Haiz.

realised that the ship my bro was in had been routed to help out in the tsunami relief operations, i am so proud that my bro is helping them out and dang , i hope he dun gets into any trouble there. i heard tht there might be after shocks... maybe lord bless..

k bahz.. thts about all i have to say for today.. sorry for those who i offended to day if there are any ..I am thankful i live tis day... Heres a lil quote i wan to make..


Live a life today ...

dun dwell about the past as it is already over ..

Tink about the present and how u can make it better..then the past

Dun worry for the future as it has yet to come..

Tink about how to live the present to the fullest and make the best out of it..

in the depths of the night , the lone wolf mourns for it comrades

Mm, a better day to day ... hehe..

Went to work as usual, but abit lethargic.. still feeling kinda dizzy . MM got my pay today.. haiz.. far from wat i expected but i guess wats meant to be mine wud be mine de.. Mm,me will be peter parker and listens to wat my boss says...I will not be sad.

Sianz.. also nth much to type ler.. stupid z juz furthur confirmed that i am weak DANGZ.. Jay-C is nice.. jesse sucks.

I dun understand why, but i dun blame ... i know its difficult, i understand.

Today was quite a unsunny day.Went to siloso today...

Dangz woke up 7 in the morning to prepare the food manz... 2 hotdog sandwishes.. in the end. only the bois and angie eat only.. sianz..

It rained the whole day sial... wen we met it already was raining, den we boarded the bus first without km as he was late, due to my fault la.. forget to wake him up. Damn sucked.. The weather was so cold that calin and san li didnt went down to the water wif us.Mm, we played with sand for awhile den and finally all those who were reluctant to go into the water finnaly got wet.. heEh, temptation does work wonders..Km came awhile later.

TIme sorta dragged as we spent out bitter hours in the cold water.. The chill kinda penetrated our bones and we were shivering so much manz.. Then we got out of the water and settle at the shelter..Den yk came out wif tis weird idea of playing penalty shoot out.. hur hur.. i was like and idiot manz.. dunno how to handle the ball wif my legs.. but hehe, wen he suggested we used spiking instead of kicking.. hiak hiak.. he died.]

AFter tht work out.. i was feeling all pumped up for another go at the water there i am running into the water like an idiot hollering and jumping into the water... hehe, fun sial.. but alot of eyes looking at me..

Mm, we went off at 430 i tink.. dang.. they wanted to visit harbour front..

Mm, wen every ting sorta settle down and all.. i began tinking again, can say is fa bai ri meng.. Den suddenly, i tot of smth and i felt very dejected.. I shant say wat i tot here, but i hope tht for once my tots wud nt come true. Mm.. On the bus jie seated next to me.. i saw her face also like dejected liddat.. decide not to put too much pressure on her.. Was kinda pissed off at wat yh did wen she scolded km and st on the bus.. Its like, wen u make a crictism, knw that eyes are looking and u too and u make sure that wat u say dun reflect u in front of those eyes or wat've u said wud be empty words , i know she was angry also la.. most prob coz she's not been with us out often.. but tings weren't liddat before de lo.. every one would accomodate wif eacb other, every one could tolertate eachother.. but now.. i tink as time passes it brought distances in between ler bahz.But well i kept my cool and all, as i sorta understood why she did that bahz.

Then we went off to harbour front ler..dang, walk here walk there like idiots like tht.. den finnally settled at the food court. dang the tings there are damn exp lo.. ct was saying tht it is for extortion of the tourist's money. Hehe lame joke. But anyway... i sat infront of ct , and wen the rest went to buy their food i decide to have quick talk wid him. Hmm, he commented tht i could join media corps for acting as i am so good at it and its too good to be true. Dangz, wen he said tht , i remembered the word i told to yh at the siloso beach ,"he bi tong de na mer ming xian.." Aiya, i guess i am back to square one where i am wearing a mask again bahz. dAng i dunno manz... i dun wanna tink abt it.. i wan to break away from all tis.Mm , the best ting to do tht wud to occupy myself wif lots of tings to do bahz.. hehe, effective.

After eating we went to walk around habour front again den we decided to head home lo.. With me and yk going to lot 1 to buy his clothings and the gals going for bad.. Mm, dunno wat happened but i didnt feel like going after receiving a msg.. hehe. Ct and st and km went to gy house to watch the soccer match , tiger cup semi finals.. sg vs myanmmar.. Wah that match was ddamn good manz.. i went to join them after buying yk clothes wif him. We were like roaring and screaming and booing so loudly wen there was a goal.. I tink ct and km and me de reaction the biggest bahz..
we were like shouting so loudly lo.. hhehe. feel good after shouting sial..sg won 4-2 , the lions are roaring ler.. hehe.. the fact is.. we three are roaring..

WEnt str8 home after tht koz mum kbkb ler.. hehe

Tok to jie juz now.. alot of tings to tell her.. but i came down to only one ting bahz..she said tht she tot tht i was recovering ler.. mm, dunno bahz, its like after so much.. den now i like suddenly fang qi.. felt very difficult.. the amount of pain and sadness i had is so much....... I tink my jie know tht i wud rarely cry de even the adam khoo ting almost all the ppl cry i no cry ar... but now i actually cry for lin.. mm, shi qing zhen de bu xiao lehz...also dunno why.. now adays i tok wif her more and more comfortable ler.. i guess she also.. but i felt bad after yesterday wen km saw wat i was tokking wit her.. dui bu qi...Mm, now i wan to say ro ma de hua liao.. JIe, like wat i said yesterday, wen u nid someting to cry on.. i will be ur pillow.. wen u nid smth to hug.. i will be ur bolster... wen u nid smth to tok to.. i will be a voice recorder.. wen u are lost.. i will be ur light tower.. wen u nid a friend.. i will be juz me.. :D hehe.. Ro ma hor..

MM, dunno why, maybe now adays due to harsh weather and deficiency in food and much work and tinking tht resulted in me.. running a fever now.. Damn i tink i'm like wat pz said.. WEAK! , kept falling sick de.. I tink there is smth wrong wif my immune system , more prone to sickness den other ppl.. even my jie also stronger den me.. dang..

WootZ~!

New blog, new skin, new look, new ppl, new ideas, new year , new me. Its all brand new manz, welcum to the year 2005.

Alrite, spent the first second of the year c0unting down with ma bunch of niggas at bp.Not any part of a celebration though.. i dun wan myself celebrating after such a castastrophe happened .. Yea, the tidal waves.. I guess, by now all would know tht it had took away more lives den we expected and it had shooken the entire humanity, mother nature is avenging for wat we did to her and this is only part of her wrath. May lord bless those poor souls who have been caught between this enimity and may their battered souls rest in peace .

Been not posting liddis for quite a long time ler.. wheew, it definately feels gd to be posting again. Alrite, do tune up for more of post yea , nak tht. Chaoz .~!